Yeah! Lady Luck is on my side when it comes to college! Last night I sent an email to the admissions office at Akron University to ask about their requirements on ACT taking. I thought maybe, somehow, I could get in and take the ACT later. Well, I must've read the site about the ACT wrong, because I got an email back saying that there are two ACT test dates before the fall semester begins! Whoo! Mike'll be happy because I took initiative to write the email ... I know he thinks I slack sometimes ... or a lot, lol ... but anyway, this is cool! Hopefully he won't want to go up to the college today but if he does I guess I can live with that -.-

I don't remember if I posted about Mike's dogs lately ... when it gets nice out, he lets a certain batch of them run wild outside. The other day we had such a good time rolling around outside! They are ... the newest member is Truffles, who is some kind of variety called a King Charles something or other ... looks slightly like a cocker spaniel. She's really sweet and meek! Then there's Snickers, the boxer (I think she's a boxer) ... Milly the collie, Eddie the chinese crested, Pepper the ... mutt, lol ... and sometimes Red, the indoor chihuahua. And when he's healthy, Hoggles the pug. I feel like I'm forgetting someone! :X

We're (me and my mom) going over to Mike's in about an hour or so, so when we go to Florida, my mom can help take care of the dogs. She's getting paid to help, but hopefully she likes it. She just has to clean up after them and feed them and make sure they're doing alright. Probably also gotta look at some of the house pets too - maybe she can take Lucia to our house while we're gone (Lucia is Mike's sugar glider/flying squirrel)! So ... hopefully it's a decent day. Ciao! :idea:

Meh ... today kinda sucked ... though the past few days were decent. Spent the day at my grandma's yesterday and hung out with my aunt and my cousin Gina. Gina is really awesome. It's too bad we don't get to spend more time together because we're really similar ... except Gina has been a model and loves makeup and hair and all that ... she doesn't act like it though. She's 23 or 24. And she tells me how pretty and skinny [b]I[/b] look! She and I get along really well, and her sister and my other cousin would get along too - we're the quiet goofy ones, and they're the loud ... uh, crazy ones.

When I got to work at 4 today, the power had been out since about 3 pm the day before. It sucked ... the power came back on at about 5 pm so I had a day's worth of movies (200+) to check in and put away. Luckily the other girl got there before too long and helped. Everyone was bitchy today, though ... I am especially right now, because I have to wait till the end of September to take the fucking ACT!!! That's what I get for procrastinating; Mike's saying "I told you so" probably ... I'd look into going to Stark again but I really don't want to drive 30 minutes everyday .... meh. ::rambles::

I was hoping to get Saturday off so I could help Mike paint his duplex but looks like it ain't happening. Hopefully I can at least leave work early so we can go see some fireworks, but I'm not pushing my luck. And of course I got the shitty hours on the Fourth of July, as usual ... But I shouldn't complain! We leave for Florida in 12 days! ::jitters with excitement::

I got a new bathing suit at TJ Maxx yesterday too. Usually I always buy the tank top/shorts bottoms type because they cover the most, but I really like this one I got, and it has the normal bikini type bottoms ... with tank top. :shock: I figure I can just wear shorts over the bottoms while not swimming and wear the top as a tube top tyoe thing :)

Here's how I feel right now ....


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Yeah! Mike finished playing Star Wars: KotOR II (Knights of the Old Republic) the other day and the ending was kinda meh, so I started playing the first KotOR tonight and it's a lot of fun. At first I was gonna make my chick (a scoundrel! whoo!) a Sith, but then I realized I couldn't say all the mean things to people that you're supposed to say! So I'm gonna head towards the path of Jedi 8)

We were gonna go gerbil shopping today but didn't get a chance. Mike and I ended up cooking dinner (well, I basically just peeled the potatoes, this was his "thing" tonight) and then his friend Jerome came over and we hung out for a while. Afterwards we just lolligagged around because by that time it was nearly 10 pm. Man ... I am getting really frustrated with myself though. It seems like I take every little joke the wrong way anymore from anyone. But, it seems logical to me at the time, though when I look back on my reaction I realize I should just chill out. I don't know. I know there are certain things bothering me that I can't tell Mike, simply because I can't. Like ... I want to ask him a certain question about his past because he wouldn't tell me the answer a few months ago and said he would tell me sometime ... obviously he's not ready to tell me yet, which is fine, but it's just been on my mind lately. And he'll just say things that he doesn't mean to hurt me but they do ... and I fly off the handle. I really don't mean to though ... I apologize to him everyday about it, but there's just no helping it ::sigh::

So anyway ... I'm gonna go to bed and play some more KotOR. My chick is just freaking awesome. :idea:

Yep ... today I'm going GERBIL hunting! I had a gerbil when I was a wee lass and have decided I want one now too. Come up with several name ideas ... Boris ... Merbil .... Jurbill ... Sven ... HELP me name my gerbil! I had two and named them Ren and Stimpy back when I was about 10. Then Stimpy got out and eaten by cats :'(

Au revoir! :idea:

HAT'S THE STORY BEHIND YOUR BLOG NAME? Cherry's Quandaries - I thought it was cute because they kind of rhymed :roll:

HAVE YOU EVER HAD A MAKEOVER? After I broke up with my boyfriend the summer after junior year, I kind of re-did myself; dyed my hair red, got an eyebrow ring, and kind of made myself over emotionally too.

HAVE YOU EVER WITNESSED DEATH? Thankfully not.

WHAT'S THE LONGEST TIME YOU'VE STAYED OUT OF THE COUNTRY/WHERE? However long that vacation to Canada was when I was 4.

ONE THING YOU'RE GRATEFUL FOR, TODAY. That I'm healthy and have the best boyfriend in the entire world :)

DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM WEDDING. I would like to have an outdoor wedding, but beyond that I'm not really sure. I always liked the Japanese style gardens ... I really don't know. Would have to discuss it with my partner :)

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE DOING WHEN YOU ARE 60? Living life to it's fullest (how cliché, I know).

WHAT IS YOUR FIRST MEMORY? Just random memories of me in our house in Cleveland, like blowing bubbles or eating m&ms.

MY FIRST HEARTBREAK HAPPENED WHEN: I liked this guy named Justin in sixth grade, and I thought he liked me too because we flirted a lot. On Valentine's Day, I made a huge move and sent him a little card with some Hershey Kisses on it. He was late for homeroom that morning (where they were delivered) and everyone looked to see who his was from (me) ... and he had sent one to another girl. I was crushed!

HOW MUCH MONEY DOES IT TAKE TO KEEP YOU FOR A YEAR? Not a whole lot. I'm pretty low maintenance.

DO YOU HAVE ANY WEIRD PREFERENCES? I prefer diet pop over regular pop anyday.

WHAT IS ONE THING YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? Why they wear PINK!

WHAT PIECE OF TECHNOLOGY DO YOU WANT MOST RIGHT NOW? A really nice computer.

NAME ONE TV CHARACTER YOU'D MOST WANT TO BE. Oh gosh ... Spock was cool.

FAVORITE GEMSTONE? Alexandrite :)

GIVE YOURSELF A PORN STAR NAME. Heidi Alps (mypornname.com)

WHAT'S YOUR WORST FLAW? I'm a major procrastinator.

WHAT DO YOU PLAN TO DO THIS SUMMER? Go on vacation and spend time with my boyfriend :)

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SONG RIGHT NOW? Tool - Aenima

WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE MOVIES IN THESE CATEGORIES: HUMOR, ROMANCE, DRAMA, ACTION, HORROR?

Humor: "Clerks"
Romance: "Before Sunset"
Drama: "Hysterical Blindness"
Action: "Reservoir Dogs"
Horror: "Saw" ... unless "Se7en" counts?

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE DISNEY SONG? Anything from "The Little Mermaid"

DESCRIBE YOUR DREAM HOUSE. A spacious house with comforting, preferably light-colored walls and really comfy couches.

YOUR TYPICAL SLEEPWEAR: Either nothing, or light shorts and a tank top.

WHAT'S IN YOUR BAG? I don't have any bags at the moment o_o

HOW MUCH MONEY DO YOU HAVE IN YOUR WALLET RIGHT NOW? About $190.

WHAT ARE YOU MOST PROUD OF IN YOUR LIFE? I can honestly say ... nothing. I've not accomplished anything of major merit, except maybe some good drawings, or my old, lost poetry.

HOW WAS YOUR SENIOR PROM? Shitty. I went with my best guy friend (also went with him to junior prom) and while he was awesome, my ex was there and kept claiming that I was trying to ruin his time with his girlfriend. He still sticks to that story even though we talk now (2 years later).

TELL US ABOUT ANY OF YOUR BIRTHDAYS. My sixth birthday RULED! We had a slip 'n slide party at my grandma's and tons of my kid relatives were there and I got a cool Ariel doll and it just ruled.

WHAT DO YOU MOST ENJOY ABOUT LOOKING AT OTHER PEOPLE? Their posture, their way of moving around ... whether it's a confident stride, or an antisocial slink.

WHAT ARE THE FIRST FIVE THINGS YOU WOULD SPLURGE ON IF YOU WERE A BILLIONAIRE?

1. A huge, but environmentally friendly, kickass mansion/castle.
2. A BMW.
3. Anything my mom/grandma wanted.
4. State of the art technology for my house.
5. Donate a lot to certain charities so they could build stuff in my name 8)

WHAT IS YOUR DAILY BEFORE-GOING-TO-BED RITUAL? Usually signing off the computer, turning off my main light and turning on my "night light" so I can read, read for about a half hour, then go to sleep :)

WHAT IS THE WEIRDEST/FUNNIEST NICKNAME ANYONE HAS EVER CALLED YOU? I've never really had a nickname ... some of my old online friends called me just "H" or "H-Bug"

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PAIR OF SHOES? My hippie sandals :)

WOULD YOU RATHER BE A HOBBIT, AN ELF OR A DWARF? An elf.

WRITE A LINE FROM ANY SONG. "Would it be right to say that no one ever truly listens, or takes the time to understand what something means, without opinion, bias, without a one-track mind?"


Have you ever...

Fallen for your best friend?: Nope.
Made out w/ JUST a friend?: Ummm ... kind of ...
Been rejected?: Yes.
Been in love?: Yes.
Been in lust?: Yes.
Used someone?: Not intentionally.
Been used?: Probably.
Cheated on someone?: Yes ...
Been cheated on?: Yes.
Been kissed?: Yes.
Done something you regret?: Nope.
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Who was the last person...

You talked to?: My mom.
You kissed?: Mike :)
You had sex with?: Mike :)
Who broke your heart?: My ex from high school, Nick.
Who told you they loved you?: My mom.
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Do you...

Color your hair?: I've been re-dying it my natural color to get it away from the red.
Have tattoos?: I would like to, but no.
Have piercings?: Had an eyebrow ring, but just have my ears pierced now.
Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both ?: A boyfriend :)
Own a thong?: Quite a few :P
Ever get off the damn computer?: When I feel like it.
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What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others?: Weirdly ... noses.
Would you marry for money?: Of course not!
Have you had braces?: Needed them, but no.
When was the last time you had a hickey?: Late March :)
Could you live without a computer?: ... Probably not, lol.
What is your favorite place to visit?: My grandma's house :)
What is the last movie you saw?: "Reservoir Dogs" for the millionth time.
Do you kiss on the first date?: Yes.
Do you drink alcohol?: Nope.
Did you like or do you like high school?: I enjoyed it, yes. Saw my friends all the time and the teachers didn't really care.
Who do you want to kiss?: My boyfriend :)
Do you think you can draw well?: Yeah, I think I am decent.
Do you write poetry?: When I am in the mood; I used to write like 50 a week when I was in high school though.
Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: Emotional pain. I have a pretty high physical pain tolerance.
Are you a sex addict?: Maybe .
How long is your hair?: It's layered, but at it's longest, slightly above the middle of my back.
Do looks matter?: In the real world, yes they do. But to me, not really ...
Do you trust others easily?: Unfortunately, yes.
What do you look for in a guy/girl?: Intelligence, morals, kindness.
What is your nickname?: Heidi-ho ....
What are you worried about right now?: I really should've taken a shower like a half hour ago ...
Do you think you are strong?: Emotionally yes, physically no.
What's your least favorite thing in the world?: Annoying noises ... like when people tap their fingers or do aggravating things JUST to be aggravating.
What would you change about yourself?: I'd lose about 10 - 15 lbs but that's it.

I'm super bored! And it's insanely hot outside!! :evil:

Went to a few thrift stores today and got two really cute tank tops; one is kind of dressy and the other one is just cute and flattering to my shape. I also got a big fake potted plant! It's so my Build-A-Bear koala Bernard and his girlfriend have a place to hang out. Also got a few old books I read from when I was like 10. Hehe ... I'm reverting to my childhood o_o

Next week is gonna be pretty fun. Friday morning we're going near the PA border to a giant outdoor/indoor flea market called Roger's. One of Mike's friends is coming at this point but hopefully a few others can make it too - the more the merrier! And we leave for Florida in less than 2 1/2 weeks! I can't believe we're gonna be gone a whole week. Last night me and Mike agreed that it'd be cool to wander the not-so-seedy areas of Florida after dark. 8)

So what else ... yesterday at work I made a mess of the place :X LOL .. I started on a huge project and definitely didn't have the time to finish it, so I had to move a bunch of games back to where they had been, so it was a complete waste of time ... oh well, I'll work on it tonight :P

Well, gonna try and cool off until I have to go to work. It was supposed to reach up to 95º and it definitely feels like it! :? :idea:

Yeah, I know, every other day is the best day ever :roll:

I won't go into extreme detail about everything that went on between Tuesday morning - Friday evening (now) but ... ::sighs happily:: Mike and I had a great time at the cabin. Though things started out a little shaky ... I've been so moody lately (I think it's the pill, but ... we'll see how things go in the next month or two ... ) but we've talked about it so we're okay. Tuesday night we had to keep our hands off each other for the most part because his mom and stepdad were in the vicinity but we still had a great time. Fell asleep in the living room watching "Return of the Jedi" and went to bed after that ... drove around the foresty areas of Coshocton and Muskingum counties ... and oh my gosh ... Tuesday night I cooked a really good meal. Sure, I've made things from put together meals where you do have to do some cooking but it's mostly put together ... I had a recipe for these really good chicken nuggets so I totally made them from scratch. I cut four chicken fillets into nuggets, did all the work of coating them with flour and chicken seasoning, then put them in egg & bread crumbs, and fried those suckers! They turned out REALLY good! Mike loves chicken, his mom ate quite a few even though she wasn't hungry, and the foster kid (who is very blunt if he doesn't like something) ate half the plate! I was pretty proud of myself. I made some ready-to-make apple crisp and it was yummy as well. Mike's mom said she has some competition in the kitchen now :) It feels good to cook and be appreciated!

Anyway ... Wednesday night was "the" night ... I was somewhat weary because he is well ... quite large in that department ... not that I would ever complain ... but when we did mak love for the first time (and the subsequent times since) it HURTS! I feel bad because I have to keep telling him to restrain because I mean ... ow! One of my favorite positions is from behind, and we can hardly even do that because it is just painful. I don't know if it's because my body ... just tightened itself up so much or what but hey ... oh well :roll: Hopefully I'll adjust 8) He said he has to work on his stamina ... well, I'll concede to that I suppose, but I don't know how much I could take, really! ::crosses legs together::

We went on a walk and I got slightly re-burnt but not too bad. I've pretty much lost my tan. I gotta either get re-tan next week when we go to the lake/beach again, or use the tanning bed before we go to Florida. I can't believe we're leaving in two and a half weeks!!!!!! :D :D

LOL ... we played WAY to much Star Wars: Knights of the Old Republic II. That game is TONS of fun to play, and really fun to watch! I've never enjoyed watching someone play a game so much - I watched him play it for at least two or three hours each day since Wednesday. His dude is majorly Jedi ... so the chick I started my game with is gonna be a Sith 8)

Anyhoo ... I'm glad we waited so long to take that step. Most amazing feeling ... love being close like that, physically and emotionally ... :) Well, I have to open at work in the morning, blah. I did feel like answering some of these questions from the board game Scruples though ... the first question I knew before I answered, but the rest of these, I'm answering whether the outcome makes me look good or bad!

[b]The only other person at your bus stop is in tears.[/b] [i]Do you ask what's the matter?[/i] Definitely .... if I was upset, I'd probably want someone to show concern for me, even if I didn't feel like talking about it. I'd say "Do you need someone to talk to?" and if they say no I wouldn't be offended, but even the smallest act of kindness can really cheer someone up.

[b]Anti-depressant drugs become available over-the-counter. A friend (who was never depressed) says they make him sharper and happier.[/b] [i]Do you try them?[/i] Heck no!!! I've gone this far without trying unnecessary drugs. Definitely don't need some chemicals messing with my head!

[b]You find an expensive pen on a chair in a restaurant. You like the way it writes.[/b] [i]Do you keep it?[/i] Oh, for crying out loud, it's a pen. I know I'd lose it. The pen could've been a gift from someone, and even though it seems petty, it's better to just return it and not feel bad about keeping it everytime you use it.

[b]A TV news crew stops you on the street and asks your views on abortion.[/b] [i]Do you agree to voice your opinion on the air?[/i] Meh ... no. I mean ... it's such a difficult issue. Under no circumstance do I think it's right for a woman to abort a child because it's an inconvenience; a product of her own stupidity and lust, but if it's for medical reasons, or if the baby is definitely not going to survive ... then perhaps. Only then perhaps.

[b]You are a primary school teacher. A pupil is trying very hard but is still failing.[/b] [i]Do you flunk the pupil?[/i] Ack! That's a tough one. I think the child should have a tutor or someone to help them learn in a way that's more appropriate for them - flunking will only cause embarassment and take them away from their friends. I would not flunk the kid.

[b]A new medical test shows that you have a 40% chance of developing a type of vicious cancer.[/b] [i]Do you have painful and disfiguring surgery now to prevent it?[/i] Oh my gosh ... some of these questions are unbelievable! ... Yes, I would have the surgery. Being disfigured is better than being dead.

[b]An immigrant neighbors husband treats her like a slave. She says this is typical in her culture.[/b] [i]Do you encourage her to rebel?[/i] Well, I'd definitely say that I don't think it's right, but if that's how their culture is, and she accepts it, well, that's her own thing. I would encourage her to get out if she wanted to though, definitely, but ::shrug:: Toughie.

[b]A friend borrows $100 from you. Several months pass and the debt is not repaid.[/b] [i]Do you ask your friend for the money?[/i] Fuck yes! If they don't have it, that's one thing; maybe pay in small increments. But I definitely don't let debt slide!

[b]A good friend is having an extramarital affair and asks you to provide an alibi for him/her.[/b] [i]Do you?[/i] Heck no! I wouldn't get into their business at ALL. I wouldn't tell the spouse unless asked I guess, but I definitely wouldn't help that situation.

[b]Neighbors are out of town and give you their key to collect their mail.[/b] [i]Do you wander around the house beyond what is necessary?[/i] I used to be a really sneaky person who wanted to snoop everywhere - I mean, I was a real snoop. I dunno what changed but these days, I don't go sniffing around anyone's stuff. I mean, I'm against it to the point where I could go through some of my boyfriends stuff, but I don't. I mean, why? I guess I figure you're gonna find something you don't want to see, so maybe it's just best to stay out of people's stuff. Keep a clear conscious, too.

Today was a pretty busy day! Started out shittily because I didn't get much sleep last night, and I had to open the store this morning, but oh well. I got most of this week off so I can't complain. But I ate way too much junk food (Chips Ahoy, Lemonheads, and some Nilla Wafers) and got this really bad stomachache at work ... then the sugar kicked in and I had TONS of energy. Every monday, our manager usually pulls anywhere from 100 - 150 movies off the New Release wall to put up for sale, then makes spaces for the New Releases that will be on the wall Tuesday, which is when 99% of new movies come out. So you gotta space everything out and make the perfect amount of spaces because you can only have 7 to a shelf, and there are 8 shelves per rack ... you get the picture. I was just gonna pull the sale movies and let her do all that but I had so much energy that I did it all in like 2 1/2 hours :shock: Then I crashed when I got home, of course :roll:

Meh ... fortunately Lee was a total sweetheart and we switched our schedules around so I don't have to work Friday night now. I had asked another girl because it would've been easier, but she said no because she had plans ... then she had the nerve to ask me to open for her on Saturday! I kind of had to say yes though because no one else could do it probably, and I'm grateful for getting Friday night off, so ... yeah. Sucks but what can you do. So now me and Mike are leaving from Wal-Mart tomorrow at about ... noon-ish for Coshocton, about a hour and a half to two hour drive from here. What's really funny ... I played the Sims for a long time at his house and decided to remake the cabin that we're staying in, so I wanted to name the town Coshocton. Well, I was half asleep at the time and thought the "n" was an "h" and named it "Cosnocton" ... on our way there a few months ago, the road sign on the freeway had been worn down where the "h" was so the sign said "Cosnocton" just like my town! I thought that was one of the weirdest coincidences ever. Then the other day some dude was getting his movies and said he was riding a motorcycle, so just making chitchat, I say "Must be a pretty nice day if you're on your motorcycle" and he's like "Yeah I just rode down to Coshocton earlier today; one of my friends owns a cabin down there they like to visit on the weekends." I was like o_o dude no way, that is too ironic. I mean, there could be a maximum of like ... maybe, MAYBE 50 - 100 cabins that people can own down in that town. And I just happen to start up a convo with another dude who knows someone who owns one like I do. Way too weird! Coincidences and synchronicity are the craziest things. Makes me think of "Signs" ... but I don't think anything is truly coincidental!

So I'm getting my stuff all packed for tomorrow :) Got tons of cute/smexxxy things to wear ... plus video games and books and our practice fencing sticks. It's gonna rule ... so I won't be online again till Friday night because even though Mike's probably taking his laptop, there is no internet connection or TV there ... can't even get a cell phone signal unless you drive 15 minutes into town! Ahh, I love it. So ... I hope everyone has a great week! :idea:

I don't really feel like posting a blog ... basically .... Mike and I got into a really big argument over something because I tend to overreact and fly off the handle, and he clams up and doesn't say anything then says something mean when he does, so ... we're alright now but it was a pretty big argument. He told me I don't appreciate anything ... really made me mad ... he took something I said the wrong way, to make him say that ... so now I don't think I'm gonna be able to get over that for a while; everytime we go out to eat I'm gonna feel like I'm taking advantage of him or something ... I feel like shit. And I have to be up in 6 1/2 hours to open at work; an 8 hour day of standing and dealing with shitty people; YAY ...argh. I've got a major headache but I'm not tired because I took an hour and a half nap earlier this evening ... nothing went right today. Well, at least I got a pretty cute skirt for $5 at Wal-Mart. :idea:

I got to spend the last two days with Mike :) Let's see ... I have the worst memory in the world!! Friday, we did a little running around, then I realized I shouldn't be driving my car because I have to renew the stickers or plates or whatever because my birthday was the month ... so I didn't want to drive too much because I didn't want to get pulled over. He stayed over my house last night; we played some of my AMBER: Journeys Beyond PC game which I highly recommend - very creepy! Then we laid happily on my bed and talked and had a good time :lol: It was nice having him sleep in my bed overnight ... we can't usually because 1) my mom and stepdad's room is right below mine and they don't like anyone staying over, and 2) my stepdad does the typical dad-thing and doesn't want guys staying in my room. But I guess that isn't so bad, considering my own dad isn't around to care. And today is technically Sunday; which makes it Father's Day and me and Mike's 7 month anniversary :D :D It'e the first time in the months we've been together that we won't be spending it together :'( I guess I can't complain though since we did all this stuff the past few days :P And he'll be hanging out with some other friends tomorrow .... but today we went up to Cuyahoga Falls to a couple really cool stores, including an Asian Food store and saw a Hello Kitty toaster!! Also got some Pocky REALLY cheap. And this delicious gum and other assorted cuuuuuute Japanese candies! They had dried crab and dried squid too; gr-oss!

We then showered (together of course) and went up to Wal-Mart where I got a couple nice things to take with us next week (wink wink) and we bought some TGI Friday's packaged stuff and took it back to his house ... talk about delicious! Got a box of potato skins and mozzerella sticks for only $2.50 a piece! Started to watch the South Park movie (Top 10 movies, ever!) but it started skipping so we did ... other stuff before he brought me home this evening 8)

Man ... I can't believe we've been together 7 months. I'm really glad that we waited this long to take the big step in our relationship. I know I'm gonna be the horny one in our pairing ... already am anyway! :roll: It's been so hard the past few weeks to restrain ourselves but it's been worth it. I won't see him till Tuesday morning, which is when we leave for the cabin, so it'll all be built up till then. Gotta pack lotsa goodies to take with me!

Well, not much else to talk about other than I gotta open at work in the morning, blah. Goodnight! :idea:

P.S. Oh, I finished one of the three books inside the Myst Reader, kreativekat; it was REALLY good. Kept me guessing until the end. If you want me to explain more just send me a t-mail because I don't wanna ruin it if you want to read it :) Helped me understand Myst a lot more! I even found my old Myst CD-Rom and explored because they talk about Myst in the first book. It rocks! :) I did this doodle in a few minutes before i went to bed because Katran/Catherine from the Myst Reader made me want to draw who I envisioned. It turned out not necessarily looking like her, but whatever, I thought it was okay, especially since I've had artist's block for a long time.


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Yep ... another one of them boring days! Ran a few errands before work. I love my mom's car so much more than mine .. I feel like I'm driving a little clown car when I'm in mine, lol. Oh well. It's still cute. But the Intrepid, while not fancy, handles a lot better and has better acceleration. ::shrug::

Mike's coming over tomorrow after I get home from work and we're actually gonna hang out at my house :shock: We hardly ever do because it's boring as hell - he's got a big screen TV and every game system in his room, nice decor ... lol, the works. But my stepdad is gone for the weekend so he's spending the night. He's gonna bring over some brochures about Florida/the Keys ... it's gonna be so nice, having our own hotel room, spending the whole week together having brand new experiences .. nothing is better than that in my opinion. Well, besides some things that happen in the hotel room :roll:

:sighs happily:: I've been in a really good mood the past few days. Just generally happy. That's not normal for me! :idea:

Nothing extremely eventful has happened, but the past few days have been decent ... let's see ... worked Monday & hung out with Mike afterwards ... I was being a bit of a grumpus, lol, just because ... Tuesday though ... my mom woke me up by calling me on the house phone from the couch with her cell phone because she messed up her back really bad. This was at about noon. So I drove her up to the hospital (a half hour away because she doesn't like the one 10 minutes away) but it ended up being more like 50 minute drive because of stupid construction. Get there, sit in the waiting room for about an hour, and then get in a freaking room and sit there for another 45 minutes! I had to be at work at 4, and it was already 3, so I had to call off. Fortunately Lee covered for me, but it still sucked. But they gave her some prescription pain reliever and muscle relaxant so she's doing okay now. Also went up to my stepbrother's baseball game that evening and talked to a good friend from high school I haven't gotten a chance to really talk to in about 2 years (saw each other at the grocery store but couldn't talk long). She and her boyfriend (that had been together since we were 15, we're both 20 now) got married and had the sweetest baby! He was already 8 months old and Amanda looked great. We exchanged cell numbers and we'll probably hang out sometime this summer, but she's got a lot on her plate with the baby and school.

So today they booked the plane tickets to Orlando! We're leaving real early July 12, flying to Chicago for a layover, and then to Orlando from there! Staying a whole week! Gonna go to Disneyworld, parasailing, snorkeling, go to the Keys ... I'm still in total shock. I won't believe it until I'm (nervously shaking) on the plane! :shock: Gonna be amazing though ... never been on a real vacation!

We baked some cookies tonight for everyone, lol ... and I started playing Final Fantasy Tactics for the PS1 - it's pretty cool! Great story, and even neater, the main character is basically the same dude from FF Tactics Advance - has a different name, but their sprites look almost exactly the same. I had even named him the same thing so it turned out really cool! We went up to Wal-Mart about an hour ago (2:30 am-ish) and bought some ... stuff 8) We went to use the self checkout because Mike is real shy about that stuff but it wasn't on so we had to go to a cashier ... I could care less about buying that stuff but he's so shy :roll: His ex works there so it would've been pretty funny if she had been the only one working! :lol:

Welp, I'm gonna go set up this watch Mike bought for me. I gotta set its alarm so I don't forget to take my pill like I almost did tonight! :x :idea:

I didn't wake up till about 2 pm today X) I was having all these weird dreams ... of course I don't remember them but I kept waking up every half hour or so ... weird ...

Another boring evening after work. The new employee is awesome; he catches on really easily and is really nice. Not someone I'd be friends with outside of work but definitely friendly. I called Mike after work and we were talking about how hungry we were ... so we left at about 11:30 pm to grab a bite to eat at Steak 'n Shake, which is about 20 minutes away. So that was fun; we spent about an hour there chatting ... the waiter took forever to get us our check (looked like he was high on more than life) ... we talked about our mini-vacation to the cabin sometime next week 8) Was a nice excursion though. We're a coupla weirdos. I won't elaborate but it's nice being just normally weird with someone and being totally comfortable.

I'm listening to Mike' Ra CD called "From One" .. it's really good. Rocks. 8) Eating some yummy dinner mints. My shoulders and back are peeling really bad ... kinda gross looking, lol :roll: I started my "Myst Reader" and it's really good so far. I like the writing style a lot. More when I finish some more of it, kreativekat :)

Goodnight! :idea:

Yep! Hung out with my mom before work, watched "The Incredibles" for the umpteenth time (never gets old!) and went to work a little before 4 pm ... really muggy and I got to sit outside for our sidewalk sale - but that's okay, I got a ton done in FF Tactics! Finished all the missions and got Cid to join my clan, whoo 8) So not a whole lot left to do in the game ... maybe I'll actually get all the books I wanted to read done, like Chronicles of Narnia and those books I've been buying lately :roll:

The new guy at work is really nice and catches on to everything really quickly, so I didn't have to look over his shoulder all night. Nothing much going on though ... gonna put in "Romy and Michele's High School Reunion" in a few minutes. Classic movie!

(girly stuff)
Meh ... I am getting blah cramps ... hopefully that means I'm gonna start that time soon .. I hate how it's so random. Sometimes it'll be up to 5 days early, sometimes, like this week, it's nearly 5 days late. It was even worse before I was on the pill; those time frames could be as broad as 15 days. And my period is always lasting at least a week now, and it's so heavy the first few days. My doctor wanted me to go on the pill because he was afraid I would develop anemia from all the bleeding - I tried to give blood senior year but they wouldn't let me because my iron level was low. Plus, I have KILLER ovulation cramps. They make me buckle over in pain sometimes, so phew! Those'll be gone soon. I'm gonna pop out a few kids and get that stuff outta there!
(done!)

So ... yeah. I need to get a pic of myself with this awesome tan. For some reason, I'm so much more self confident this summer than I was last summer. I hardly ever wore shorts, but that's all I'm wearing lately. Maybe I just don't care anymore. :P

Here's a picture from a couple mornings ago with my favorite beverage.


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I ask myself that as I've been inside for about 20 minutes out of the rain but I neglected to take my Batman hat off ... oh well ...

Today was pretty good! Started out kind of meh after Mike picked me up. We were driving to Fairlawn and we always ask each other if we had any dreams the previous night. So I ask him and he chuckles and says "You don't want to hear about it ... " I was already in a bit of a bad mood because of my sunburn, sleeping on my neck funny, and general PMS mode, so I just got real pissy and told him to forget it. I assumed it had to do with an ex or something, so I didn't care. Sure, I have dreams about my ex's but I don't even begin to mention them! Grr. So we were grumpy at each other for a while. Went to Gabriel Brothers and I got some really cute shorts and two hilarious shirts ... one says "There's nothing lucky about a bunny with no feet" and it has a picture of a rabbit with no feet X) It's demented!!!!

Afterwards we stopped at a giant book sale; looked like some book store going out of business. I got a book called "The History of the Chess Queen" or something like that, which shows how chess and women's rights progressed throughout history and how they intertwine. Also got some fantasy fiction related to the game "Myst" ... has a cool cover and they were cheap :) At the Exchange got an old B-52's and Everclear CD. After that we ate at a yummy pizza place. Got back to his house around 9-10 pm and someone got in a car accident about 500 feet from their house ... we drove down but we had to take a detour past it, but it looked like everyone was alright. It was misty tonight and the lights from the cop cars looked really weird. Laid out in the hammock for a while ... hehe it's nice, relaxing, and ... fun laying outside at night ... but in other news we got hella frustrated at Mario 3 so we watched some old episodes of Pokemon. :roll:

I'm really aggravated I haven't gotten that time of the month yet :evil: I've never WANTED it to come but I wish it'd get here so I could start taking the pill!!! T_T I'm a teensy bit worried ... my ex's girlfriend *may've* been pregnant and had a miscarriage while she was on the pill. He's not positive she was but she didn't have her period for a few months. Could've just been stress though. But it's the same kinda pill I'm gonna be on ... ::sigh:: I hate being a woman!

They also decided we're leaving for Orlando July 11th or 12th :D :D :D I'm beyond excited ... my past experiences with high hopes tell me not to get excited, but I just can't help it. I'm naive and gullible! But hopefully we really do go. Gonna go to the Keys and Disneyworld ... a REAL vacation! :D

Well, I'm gonna go play some more FF Tactics Advance. It's ridiculous. I've got 299 missions out of 300 done and the last one requires me to do a lot of sidework -.-; But I must complete it o_o Ciao! :idea:

Argh! It's so freaking hot and humid. My room of course is the hottest of all the rooms in the house. And to make it even worse, I just killed two carpenter ants - where the hell did those come from?!

So, I got nothing to do for about a half hour till I get ready for Mike to pick me up ... I've decided I'm definitely getting a tattoo, but I'm going to wait until fall at least, because you can't swim with them and stuff. I have this sticker on my CD player that I love, and I'm thinking of getting something like that ... it's a peace sign with flowers and vines wrapped around it, and on the inside of the peace sign is a scene with a waterfall and some trees. It's really pretty; I'll have to scan it. I guess I'd get it on my lower back (it doesn't stretch there) or on the back of my shoulder-ish. Or even on the back of my neck. I've been thinking about this for a long time ... it's hard to pick something that's gonna be there forever! I've "jokingly" talked about getting a Triforce on the back of my neck because it's really small and ... maybe I'm not joking so much! It'd be a tribute to my favorite game series ... but I think we'll wait and see how this new Zelda turns out, hehe ...

Man ... I'm actually not to unhappy about my sunburn. It's turning into a tan. And I didn't have to pay ridiculous amounts of money for it! I learned my lesson though. And we are most likely going to Disneyworld/Florida in the second week of July. WHOO! We were kind of unsure because it's Mike's stepdad who is in charge of it, but his mom really 100% wants to go, so unless something big happens, we're going. I've never been on a commercial plane before ... or farther south than the northernmost tip of Georgia ... so I'm excited! They say the sun is a whole different thing there; way worse on your skin. I'll be wearing SPF 100. We'll be there for a whole WEEK!

This song makes me cry everytime I listen to it ...

[b]"Father of Mine" by Everclear[/b]
Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
You know I just closed my eyes
My whole world disappeared
Father of mine
Take me back to the day
When I was still your golden boy
Back before you went away
I remember the blue skies, walking the block
I loved it when you held me high
I loved to hear you talk
You would take me to the movie
You would tke me to the beach
Take me to a place inside that is so hard to reach
Father of mine
Tell me where did you go
You had the world inside your hand
But you did not seem to know
Father of mine
Tell me what do you see
When you look back at your wasted life and you don't see me
I was ten years old
Doing all that i could
It wasn't easy for me to be a scared white boy in a black neighborhood
Sometimes you would send me a birthday card
With a five dollar bill
I never understood you then and I guess I never will
Daddy gave me a name
My dad he gave me a name
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My dad gave me a name
Father of mine
Tell me where have you been
I just closed my eyes
And the world disappeared
Father of mine
Tell me how do you sleep
With the children you abandoned
And the wife I saw you beat
I will never be safe
I will never be sane
I will always be weird inside
I will always be lame
Now I am a grown man
With a child of my own
And I swear I'm not going to let her know
All the pain I have known
Then he walked away
Daddy gave me a name
Then he walked away
My dad gave me a name
Then he walked away

And so does this one ...

[b]"Wonderful" by Everclear[/b]
I close my eyes when I get too sad
I think thoughts that I know are bad
Close my eyes and I count to ten
Hope it's over when I open them
I want the things that I had before
Like a Star Wars poster on my bedroom door (I really did have one, RoTJ)
I wish I could count to ten
Make everything be wonderful again

Hope my mom and I hope my dad
Will figure out why they get so mad
Hear them scream, I hear them fight
They say bad words that make me wanna cry

Close my eyes when I go to bed
And I dream of angels who make me smile
I feel better when I hear them say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world's so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
Tell me everything is wonderful now

Na na na na na na na

Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I go to school and I run and play
I tell the kids that it's all okay
I like to laugh so my friends won't know
When the bell rings I just don't wanna go home

Go to my room and I close my eyes
I make believe that I have a new life
I don't believe you when you say
Everything will be wonderful someday

Promises mean everything when you're little
And the world is so big
I just don't understand how
You can smile with all those tears in your eyes
When you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you say
That I will understand someday
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna hear you say
You both have grown in a different way
No, no, no, no
I don't wanna meet your friends
And I don't wanna start over again
I just wanna my life to be the same
Just like it used to be
Somedays I hate everything
I hate everything
Everyone and everything
Please don't tell me everything is wonderful now

I don't wanna hear you tell me everything is wonderful now

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My childhood was filled with court custody cases, my parents constantly insulting each other through me, stepparents who hated my guts .. I was stuck with my stepmom 5 days out of the week because my dad would be gone on business ... my ex-stepdad took away all my Christmas presents from one year because I wouldn't clean my room when I was 9 ... I never did get them back; my mom said she put them in storage but I never saw them again ... fortunately I didn't have a physically abusive childhood, but there are a lot of times I just have blank spots in my memory. I have no idea why, or what happened to cause that. My stepmom made me go to a shrink where she would accuse me of being a liar and a terrible child, when I really was just normal, in the circumstances I was raised in. I'll never do that to my children.

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Got up at a relatively decent hour today. Did some shopping and went out to lunch with my mom before work. I picked up an old En Vogue CD from the thrift store! It's from 1997 and called "E3" ... has a couple really good songs on it. "Whatever" and "Don't Let Go (Love)" are awesome! I like R&B from the mid to late 90's but that's about it.

Work was pretty uneventful ... my sunburn hurts sooo bad and it was hard to wear a bra ... I didn't until I had to go in, lol ... Mike stopped in with two of his friends and we chatted for a little bit. We're gonna be hanging out tomorrow, dunno what we're gonna do ... I have to stay out of the sun for like a week, doctor's orders -_-

Hmm ... gonna listen to some of my other older CDs ... I left my CD case at Mike's but let's see what I've got laying around ... ROFL some of the old "NOW!" CDs ... swiped those off one of my stepbrothers .. Cauterize ... Garbage ... Red Hot Chili Peppers ... Static-X ... Weezer ... why aren't these all in my CD doodad! -o-

I love this song by Cauterize called "Choke" ... here are the lyrics ... and a couple other songs I like because I'm bored ...

[b]"Choke" by Cauterize[/b]
There's nothing that I can say to make you want to stay here with me forever.
There's nothing that I can do to make you want me like I need you to.
I need you to.

Just give me one last chance to say this.
Just give me one last chance to say what's on my mind cause I will get it right.
If I could only get my head above the water for a moment of your time.
But you seem so strong and I can't hold my breath for long.
If you've ever tried to scream under water
You'll choke.

You said I always sang too loud to sing you a love song.
Well I save my soft voice for the things I really mean.
You always said I had a hard time saying what's on my mind.
Well, here it goes: I hate you for what you've done to me.

When the last word's been said and the last tear's been shed,
I will miss you, miss you my friend.
And I can't tell you lies.
Even after all these years I still cry.


[b]"I'm Only Happy When It Rains" by Garbage[/b]
I'm only happy when it rains
I'm only happy when it's complicated
And though I know you can't appreciate it
I'm only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad
Why it feels so good to feel so sad?
I'm only happy when it rains

Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me
Pour your misery down
Pour your misery down on me

I'm only happy when it rains
I feel good when things are goin' wrong
I only listen to sad, sad songs
I'm only happy when it rains

I only smile in the dark
My only comfort is the night gone black
I didn't accidently tell you that
I'm only happy when it rains
You'll get the message by the time I'm through
When I complain about me and you
I'm only happy when it rains

Well, I'm officially 20 and I haven't been this sunburnt since I was 12 years old! XP

What happened on my birthday ... well I had my Planned Parenthood appt. and that went great. They are SO nice there. They had a petition to sign to "keep abortion safe in Ohio" and I don't support abortion ... but if they get rid of it, people are going to do it anyway, and not be safe about it ... still, I couldn't support it. But they did the exam and all that good stuff and I got orthotricyclen or however you spell it. And they gave me a totally free month's worth because I came in on my birthday! What a great present! 8) Saved me $20!

So anyhoo, Mike picked me up and we went to Acres of Fun and ... LOL what a funny time. That place was dead but we still had fun go-karting and playing arcade games. Hahaha ... one of the times go-karting it was just me and Mike and I was ahead of him the whole time ... then we were laughing at the last lap and you're supposed to pull into the pit but I just kept going X) It was hilarious! I apologized and I just drove around again ... Mike said he won after that because he was the first to pull in the pit :evil: Yeah right!!!

Then we went to Dairy Queen and got me a pretty ice cream cake with dolphins on it :D Hmm ... then we watched "Secondhand Lions" with his mom, stepdad and the foster kids and ate the cake and some pizza his mom made ^.^ I ended up staying the night because his mom said I could ... and we wanted to go to the beach early the next day anyway.

So it's the next day, Tuesday, and Heidi the dachsund starts having her puppies. We leave for the beach a little after noon. We went to this place I'd never even known was there called Silver Creek, and it's actually part of the MetroParks. Gorgeous hot day! I was an idiot and didn't wear any sunscreen, hence my current pain. But it was so fun ... we got the whistle blown on us by a lifeguard because I gave Mike a lil kiss -_- I'm a nerd though .. I have to wear a noseplug when I go underwater, no matter what I do to keep the air out, it just doesn't work. But oh well, you know? I don't care. I dropped it in the water though and it sunk to the bottom of the lake ... I thought it was gone for good but Mike went underwater and rescued it - and that's with his eyes closed because you can't open your eyes in that lake, lol. But we had a GREAT time! He hadn't been swimming in a really long time after breaking his arms last year in a bike accident, and breaking his hip the year before ... glad it was a gorgeous day :)

But ... when we got back to his house I was really tired and got nauseated ... so I laid down and eventually I threw up after we ate ... I was dehydrated :( I threw up a few times and then went home to go to bed, and my mom made me go to the ER because she's a freaking worrywart, even though I was drinking water and gatorade like I knew I was supposed to! But I went anyway and they gave me a shot in the bum for the nausea (I've had that shot like 5 times ... lol I have such an easily upset stomach) and some vicodin which REALLY helped my headache and the sunburn pain. I've never had that before but it also made me a little hyper, lol.

But that was the past few days. Worked earlier today (even though I felt like crap) and I gotta work again tomorrow. Ciao! :idea:

Well today was actually a pretty good day. My mom wanted to hang out today since I'll be busy tomorrow with Mike. So we got a bite to eat at Wendy's (hey, we're not hard to please, lol), and went over to Fashion Bug afterwards because it was nearby. There I found THE PAIR of capris that I have been waiting my whole life for! It's the pants on this page but in the "stone" pattern. I'm wearing them now .... I don't know why I love camo even though it can be tacky on some people ... I love finding that perfect pair of pants! ::sheds a tear::

So my mom bought me those for my birthday, and a Nintendo DS carrying case, and a nice standing fan for my (boiling) room. She'd already got me a couple things a few weeks ago so this is great :) We had a really good time hanging out today. We spent almost all day together, and usually we butt heads about something but we were both in good spirits today. Well, except for tonight that is, when there were thunderstorms and she was FREAKING out like she always does. She always overreacts. It's like the boy who cried wolf - she makes me come downstairs everytime during a severe t-storm, but nothing ever happens. It's annoying.

But not much else happened today. It's gonna be crappy weather tomorrow so I don't know what me and Mike are gonna do. I have that appt. at Planned Parenthood in the morning, bleh ... oh well, it's worth it :D But I am getting an ice cream cake from Dairy Queen!!! ::dies:: Those are the best cakes in the world, no contest. But I definitely don't feel or even look 20, in my opinion ... and in about 10 minutes I'll truly technically be 20 because I was born at like 12:52 am. So ... bonne anniversaire à moi!

Welp, I gotta get up early for that appt. tomorrow. Gonna call and get a ballpark figure on how much money to take with me. Mike was a sweetheart and gave me some money. That's a real man, helping out with that. :idea:

I have the worst memory in the world, seriously ... I can hardly remember what I did today!

I got up and did laundry and took a shower and all that ... then Mike picked me up around 4 and we got a bite to eat and re-rented "Return of the Jedi" (were too busy to watch it though...) and I now have 7 or 8 of those Star Wars Burger King kid's meal toys, lol. I've got ... Jabba, R2, Leia, the tie fighter, Chewie, Jar Jar (is actually a cute toy), and Yoda! Yoda does flips. He rules.

Mike and I had some more good talks tonight, I think ... like I said, I am seriously PMSing, so I was kind of on edge. I was being kind of terse and I said how I feel like I'm always the one who goofs up, etc, different feelings ... he kind of confused me, because we talk about how our house and kids would be, but tonight when I mentioned I wanted to know how Catholic weddings worked, he told me hastily he wasn't 'popping the question' or anything but told me about them. It kinda irked me at first because we talk about our future but he made me sound like the last person he'd wanna marry. So I said that to him and we talked about how he's a realist and we both want to be sure that we're financially secure and that he wants to marry me but it wouldn't be for years and years down the road. So hey, that's cool with me. It's that "dreamer" part of me that loves to think about stuff like that, so it's good that he's here to keep me tied to the ground, lol.

But didn't do a whole lot else ... I played some of my Zelda Collector's disc that I bought a few months back; started a new game of Ocarina of Time and showed Mike Majora's Mask. That game is complicated! But I never got to beat it a few years ago so I'll take another stab at it. Ocarina being probably my favorite game ... at the very least my favorite N64 game. We're also playing Super Mario All-Stars. He's playing Super Mario 2 (I like to watch him play that and do the gambling at the end ... I'm good at it 8)) and we're doing a two player on Super Mario 3. Lots of gaming!!

Well, even though I beat FF Tactics Advance about a month ago, I still am playing it to complete all the missions and free all the areas. My dudes would beat up Mike's anyway, hehe! :D So I'm gonna play that now. Ciao! :idea:

Yesterday was definitely interesting! Started out crappily enough, having to open at work. Me and Mike were supposed to hang out with Lee and Cole last night, but my mom wanted me to come with her and my grandma so my grandma could go to the ER for her back pain. She'd been staying with us for the past few days, and she couldn't hardly move. But when we got to my grandma's, I just felt like crap and didn't want to go to the ER. I still feel pretty crummy ... a sore, dry throat that's so dry it makes my stomach hurt, and just general weariness. Anyway, my aunt and her daughter were also there, the aunt that's staying at my grandma's. I haven't seen my cousin in a long time; she was supposed to be living with this middle eastern dude over in the Washington, D.C. area and they were going to get married. Turns out they broke up. But it was definitely for the best; what an asshole that guy was! He basically treated my cousin (who is 23, used to model, and is one of the sweetest people you'll ever meet) like a total slave. She had to do all the cooking for everyone in his family basically, help with their business, and take care of phone calls and tons of paperwork because he's not fluent in English. But I'm so glad they're both staying with my grandma now - plus her pet bird Rocky! He's a cockatiel, my favorite kind of bird :)

So anyway ... we ended up not getting home till about midnight because we stayed and talked so late. My grandma is doing alright though, they gave her some different pain medication. She went for an MRI today ... hope the results are optimistic ...

I'm also considering getting tBlog Pro. Just because I like using Paypal, LOL. Does anyone have it and want to give me an idea whether it's better than just basic use? I don't have a popular blog or anything but I'm willing to shell out the extra couple bucks for it ... if it's worth it. :)

Hmm, what else. Nothing really much going on. Mike's gonna be picking me up in about 15 minutes so I better get ready. :idea:

Man, I have really bad PMS. I never used to be like this until I got off birth control, but lately, literally from the week before I start that time of the month, I am SO fricking emotional. But it makes it worse when people do things to aggravate it, like not replying to me when we're talking on instant messenger, or ... ugh. I won't go into it because it's something specific. But I cry on a whim and get so grouchy. Hopefully getting back on the the pill will help alleviate that. I called Planned Parenthood and made an appointment for next week. It sucks ... because it's on my birthday :'( But they only do exams on Mondays and Wednesdays ... and Wednesday is too late ... ::sigh::

Doesn't even feel like my birthday is coming up. I've never had like parties or gotten any large gifts or anything, but usually I'm more excited ... guess I don't wanna grow up. Won't be a teenager anymore. Makes me feel like a loser for not going to school yet or doing anything interesting, job wise at least. I hate being so emotional!! And I have to open at work in the morning which sucks too, but I requested this weekend and Monday off 8) So that's a plus. Don't know what I'm doing Monday besides that appointment ... Mike's got a present he's itching to give me, my mom probably won't be able to get me anything really since we're so broke ... my grandma's been staying with us the past few days because her back has been killing her and she can't hardly get out of bed. My mom wants her to sell her house up near Cleveland and come move down with us ... my grandma is like my favorite person in our family, but this house cannot hold 6 people, flat out. So much crap going on ... gotta get new stickers for my car, pay my insurance, get a new phone card, sign up for school, get stuff prepared for me and Mike's mini trip around our seven month day (6/19), etc ... and me be crabby :evil: :idea:

Hehe ... I felt like making an additional blog post ... I was looking up how Catholic weddings work, you know .. just out of curiosity .. and holy COW they are long and tons of stuff happens!

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And this one makes it sound really difficult; I don't know that we'd do all this ...

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Answers about every question I had! It sounds really like a beautiful thing though ... but since I'm talking about weddings ... I think that Mike would want to have a Catholic wedding but it'd also be nice to have like an outdoor wedding too. But you can never depend on the weather for something like that. Who knows ... that's a while away!

Meh ... I wonder what brand of the pill I'll be put on. I was on Yasmin before. I liked it, except it made me gain about 10 - 15 lbs that I still have. It did however clear up my complexion (and it's gotten worse since I've not been on it) and a few other really helpful benefits. I just wonder ... hopefully not too expensive. Not that I mind paying, but you know ... hehe.

Well now I really DO have to get to bed so g'night! :idea:

Wow! Talk about the absolute PERFECT day to go canoeing! Mostly cloudy but no sun beating down on us, about 75º or so, and a light breeze. Thank you Ohio!

Mike came over at about noon and I made us some sandwiches for lunch :) We got some drinks from the corner store, went back to his house and loaded up the canoe into the back of his truck ... there's a place down the road on his stepdad's property where there are some steps and you can just 'launch' the canoe from there. It was STEEP and there was grass grown up really high and nettles that stung Mike and his mom ... his mom took a piece of grass and poked the back of my leg and screamed "SNAKE!" and scared the [i]crap[/i] outta me because I hate snakes! But it was really funny X^D

So ... wow, perfect weather. We canoed for I'd say about ... well we left at about 1 pm ... we canoed until about 2:30 pm and started looking for a place to eat lunch. It was so fun trying to get out of the canoe! Mike had taken his shirt off ::giggles:: and he pulled me and the canoe up to the bank and wandered off to see if this one spot was suitable to eat, but no .. but there were a TON of little tiny frogs!!!!! Seriously, there was like a colony and they were so little, like about as big as a 50 cent piece. So cute! So we canoed a little more and found a spot where people had four wheeled and ate on a log. The mud was ridiculously slippery and we were sliding all over and our shoes got so nasty but it was great! And there were more frogs and like a little pool where they were all hanging out and poking their heads out!

So we canoed more ... stopped at this little place that Mike remembered from when he made the same trip with one of his friends last year. The river is really quite nasty (Tuscawarwas River) but we stopped on a bit of a rocky area and walked over to this absolutely pristine pool of water that was almost totally seperate from the river. It was about a foot and a half deep and completely clear; was really gorgeous. Mike said it'd be nice to have a pool like that at our house someday :)

We ended up being finished a little before six. Since we didn't use the canoe livery, we had to pull the canoe over to the opposite side of the bank where other canoers were and get everything out ourselves - but we were starting to do that, and the dude from the canoe place said to come over and use their bank, so that was really nice! And people were really nice too; asking where we had came from and all that. We looked like a couple of hillbillies as we were canoeing; Mike with his shirt and shoes off and me in the front without my shoes on, hehe! I put on some sunblock but I didn't get my legs well and now I have this burn on the top of my thigh : My back is a little bit burned too but that's okay.

Soo ... after that, we got cleaned up and went into a neighboring town for some ice cream ... and went back to his house and took a really nice nap where we had really similar dreams involving trips and work o_O I don't want to talk about all of our private matters, but we talked about having kids today ^.^ Not anytime soon of course, but ack! That we even talked about it was so great T_T

Well anyhoo ... things are going so splendidly ... we watched "Empire Strikes Back" since we watched "A New Hope" the other night. Mike was really tired though so he fell asleep but man ... I think in the part where they show the Emperor talking to Vader via hologram thingie about Luke being his son - I think they took out the original Emperor and put in the new dude from Episodes 1-3! : That's kinda lame. And they did change Boba Fett's voice to match Jango's. Next time we'll watch "Return of the Jedi" where they replaced Jedi Anakin from the ending scene with Hayden Christensen ... meh ... hopefully it doesn't look stupid ...

Well, I'm gonna get some sleep. Gotta work tomorrow :P :idea: