Quizdiva gets more quizzes everytime I visit!

Wow I haven't updated in a while ... well, mostly been hanging out with Mike :) We don't think that the Disneyworld trip is a go anymore ... but we can still go to New York and Canada. While Disneyworld would've been amazing, it'll be nice to spend the time alone with Mike. Plus ... I'll be on the pill by then . Hehe. :lol:

Not much to report ... tomorrow we're going canoeing :) Gonna pack us some lunches and canoe for about 3 - 4 hours. Hopefully I'll get a little color being out in the sun ... we talked today about what kinda house we'll have ... we were laying out on the hammock under the big tree for a few minutes with the cat and a few dogs ... so I said later on "When we have a house, will we have all sorts of weird animals running around?" Ane he said "Yeah, we'll have a pig, and a Westie (the kind of dog I want) and Eddie (his Chinese Crested)" ... so I asked if we could have a goat too like they did at his house and he said yeah but we'd have to pen it up somewhere so it won't chew up the garden like theirs did hehe. It's great talking about stuff like that! And we talked more about "the plan" for when we live together and all that stuff and it's just so great ^.^

Well ... nothin' much else to say except my birthday is next Monday :) I don't wanna grow up ... :idea:

Wow.... alright I'll start at the beginning of today ... got up around 9:30 a.m., threw some stuff in the wash, took a shower, finished the laundry, etc ... Mike picked me up at noon. It was so good to see him!!! He got me a lot of stuff from his trip! He bought me a Hello Kitty tin and put it all in there :D He got me a Mothman doll because they went to Point Pleasant ... if you've seen "Mothman Prophecies" you'll know what I'm talking about. Also got me all those rocks and some really cute trinkets and a Mothman shirt ... the best was probably this little "canned critter" he got me .. it's an adorable little beaver inside a can! So cute ^.^ So after that we went to eat at a diner in the town I work in. Pretty yummy BLT. We read the paper while we ate. Nothing interesting; but did you know that Mariah Carey has someone in her entourage who takes care of chewed gum? The more you know ...

Well ... after some deliberation I decided I don't want to put tons of our personal stuff in here ... but basically, we discussed the topic of doing the deed tonight. I'm going to be going on the pill, but it won't be effective for another month or so, and he doesn't want to use a condom. Which is good. But it kinda stinks because ... next month we're going to Disneyworld!!!!!!!!! I've never been on a real vacation before!!!!! We're going around June 20 - 25 and staying for a WEEK. This nullifies our NY/Canada trip but that's okay because we don't have to pay for all of this and plus it'll be a lot longer! It's crazy ... but it would've been nice to do that in Florida .. but hey, we've gone six months without "it", I think we can wait another month and a half to two months. :roll:

But what really made this night the best ... we talked about our future together. That's one thing we've never really done. It's so great .. I mean we didn't talk kids and all that, but we talked about a house and what he wants to do career wise, and what I'll do in conjunction with that ... it's the best thing in the world. We're so perfect for each other ... it's so true how similar we are ... I mean millions of people have the same interests, but that combined with our shared morality on no drugs, drinking, or any smoking, and our beliefs ... just how we mesh together so well ... he said he had a lot of bad relationships and had almost given up on finding anyone until we got together. I mean ... I am a planner. I like to plan things out. I like to talk about marriage and kids and stuff. But with Mike, I don't feel so rushed. I want to be proposed to, I want to look at houses together, I don't want everything to be all mapped out in advance. It's hard to explain ... but this is it. I mean, unless some unforeseen event causes things not to work out between us ... :( We even talked about how our bodies will be when we're old and if he'll have the stamina to keep up with my sex drive :oops:

Well ... I'm gonna go bask in the afterglow of a wonderful evening ... and a not so wonderful evening at Red Lobster unfortunately ::grumble:: Ciao. :idea:

It is crummy ... Mike ended up coming home early from his trip yesterday :( While I'm glad he's back, I really didn't want him to come back early! He said it was okay though, the only thing him and his dad had wanted to do that they didn't was go to Texas, but that was the whole point; so he could see where he was born .... didn't see the ocean ... so sad. He said he got me the coolest birthday present ever but my birthday's not for another week and a few days X( So ... he's picking me up around noon with his mom ... guess they're gonna go look at some houses around here. And both of the ones he mentioned are like a half hour away ::sigh:: But what can you do? Maybe his mom will invite me to come live with them, lol ... nah, I couldn't do that to my mom ... Mike's being really sweet though about all of this ... he wouldn't leave his mom alone at home for another week. In other news ... I got a really cute outfit at Wal-Mart last night! 8) We had gone initially because my mom was gonna put a new TV in layaway for my birthday, and while it'd be nice to have a new one, mine has been serving me well, and I only use it to watch movies or play games anyway. So I couldn't think of what I wanted .... she bought me a pair of khaki shorts, a nice summer-y top, and the CUTEST sandals ever. Made by EarthShoe, my favorite brand! So comfortable and they kinda remind me of mocassins or however you spell it. Got a cute gold anklet to wear as well. It's about time I got "feminine" stuff. I'm usually just neutral, lol ... Well I gotta go finish up my laundy and take a shower before Mike gets here. Ciao! :idea:

P.S.  I found some pictures from when we went down to Tennessee/Virginia last year.  Here's a pic of me with my cousin Jenna.  We may be going down again in a few weeks since two of my relatives were in a near fatal car accident and are now in rehab ... or maybe my mom and stepdad will go, leaving the house to me ... hehe :oops:  Anyhoo here's the picture.  I'm on the left.

Yuck ... what a crummy night! First off ... I got rid of some of the pics of me on the side because I didn't need that many. Not that good to look at. Also, I got a new picture of me and Mike to put up and I'm gonna upload that sometime soon but till then, I just got rid of all the extra pics that I didn't particularly like. We didn't look so great in that picture anyway, lol.

Well ... it turns out that his mom and stepdad are probably getting a divorce. This stinks. It's so sudden! And even worse, he might have to come back early from his trip because of it. That's really rotten. And he'll have to get rid of most of his dogs because they'll move ... he only lives like 5 minutes away from me now and he won't anymore :'( And I thought the Hawaii trip might be off ... but he says we're still gonna go if he has the money! :D But maybe he'll change that to Ireland because he said he'd actually rather go there. That would be neat. Hawaii would be gorgeous, but I'd rather see castles and hillsides. But yeah ... blah. ::sad sigh:: And he said that a girl he was friends with in high school and just talked to last month passed away because her SUV flipped over. A terrible night ...

Well ... I'm gonna listen to some Air and go to bed pretty soon ... :idea:

Wow! Today was long but pretty decent. Left for work this morning after my previous post. Things went pretty smoothly at inventory and I even stayed a little longer to hang out with Lee. We grabbed some lunch and had a really good time chatting like we always do.

I got home at about 2:30-ish and took a nap with Chi Chi on the couch. Woke up pretty late ... went in to Orrville and did a little shopping and got an ice cream cone 8) My stepdad charged my car battery because it wouldn't start the other day. He thinks my radio is draining it because it can turn on without the car being on. Who knows. I'm gonna ask him what he thinks I could get for it if I sold it. We're having a garage sale on Saturday so I'll put a sign on it and see if I get anyone interested.

I got a postcard from Mike today! It was so sweet! Just a little blurb but it definitely made my day! :) I'm so glad we're together ... ::happy sigh:: I know we had our problems before, like trust issues when he would be gone for a few days with his friends at a college campus, or something ... I mean he had said he thought nothing of hanging with his ex-girlfriends ... but I think us saying those three words have really given me confidence - it makes me feel more secure, and that's important. I'm happier than I've ever been! I definitely trust him 100% ... what else can you do, really? I was never afraid that he'd cheat on me - I was afraid that he would dump me. Me and Lee talked about this today. Two different things.

So anyhoo, not really a whole lot to talk about ... ciao :idea:

Argh! Mike was online last night after I went to bed at like 9 pm (unheard of for me). Figures!

So I'm up at this unheard of hour because I have to be at work in about an hour ... inventory! At least I'm only there till noon since it's such a pain in the ass. I'm going to take my Air CD and see if my manager will actually let me put it in before the store opens ... listening to it now :)

The first thing I have to do on inventory, working the early shift, is scan alllll the video boxes on the New Release wall. Then someone better have done a candy count last night because then I have to scan all the candy and put the numbers in for everything. It SUCKS! But I can't imagine what inventory must be like at Wal-Mart! Then again, it's probably just by department and on different days ... still, what a pain!

I still haven't hung out with Mike's mom yet this week ... I'm kind of planning on straightening up my room after I get home from work today in case Lee wants to stay over pretty soon. Plus my room is a total disaster area. I'm just NOT a neat, organized person. It's probably my biggest bad point .. my mom always says that when I'm married, my house is gonna be totaled - but then it'll be MY house, where other people are coming to visit me in it. No one ever comes in my room! We always hang out at Mike's because there is literally zilch to do here, so I guess that's why I don't bother ...

I've been hardly eating anything since Mike's been gone ... maybe that's a good thing? Now it just needs to warm up outside and be sunny so I can take a walk or something ... oh my gosh, I'm gonna fall asleep to these Air tunes ... "Universal Traveler" is so hypnotic ... "Surfing on a Rocket" and "Another Day" are my favorites though ... and "Biological" and "Cherry Blossom Girl"... lol that's half of the CD .. my favorite band Deadsy is supposed to be coming out with a new CD sometime and it sounds great, I just wish I knew when the damn thing was coming out! Mike got me into a group called Ra and they are awesome as well. The main singer's voice is really good. Because I'm bored ... I'll list some of my favorite bands and my favorite songs by them ... I got like a half hour before I leave for work lol ... in no particular order ..

Air - "Cherry Blossom Girl"
Deadsy - "Mansion World" or "Seagulls (The Macroprospus)"
Beatles - "Ballad of John and Yoko" or "Eleanor Rigby"
The B-52's - "Topaz"
The Black Mages - "Otherworld" (okay that's kind of a joke but it's a good song!)
Freezepop - "Plastic Stars" or "Vacation"
Garbage - "I Think I'm Paranoid"
Orgy - "Stitches"
Depeche Mode - "Halo"

I'm so ticked ... I guess I don't have time to list more than that; maybe later tonight. I got sidetracked o_O Anyway I put in my Deadsy CD, the second incarnation of it since I scratched my original one all to hell .. it's the EDITED version! Not that it really matters; there's only one mention of "fuck" in the whole thing, but it's just annoying ... the lyric is "Maybe there we can fuck under the heavenly stars" (roughly) and they replace "fuck" with some girl moaning ... oh well ... I love this CD! P. Exeter Blue ... aka Elijah Blue ... aka Cher's son .. has the best voice! Takes me back to junior year when my ex used to make fun of me for liking them ... all the guys in the group are weird but yummy :oops: I'll post some pics!

Dangit ... I got tons of Elijah Wood crap when looking up Elijah Blue lol ...

Clockwise, starting from the dude in the black ... Creature, Carlton Megalodon, Alec Pure, Dr. Nner, and P. Exeter Blue. Wow, I'm proud of myself for remembering all their names since I haven't really been as obsessed with them lately. I had made a whole site for them back in the day ...


I wonder if they even look like this anymore? ... probably not as this was from like 2001/2002 ... oh well ..


Well, it's about time for me to leave for work, so everyone have a great day! :idea:

[b]"The Mansion World" by Deadsy[/b]
Once upon, and once up high
A dandy dreamed what means to die
Things to come, as life goes by
The core of human equation
Tetragram presents the sign
A sign to saviourize
Turn around, I'd like to know you
Everywhere and every why
The answer lay beyond the sky
Pass through the seven satellites pass on to the place we go to
(Learn to read!)
To rhyme, to count your primes
An earthly education
(Climb A Tree!)
In life in hopes to find
(The mid-space time - dilation)
On a Mansion World, the role's reversed
A slave becomes a master
On a Mansion World, the soul's converse
And life moves a little faster
We unify in universe
And arrive in the ever after
In the Mansion World, I might like to know you
Now and then it comes to mind
I draw upon a long lost time
So don't ask me why the angels won't cry 'cause you know what I've already told you
Memories of Urantia girls they race around my brain in swirls
You'll never ask me why the changes in the sky lead you upwards through the hole
that you go through
And now you're off you've done the time
Prepare for divine invasion
As the spirit climbs Morontia minds
Ascend to the cosmic nation
On a Mansion World, the role's reversed
A slave becomes a master
On a Mansion World, the soul's converse
And life moves a little faster
We unify the universe
And arrive in the ever after
In the Mansion World, I might like to know you
New Urantia girl, everything's below you
On a Mansion World, the role's reversed
A slave becomes a master
On a Mansion World, the soul's converse
And life moves a little faster
We unify the universe
And arrive in the ever after
In the Mansion World, I might like to know you
Once upon, and once up high
A dandy dream, what means to die?

I got plenty of sleep ... but maybe it's a good thing that I'm tired ... gotta be at work at 8 am so maybe I should go to bed early ... or not! Hehe!

I've been comparison shopping for prices on trains and car rentals. Today I called the Amtrak automated line and that thing is SO COOL. It has voice recognition so instead of it saying "For this option, press 1, for that option, press 2" it says "Please state what city you'd like to depart from" and open ended questions like that. It was cool! I had to call it multiple times because I was at work and was getting interrupted but I didn't mind redoing my info!

So anyway ... it turns out that the [i]cheapest[/i] coach tickets from Cleveland, OH to Syracuse, NY are $98. Well, that's for two people. So $98 there and $98 back. That's $200 just for transportation! Then to rent a car, the best price for three days I found was from Avis, at approx. $100. We might not need it for that long but that's ballpark. So $300!!! I get to inform Mike tonight, but hey, depending on how well he's managing his finances on the trip with his dad, we just might have the money for it.

Aww our dog is so cute! I'm downstairs on my mom's computer since no one is home and I get to hang out with our chihuahua. :D

Well, tomorrow is already Wednesday ... this week is going by so slow!!! I think the second week of Mike's trip is gonna go by the slowest though. I just think of how great it's gonna be when he finally gets back! He better not think of going on any other trips anytime soon! :roll:

Welp, I'm gonna do some more comparison shopping and see if there's anywhere else cheaper for our trip. After payday I'll already have $400+ saved for it, but gotta be cheap where we can! This would be the perfect opportunity to stay in a fancy hotel with a hot tub too! I think I'm gonna try to influence him into just driving X( I can drive too when he doesn't feel like it; heck, we may even take my car! Har har, good one ... ciao! :idea:

That's about the only thing I did of importance today was go see Star Wars again with my mom, hehe. I noticed a couple things I didn't notice in my first viewing, but I won't spoil them :) Mostly to do with tying things up with "A New Hope." The first time we went, the theatre was pretty empty and we could whisper and not bother anyone, and no one was disruptive ... this time some brat kept crying in the side aisle across from me, and people were chewing on their popcorn like cows! It was aggravating. Everyone finally shut up after the first hour. For me, that whole movie is spent in anticipation for the last 20 minutes :) And ew! After we got a bite to eat at Wendy's, we were heading over to the theatre and some dude was leaning out of his car with the door open. I wondered what the heck was going on and the guy started PUKING! It was sooo gross - this was on a busy street! It's like, pull over and let the poor guy barf! ::shudders::

I talked to Mike tonight too ^.^ Tomorrow him and his dad are gonna go venturing through Mammoth Cave, which is apparently one of or the biggest/deepest/something -or-other cave in the United States! He's gonna have a sack of rocks for me too when he gets back, lol.

Blah. I work from noon - 6 tomorrow which sucks because it's too early to get anything done, and too late to do anything afterwards, really. Hopefully it'll go by quickly. I'm really surprised that it's already Tuesday tomorrow. Either Wednesday after work or Friday, since I don't work, I'm going to look into college stuff since I promised Mike I'd do that.

We talked about our New York/Canada trip on the phone too. Mike suggested we take a train to somewhere in New York about an hour away from NYC, stay in a hotel there, then the next day spend the day in NYC, then go back to the hotel, then the next day after that, drive to Niagara Falls and take a ferry over to Canada and spend some time there, then go back again to the hotel. I think that sounds like a really good idea, because it can't be a long trip, but we'll get a lot out of it. So I'm looking up train ticket prices now.

Well not much else to talk about! Ciao! :idea:

Another day of uneventfulness. Worked. After working both weekend evenings, it's nice to have a day off tomorrow. Me and my mom are gonna go see Star Wars, second time for me :) Then I don't have another day off till Friday ... bleh. Wednesday is inventory at work and that's the worst .< So no staying up late for me this week because I work early in the day -.- >
I got a sweet e-mail from Mike but no phone call. That's okay though. He's getting to spend time with family he doesn't see much and I bet he's having a great time. I think they're heading to Tennessee tonight/tomorrow so I hope nothing crummy happens with their vehicle. Speaking of vehicles someone needs to jump my damn car! I keep asking my mom or stepdad to because the battery is dead but nooo everyone is too busy. Drives me nuts. I'm thinking about selling it though; I could probably get more than I asked for it. I kind of want something bigger, because after driving Mike's truck I realize bigger vehicles aren't hard to handle. I'd really like a Bronco II. Who knows.

I slept well last night cuddling up to Mike's pillow .. perhaps Wednesday after work I can hang out with his mom and we can talk girl stuff, hehe. Or do gardening or something fun like that. She's one of those people you can really open up to. And maybe I'll use her tanning bed, lol ... I know it's really awful for you, I've been telling my mom that for years, so I guess it'd be a little hypocritical of me. And it's not going to be nice enough this week to get outside and get the necessary rays to get a little sun ... and I am NOT going out in a bathing suit ... I'd reflect the rays of the sun like snow!

I rented "Confessions of an American Girl" tonight so I'm gonna go watch that. It's an independent movie starring Jena Malone (Mike has a crush on her ... didn't tell me but when he owns all her movies, you can tell :roll:) and Brad Renfro. So ciao. :idea:

Today was a good day! Well ... last night, I beat Tactics! It was ridiculously easy. I got three of the extra characters at the end of the game; already had Ezel (he kinda sucks though), Ritz, Shara, and Babus. There's a lot of fun stuff to do after you beat the game which sucks because I've already logged 95 hours on it! I started playing Tactics Ogre as well and it's really good. I love tactical RPGs, I think!

After I beat Tactics, I got Mike's stuff together for this morning .. I wrote him five different notes; one to read tonight (5/21), one to read Monday (5/23), one for Thursday (5/26), one for the next Monday (5/30), and a note for that next Thursday (6/2) so that he would have a little blurb from me every couple of nights or so. He came over about 9:30 this morning ... we sat out on my porch for a few minutes and talked ... held each other for a little bit and then he left with his dad. I cried for a few minutes after that, and then decided to cheer up and watch "The Incredibles" with my mom. I mean ... nothing I can do really, except look at each new day as a day closer to him getting back. He even called me tonight at work and we talked for about 10 - 15 minutes about what he had done today. I asked him to get me rocks from each state he visits so he got me one from a West Virginia war .. area, probably Civil War battlefield ... so that's pretty neat. And it's nice because he can call me just about every night. I wasn't expecting that :)

Tonight at work was really good too! I had been slightly upset with Lee lately because we've hardly talked the past few weeks and I thought she was ignoring me ... but she's been stressed out about some things too and we talked about it and patched it up. She's my best friend; it was stressing me out at the thought of her not wanting to talk to me for some unknown reason, but everything's good now. We talked about having a sleepover sometime this week, even though of course we have conflicting schedules :P Lee is really great. We come from such similar backgrounds and I think mesh really well. I love the video store I work at - it introduced me to my love and my best friend!

I'm so happy with Mike though ... I'm not even feeling depressed like I thought I would at him being gone. We've got so much to look forward to this summer and Hawaii of course ... I keep fantasizing about him proposing to me on top of a volcano or something, hehe! :oops: I promised him I would get all signed up for school and everything while he was away so I'll have to start that on Monday, my only day off until Friday. Not so sure I want to go to Stark anymore; I may look into Wayne again, simply because it's much closer and I think I want to get a four year degree. I'm so fickle!

[i]Edit:[/i] I also feel like rambling about dumb people! I work in a small town video store. We close at 11 pm on Fridays and Saturdays, which is later than anything else in the plaza (except Burger King). Of course some dude and his like 8 year old kid come in at 11 pm ... firstly that's kind of late to be carting your kid around, and secondly, I hate when people do that! We turned off the open sign, and then turned off some of the lights and he finally got the hint. Then I was doing paperwork after closing and we don't have a phone in the office anymore. I can hear it ringing in the front of the store, but I figured it was just someone seeing if we were still open. So if I just let it ring and ring they'd get the picture and hang up. I swear the phone rang at LEAST 20 times; they had to have tried calling at least twice. So thinking it could be an important call for me, I go up there, only to hear this dumb girl ask if we were still open! Rather tightlipped, I answered no. Then she said "OH" like I was the one being rude! It's like ... you're calling a small town business at 11:15 pm asking if they're still open after that many rings. That's that town for you, though! Glad I don't live there!

Lee and I even joked about going to a club tonight since our significant others were both busy. It's fun to joke about but I don't honestly think I'd have a good time. I'm so antisocial anymore. I love being with Mike and Lee and maybe a few other people, like Mike's friends who are great, and a couple friends I haven't seen in forever, but that's it. No new people. I dunno what it is! I guess I just don't see the appeal of partying or drinking or doing drugs like I lot of people my age around here do. I like that me and Mike and most of our friends have strong beliefs against drinking or doing drugs. Who needs it? I don't need an escape, and I definitely don't see the fun in it. I always want to be in 100% control of myself. Under the influence, I don't think you can be.

Well, I'm gonna go cuddle up next to the pillow I snatched from Mike before he left ... ciao! :idea:

I think at my worst (in a relationship), I get paranoid and clingy. For example, Mike's leaving on his two week trip tomorrow. I've just been really clingy and nervous ... I mean, I know in my heart he would never purposely cheat on me. It's just that little speck of doubt that is ever present telling me not to be so naive. I think I have ADD or something ... my brain just moves a million miles an hour and I can't even think. I can never focus on one thing anymore. I have a really short attention span ... and this was the perfect example! Talking about being paranoid/clingy, and I start rambling about something else. He's stopping over in the morning for a few minutes to say bye and then he's jetting off. At least I work a lot this week so that'll make it go by quickly. Not that I'm totally lost without him, but this has been a really good week for us and that just makes it even harder. He was starting to get a little ticked off at my worrying ... it's like, well, you're just going to have to get used to it! If I'm indifferent, it makes me look like I don't care;, if I am clingy like I am now, it's no good ... sometimes I feel like I just can't win.

On a lighter note, I went to Wal-Mart today and got him some stuff, like candy he likes, and a couple other little doodads. Nothing outrageous but just a little token of affection. I'm gonna write him a note to go with it too and maybe make him a new bracelet if I have time. He's got two others I've made him so that oughta be enough. Plus I'm a little sleepy, and if he's gonna be ticked about me being so clingy, then he can just do without X( He's the one going on vacation! Although we have talked a lot about going to NY/Canada ... we may even take a train to NY and then rent a car to drive to Canada; that would be fun and save mileage on his truck. I've never ridden on an actual train; I've been on one for like an hour around the county but that doesn't really count. It was going really slow too. Trains kind of make me nervous though ... but we'll see ...

Well, I'm going to go sulk. Ciao. :idea:

What a great evening! Today was me and Mike's six month day! It was wonderful ... we went out to eat at a restaurant called the Macaroni Grille. FABULOUS food! It was a restaurant leaning more towards the dressy casual side .. kind of like Olive Garden but maybe a little more uppity. So we get there, get the hunk of bread they give you as a starter ... get some mozzerella triangles (not sticks) as an appetizer ... then realize we want this REALLY good deal - a Caesar salad, chicken & pasta (huge!), and a piece of chocolate cake for only $12! So we basically had a five course meal! It was way more than we could eat so we ended up with a huge carry out box!

Afterwards we headed over to EB Games and the clerk there would NOT stop talking. AND even worse he tried to tell us he knew more about the new Zelda - no. We saw the new videos/info about it on G4 covering E3, so we KNEW, and he tried to tell us different stuff. People at EB act like such know-it-alls. But I did buy a GBC version of the original Shadowgate. I had the rom for it on my old computer. It should be fun.

We also went to Borders and I got this REALLY nice sketchbook for only $8 - has tons of pages and a hard cover. Also got a cook book because I'm gonna learn recipes while Mike is gone, dangit! And a book about the *real* history of the United States, not what they teach you in school. I also preordered the new Harry Potter book 8)

And of course tonight we went to see STAR WARS! I won't spoil it for anyone. But it was 10 trillion times better than Episodes I & II. The ending was just fabulous, everyone acted a lot better - except Natalie Portman, who sucked! Mike even admitted to liking her once and he said she's maybe the worse actress ever! But it was a lot more graphic than any other Star Wars. I really liked Jimmy Smits as Bail Organa. The dialogue was somewhat stiff though, like Ep. I & II. In the original trilogy, the characters were just so well developed, the rapport between characters was so fluid and easy ... but Episode III is head and shoulders above the rest of the new trilogy.

Mike is leaving on Saturday for his trip :'( I didn't cry today! He's stopping over before they leave that afternoon ... I have to be strong! He's gonna send me postcards and call when he can. I figure I just gotta not think about him being gone and get all my college prep stuff done. Tomorrow I'm gonna go to the store and put together a little bag for him of stuff to take on his trip .. just trinkets, write him a couple notes for him to read, little stuff like that. He's so sweet to me ... I think we're at a high in our relationship - it's never been bad, but I feel it's the best it's ever been :)

Well, it's flipping LATE, so I'm heading to bed. Ciao! :idea:

Well definitely so far it's been the best! I guess I'll just start at the beginning. I got up pretty late but hung out with my mom till Mike picked me up at 4 pm. We went to my work, got the new Star Wars game and Jade Empire (for X-Box of course ... wink wink). Stopped at the grocery store and picked up some pop and groceries his mom wanted. Went back to his house ... watched a lot of "All in the Family" ... and the Star Wars game rocks! It's kind of hard to get the hang of; there are so many button combos and things you have to learn, but the duel mode is SWEET. Mike says it uses the same engine as the Lord of the Rings games. So .. he was whooping me in duel mode and I got kind of grouchy. So we were just laying around and started tickling and he just straight up said "I love you." And I was so shocked I just went "I LOVE YOU TOO!" It's the first time he's said that to me :D So after that we even talked for a few hours about personal things, like past relationships and some things that he's been through. But I didn't say it as I was getting out of his truck at night because I have a feeling that he doesn't want it to be overused. The phrase definitely loses it's meaning if you just say it over and over. ::happy sigh:: We learn to appreciate each other's company and really get to know one another before rushing to say those three little words, and doing more physically. It's so great ... well, I gotta finish up my FAFSA and go to the bank to deposit some of my check tomorrow too. Man, have so much to save for ... going to New York/Canada sometime this summer, and then Hawaii in the winter! Probably only need $300 for the NY trip, but at least $800 for the Hawaii one ... wow ... that's only like 6 - 8 months from now! ::jitters with excitement:: We're doing a ton of stuff this summer ... going to this really cool outdoor flea market called "Roger's" which is apparently near the PA border ... and I'll be 20 in three weeks exactly, whoo! Which means Mike will be back from his trip by then!

Ciao! :idea:

Well this time I really AM almost done with Tactics. I only have the last string of three consecutive boss battles to go. I was feeling bleh at work so when the other girl got there I said I was going to work on some stuff in the back but I played Tactics for a good chunk of it. I don't really care though. Job sucks. People suck. I have no good friends anymore; as I am just a convenient friend to talk to when someone has a problem, or when they don't have anyone else to spend time with. But as soon as other friends come along, I get ditched. Can I just go live under a rock now, with Mike and some video games? Seriously, the only people who I actually talk to anymore are Nick and Justin, two guy friends from high school, my ex Nick, sometimes, my cousin Brittany, and of course Mike. Really ... being friends with people is too hard of work; my ex even told me that I was way too antisocial. So what if I'd rather be reading, playing a video game, or just reflecting. I'll have plenty of alone time when Mike leaves this weekend! Well, I'll still go over his house to hang out with his mom probably. Look at baby pictures and talk about stuff that Mike doesn't care about, lol.

Hopefully me and Mike will be able to do some fun stuff this week before he leaves this weekend. It's supposed to be pretty crummy weather wise, but we'll find something. It's gonna be six months on Thursday ... also the day the new Star Wars comes out!! I have low expectations, but I am definitely a nut for the original trilogy. My dad and I saw the special editions in theatres back in the late 90s ... I used to have this sweet original "Return of the Jedi" poster but lost it moving to this house :( The acting/script in the past two was just very poor ... hopefully this one will make up for it.

Okay ... I'm in a certain mood so I am gonna have to go satisfy it ... ciao! :idea:

This is probably the best test I've taken recently. What level of Hell will you be sent to? Mine isn't a surprise ...

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Second Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Very High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Low
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Moderate
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	High

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test


And of course, the classic personality disorder test ...

Disorder	Rating
Paranoid:	Very High
Schizoid:	Moderate
Schizotypal:	High
Antisocial:	Low
Borderline:	Moderate
Histrionic:	Low
Narcissistic:	Moderate
Avoidant:	Very High
Dependent:	Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive:	Moderate
-- Personality Disorder Test -- -- Personality Disorder Information --

Something I found measuring my loneliness quotient ...



This one is from Tickle.com ... of course for more results; I'd have to pay some amount ...

Heidi, you're a secret agent!
You're a smart, shrewd loner. Chances are although you prefer solitude; you're a deeply caring person full of energy and ideas. On a personal level, you're sensitive. [b]You may worry too much about how you compare to others, and your mood suffers under such intense personal scrutiny.[/b]

You like to eat lunch at your desk. You also have a critical eye that assures your final product is always top rate.

And that's just scratching the surface!

Yeah ... all I did today was play FF Tactics and work this evening! Really busy. Nothing eventful though. I'm gonna either watch "Kinsey" or the special features for "White Noise" here in a little bit; the latter was pretty decent. Great story, I've studied EVP and the supernatural before, but the acting was ehh. Definitely worth renting though. And if the special features are strictly about EVP and ghosts, etc, it may be worth buying. I love special features! "Kinsey" looks great; it's about a sex researcher from the 1950's. Has Peter Sarsgaard in it, one of my favorite indie actors.

Sooo this time I'm really close to beating Tactics. My main dude is only two levels lower than Mike's guy when he beat the game. I've been working on drawing some of the characters because the strategy guide has great pictures to show the anatomy, and the outfits are really neat. So off I go. :idea:

Wow! I used to update every day but now it's just like every other day ... let's see ... got to stay over Mike's last night .... and today was a really good day. We did some work with his mom out on their porch to keep the pigs from eating his mom's plants, hehe. Went with his mom to a cemetery in Rittman and we walked around looking at headstones ... there were like 5 Civil War vets, 3 War of 1812 vets, and a Revolutionary War veteran buried there! Super old!

Let's see ... also went to the awesome independently owned gaming store in Wadsworth where we bought two used wireless adapters for our GBAs (only $6 a pop!) so we could trade Pokemon! And I found the Final Fantasy Tactics Advance strategy guide for only $6 too! Mike got the FireRed/LeafGreen guide for only $6 too :) We had a really good time tonight; him playing Baldur's Gate and me playing Tactics ... and I'm still not sure yet if I want to play Chrono Trigger or Ogre Battle. Mike loves Chrono Trigger, but I can't play that on the go. So who knows.

I gotta work tomorrow night ... gotta work Sunday night too -_- Sometime next week we may go canoeing! If it's nice enough. And after he gets back from his Texas trip (he leaves in a WEEK! ;_; ) we might go to the cabin! That would be kind of difficult though since someone has to take care of/watch the dogs/various animals at their house.

Welp, I'm gonna go play some tactics and go to bed. Ciao! :idea:

I don't know if that's the name of that Rob Thomas song or what but I hear it at work all the time and it's driving me nuts! :x

Let's see ... yesterday was pretty good! Got to stay over Mike's house last night. We went up to Fairlawn with his mom to take her to a couple stores, and it was hailing a little on the way there ... afraid it was gonna crack the windshield! Went to Pat Catan's, Best Buy, Gabriel Brothers, Big Lots .. etc ... I had also made him that chicken (well my mom helped, I messed up the first attempt) and got some pasta and strawberry shortcake for us to eat, it was delicious! I know I'm a terrible cook but Mike said his mom would teach me if I wanted her to. :)

We played more (frustrating) Four Swords last night ... all in all it was a really good night talking about different things and just hanging out. We had to get up early because he had a final exam today (should be starting it in about 10 minutes, eep!) but he'll do great. He's so scholarly ... I like to read and learn about literature but I don't know if I could be an English major like him!

So, what else. Me and my mom are going up to visit my grandma near Cleveland today. Hopefully it's nice; maybe we can go to the break wall at Lake Erie. So I'm gonna head off here, ciao. :idea:

Man ... you ever have one of those days where you feel like you could drop off the face of the planet and no one would really care? I don't know if it's just me, or Mike isn't good at reassurance, but I just feel like crap right now. We talked about my going back to school, my artist's block, etc ... I mean we've been together nearly 6 months, and I love him to death, I just wish things would move at a slightly faster pace ... not physically, just emotionally; I know he takes things slow, but sometimes I feel like it's because I'm inadequate. He assures me I'm not, but I'm very insecure.

Anyway. I made a bet with Mike last night that if I didn't finish Final Fantasy Tactcs Advance tonight, I was cooking him some chicken tomorrow. So it looks like I'm gettin' to work in the kitchen because I didn't have any time to play today, in between work and spending time with my mom. Oh well; while it sucks having to get the chicken, it's fun to make something yourself, as long as it turns out good!

Haven't really felt like coming online a lot lately, or updating my blog. No one to really talk to. My friends Nick and Justin are usually around, and they are great to talk to, but Lee has been somewhat distant lately. I've been feeling a little antisocial lately (more than usual) but I guess I'm just a needy friend; I feel like I'm being ignored. Been doing a lot of staring off into space.

When the FAFSA site sends me my PIN number I'll get to fill out that for some college assistance. Mike made me promise him by the time he gets back from his trip to Texas (which now includes Mexico) that I'll be done with the FAFSA and registering for school. I don't want to break a promise to him so it's a good motivator. That'll be right before my birthday ... the big 2-0. I'm getting old T_T Mike always jokes about being the adult in the relationship :roll:

I saw an old friend today at the thrift store; I'll have to go talk to her again (she works there) and see if she wants to hang out sometime. Also have to walk over to my friend Shannon's and see if she is up to hanging out. I need to do something other than with Mike; I love him, but I realize that I need other friends too. Something I was seriously lacking in past relationships, and Mike is definitely not lacking in.

Alright, well I'm heading to bed, or at least to stare at the ceiling. Ciao. :idea:

Whoo! Here are the pics me and Mike took this Saturday when we were at Stan Hywet (see previous post).


The first picture I took ... pretty pretty flowers! Aren't they vibrant and gorgeous?



Stan Hywet itself from the front. Isn't it huge?!?! Looks more like a castle!



::shifty eyes:: A really good picture of Mike in front of a gate in the Japanese Garden area.



And lastly, me leaning over a ledge ... that place was so cool!


While there are a lot more pictures, I liked these the best ... plus you really had to be there to appreciate it. Only $12 for the full tour & freedom to explore the grounds! Akron, Ohio, tourist capital of the world! :roll:

Holy cow! What a wonderful weekend! Work was meh Friday morning, but Mike picked me up later that day :) His mom and stepdad went away for the weekend so we had the house to ourselves! Let's see ... I don't remember what we did Friday night o_O went up to Blockbuster and saw an old friend ... got some Domino's Pizza ... sheesh what did we do! I don't think we stayed up that light .. oh, we played Pokemon Snap and Mike played Starfox 64. That game was sweet! I played a few levels but sucked at it. The boss, Andross is freaking SCARY. Floating old monkey head with detached hands ... I thought I was gonna have nightmares!

Saturday we went to the most AWESOME place in the Akron area, Stan Hywet Hall. If I had the pics right now that Mike took, I'd put them up, but instead I'll put a picture of the place I found online:



Info from www.ci.akron.us: "Stan Hywet Hall and Gardens is a majestic 50,000 square foot, 65-room country estate located on a beautiful 70-acre garden lanscape on Akron's west side. Helen Keller, Will Rogers, President William Howard Taft, and other famous people visited Goodyear founder F.A. Seiberling in his Tudor Revival home. Seiberling built the grand estate between 1912 and 1915 to meet the needs of their active lifestyles and large family. The name Stan Hywet is Old English for 'Stone Quarry.'"

On the tour we took of the home, we visited *only* 27 rooms, which is less than half of the full house; and that took like 30-45 minutes! We were allowed to walk around the grounds and visit the Japanese garden, the lagoon, and we would've seen the English garden (something like that), but there was a wedding going on! Talk about the PERFECT day for a wedding in northeast Ohio! No clouds in the sky and mid 70s!

So after that we went back to his house and relaxed for a while ... watched "Gladiator" which was really gory but also very good. All in all it was a great weekend! I had to work this evening and for Mother's Day got my mom a few movies she's been wanting for a while since I had tried to get to Kohl's and get her something this week but I couldn't ... fashioned her a little homemade card too, lol ... but now I'm broke! All my money is in the bank and I can't get it unless I go there since I opened an account less than a week ago :|

Anyhoo ... I'm gonna play some more Tactics; haven't really had time lately. Ciao! :idea:

Let's see. I finally got over my conspiracy theory and signed up for a bank account. I'm really excited about it. I can use direct deposit to get my paycheck put directly in my checking account on payday, and I also got a savings account so I can keep money away for me and Mike's trip to Canada, and Hawaii. I put $100 in checking and $300 in savings. And they also let me do a thing where I can have them take $20 out of my pay each pay period and put it directly in my savings account so I don't have to worry about it :) I figure that's a good default amount; if I want to put more in there, I can do it manually.

At work tonight my ex Nick's girlfriend Michele (who used to work at my work) and my old friend Shannon stopped in! I haven't seen Shannon in ... over a year, since me and my other ex saw her and her boyfriend at the theatre. Anyhoo, her 22nd birthday party is coming up, and it's while Mike is going on his trip, so maybe I'll go. It's right down the road from my house, so if everyone gets drunk, I can just walk home, lol. What else happened ... literally not really anything ... Mike's mom and stepdad might be leaving for the cabin tomorrow afternoon and staying till Sunday night so *hopefully* I won't get to update my blog till then, since I'll be at his house! :D I didn't get to play hardly any Tactics today ::sad sigh:: But I will tomorrow at work, maaaybe ... I had to close tonight, and I have to open in the morning, so I left a lot of stuff for me to do. Not like I was leaving it for someone else to clean up after hehe. So anyway, I gotta get up in like 5 1/2 hours, so ciao! :idea:

I own a Nintendo DS. I may consider purchasing a Sony PSP if the price drops about, oh, $100. Some people say, well, $250 isn't bad for something that plays games, movies, music, and displays pictures. I completely agree, except it only comes with a 32 mb memory 'stick', and 1 gig sticks cost about $150 - and that's third party! Sony's are probably a lot more expensive. And even a 1 gig stick can only hold a couple hundred songs. I don't really care that the DS screen is smaller. But basically the whole thing is, I prefer the DS. I can understand why tons of people prefer the PSP. But I just play games on mine. I don't need to listen to music; that's why I burn CDs, so I can play and listen to music at the same time. The movies on UMD for the PSP, at Wal-Mart today, were more expensive than DVDs! But it does suck, because the DS doesn't have many good games for it at the moment. And Nintendo isn't releasing the new Zelda till this fall, but that's only slightly before the X-Box 2 and PS3 are scheduled to come out. I wonder how much those will cost? I wish I had connections so I could go to E3! I think my dream job would be to write for a gaming magazine. Actually, while I like to write, I think I would be better suited as an editor. As many people can say, I'm pretty good at finding mistakes. My manager sometimes asks me to read over her documents before she prints them up hehe. But back to the DS/PSP - I am reading an chart comparing the two, and any normal person would probably choose the PSP over the DS. Here is the chart, lifted from EGM's May 2005 issue. I didn't make this, they did. I did (terribly) code the table though! I need to take HTML classes again ...

EDIT: Meh! I got so sick of trying to fix whatever huge spacing problem this thing had that I just got rid of it. So forget it! But I have been reading some DS owners opinions on the PSP, and I realized that while the PSP may be able to display 16.8 million colors compared to the DS' 260,000, it makes up for that in shitty battery life. If I want a TRUE portable system, I'd like it to last longer than 5 hours at THE MOST. That is while playing a single player game; when the PSP is using it's wi-fi capabilities, it's about 4 hours, and when playing a movie, it's not even three hours. SO! That's that.

The past few days have been pretty good. I didn't feel like updating last night after I got home but let's see ... yesterday me, Mike, his mom, and Dan went to see "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" for Dan's belated birthday present. It was ... meh. There were some amusing parts; Alan Rickman's character was GREAT (he voiced it, no acting), and John Malkovich was good in it too. But it was probably better as a book. Then we went over to Office Max to take back his MP3 player that had self destructed, got another one, plus the one year warranty on it, and THAT one busted too! Hopefully he got his money back for it today. If you're looking for an MP3 player, don't buy the m:robe! It sucks!

So me and my mom hung out and did some shopping today. Bought some new pencils, a copy of Electronic Gaming Monthly, and a cute thing of Mike from "Monsters Inc." to give to ... Mike. Last night was pretty amusing though ... we didn't do anything of [i]that[/i] nature so on the way to my house I fake-pouted and said "We didn't DO anything today" and he's like "Well that's not all consuming; I'd hope we've got more going on than that!" So I just laughed, I'm glad he's not always thinking about it. We played games all night so that was a lot of fun. We also had another moment where I said something I was thinking about and he had been thinking about it about a half hour beforehand, so I said "I think we're on some sort of common wavelength or something" and he said "Yeah, I know ... it's kind of eerie!" And I guess it is but I think it's kinda nifty :roll:

But nothing too exciting going on. Excited about the new Star Wars game coming out tomorrow. I'll see how much it is for the DS and consider buying it ... not done with Tactics yet though so I don't want to rush into a new game right now. Tried to find "Golden Sun" used at EB Games today but they didn't have much of a selection ... well, nothing else to mention, so auf weidersehn. :idea:

Edit: Here's a picture of me in a frontloader! Could only find this one, but the other one was really blurry before anyway. Whoopee!

Man, I got up way too late in the afternoon today! Not like I had to work or anything though, so who cares really :roll: Mike picked me up at 5 pm and we went into Fairlawn to go to Office Max and to the mall. Blah! He'd seen an ad in the paper for a really nice $200 MP3 player so he wanted to get it to take on his two week trip to Texas with his dad. So he got that. I'll talk about that a little more later though. After that we went up to the mall. Yesterday I saw an ad in the Kohl's flyer for this necklace I wanted to get for my mom for Mother's Day. It's exactly like a necklace she got for me when I was 12, so I thought it would be nifty to give her one in her own birthstone. There wasn't a Kohl's in the vicinity, but I figured they might have those somewhere else. Nope! But Mike at least got a cool book from the bookstore. I almost preordered Harry Potter but we were on a schedule so I'll wait till next time ... ate some yummalicious spicy chicken sandwich and salad at Wendy's, yum!

When we got back to his house I was invited on a trip tomorrow with his mom and stepdad to see "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" and go out to eat for his stepdad's birthday :) So I do have to get up by like 11 am, and it's past 4 am now :wink: It's weird ... me and Mike have all this strange little coincidences. Like I'll be thinking about something obscure and five minutes later he'll say something about that, or vice versa. While he was playing Doom 3 I was watching and trying to think of a tagline from either Evil Dead or Army of Darkness; something that had to do with "I'm here to kickass and chew bubblegum, and I'm all out of bubblegum." Not even five minutes later he says something like "Spread the word, I'm a [i]lover[/i] and a fighter!" as he was kicking ass in Doom. I sit there for a moment not knowing what the quote is from, and he says "Never seen Army of Darkness?" I'm like ... whooa. Happens a lot. His mom made a joke today about how we're not allowed to have 'puppies' (har har, they breed dogs) since alcoholism runs in both of our families. I thought that was funny :oops: But Mike was in a grumpy mood afterwards because his MP3 player was erroring and not getting stuff uploaded to it correctly ... it's really the first time I've seen him so aggravated in the nearly 6 months we've been together. And he wasn't yelling or anything; he never yells, but he was just kind of being quick and not really saying much. I hope he's in a better mood tomorrow :(

So tomorrow oughta be pretty fun; I am going to head to bed though since I gotta get up in about 6 hours to do laundry and schtuff ... ciao! :idea:

Last night at Carl's house went splendidly! I was somewhat skeptical because Lee butted heads with him at one point; me, Cole, and Mike actually got in a small spat over it, but now they get along, and Carl is super nice! He was wearing a Ren and Stimpy shirt for crying out loud, he's gotta be cool. And Kendra was really nice too! So in total it was me, Mike, Jerome, Cole, Lee, Lee's sister, Carl, and Kendra. We played some Imaginiff and Hoopla :) We're board game nerds! Imaginiff is a lil played out though. I think we literally have gone through the whole stack of like 500 cards!

Afterwards, me, Mike, and Jerome went back to Mike's and played some .. Three Swords, lol. Jerome got the hang of it really quick and it was tons of fun! Then I went home at about 2 am because I had to open this morning, bleh. Work sucks. I'm so tired of all the drama! Two of the girls are pregnant (one of them we're unsure which boyfriend it belongs to), our manager and her best friend that she hired are bitches, and me and Lee are stuck trying to find other jobs! And the grocery store in the same plaza as our video store may be shutting down so that plaza is going to experience some serious lack of customers if it does; it's the main draw. Oh well, with the exception of two girls I knew from the Career Center, none of the employees are very pleasant. I think customer service is the most important part of any job. I've had several people tell my manager that I was really helpful and nice ::glows:: ... so I figure, even if lately I'm pissed that our store is shitty because our manager is being a bitch, I'll still be nice to everyone because I've had people complain to ME about our manager! Maybe it's all the tanning bed rays making her brain melt. Or coloring/highlighting her hair every other week! :roll:

I've made a lot of headway in Tactics! Mike says I can borrow his SNES Chrono Trigger cartridge and play that next. It's either gonna be that, Golden Sun (thanks, goins), Ocarina of Time, or finishing Majora's Mask from my Zelda collector's disc. Or Link to the Past. And I still haven't beaten Paper Mario 2 after like 6 months argh!!!

I'm going to start working on a family tree. On the phone, Mike and I were trying to figure out how first and second cousins, and that whole "once removed" thing works. My mom's side will be easy, but since I only know my dad, my uncle Ray, his sons (my cousins) Raymond, Randy, and Ricky, and I know of an aunt Lynn on my dad's side (out of 9 kids), that will be a little harder to do. I've got so much family I don't even know about! I've met them when I was younger than like 8, but who remembers that? I really want to know the rest of my family. My uncle Ray lives only about 20 minutes from my grandma up in Euclid, but it's just a matter of getting up the nerve to go there since I haven't seen him since I was 13. My dad doesn't keep in contact with anyone, apparently.

I wonder if I have any interesting pictures on photobucket to share ....

Here's Bill the Pony from when we went to the Akron Zoo!


Well that's all I can find on there I haven't posted before. Man ... I was flipping through the old Ocarina of Time strategy guide ... it would be SO AWESOME to live in Hyrule. I've never really been a whole lot into the fantasy genre besides Zelda up until Mike got me into RPGs, but I'm really liking it. I always thought of myself as more of a science fiction type girl, but now ... I'm also going to start reading the Chronicles of Narnia so that when the movie comes out later this year I'll be ready for it. So I'm gonna start either drawing or reading, so ciao :idea: