I've been interested in the moon hoax ever since a little before Fox aired a special in late 2001 or early 2002 about the conspiracy theory that we did not in fact land on the moon in 1969. Of course I don't know whether we did or not, but I tend to lean towards that we did not. Simply because I have read some pretty scientific documents (that I had to get from a library in Salt Lake City) that explain why a moon landing is and was impossible, especially with the supposed equipment.

I've really studied this, not just bought into the glamour of a conspiracy theory. As a child I loved NASA, everything to do with space, and the movie "Apollo 13" ... but as I got older and realized that not everything is as it seems, especially concerning the government, did I investigate.

My number one reason for believe it's a hoax ... how do you explain when Neil Armstrong was climbing down the ladder of the LEM, and a camera is right at him - when no one went over there to set it up? It's like it's on a stage.


Here we have a picture of the flag on the moon's surface. People say there's no wind on the moon, so how is it straight out. Simply, there is quite obviously a horizontal bar running across the top so it is straight out. That's all there is to that, but it seems kind of coincidental too - who would think to do that? It's like they set it up like that SO people would question it, only to say "Oh no - WE did that." Bawhaha.


I hate this though ... the pictures just look too nice. The settings are perfect, everything is picture perfect ...

Well, there are other sites that are better at refuting in both directions. I really gotta admit, this sites have made me think twice. Me and Mike will have to discuss them ... but still ... the USA wanted to look good against the Russians since we were in the Cold War at the time, and I think that really stands for something. Here are some links.

For landing on the moon:
http://www.redzero.demon.co.uk/moonhoax/index.html" title="http://www.redzero.demon.co.uk/moonhoax/index.html" target="_blank"http://www.redzero.demon.co.u...
http://www.lunaranomalies.com/fake-moon.htm" title="http://www.lunaranomalies.com/fake-moon.htm" target="_blank"http://www.lunaranomalies.com... <--- really good>
I was going to put some supporting the moon hoax, but quite honestly most are against that theory; however in both previous links you'll find info regarding both sides of the issue.

And check out this site because I am that says the moon doesn't exist, period!:
http://www.revisionism.nl/Moon/The-Mad-Revisioni st.htm" title="http://www.revisionism.nl/Moon/The-Mad-Revisioni st.htm" target="_blank"http://www.revisionism.nl/Moo...

Happy learning!

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That's been my evening. Nothing really eventful. I've been reading "Chess in a Nutshell", which is really helping me learn about chess more. I've known how to play since I was 8, but this book is really showing me some good strategies. I'll have to test them on Mike ... even though I already beat him in chess last month 8)

Yayy .. I get to spend the weekend at Mike's house. At least Friday night. His folks are going out of town :roll: ... then Saturday we are most likely going up to Cleveland to either the art museum or the natural history museum. The art museum is our first choice, but they've got some galleries closed due to renovations. So, maybe we won't go to either because the other one isn't free, lol. Might just go up to Eastlake and visit my grandma and family and see Lake Erie. I was born and lived in Cleveland for a few years and I'm really glad to see the city turning around. It was the #1 poorest metropolis in the United States, but it's been knocked down to #12, with cities like Atlanta and Miami in the top 5. Miama was pretty ghetto-ish! ... but Cleveland is investing a lot of money into making it kind of yuppie-ish ... but I think that's a good thing. I'll always love that town :)

Mike and I had a talk tonight on what makes someone a good person, and whether that's a good person as in good for themselves or good as in a ticket to heaven. Me and my friend Justin had a similar talk last night, but me and Mike's turned more religion oriented. It's hard, because he's Catholic and has a lot of different - not in a bad way - ways of looking at his religion. For some reason I'm just not good at talking about religion, mostly because of all the ups and downs with it I've had over the years. Last night our conversation was somewhat geared toward religion but it was more the arena of ... if self-sacrifice is the ultimate in making someone a good person. Justin had me up till past 5 am about that; and I told his mom that when she came in the video store today, lol. I think the utmost to being a good person, to yourself and in God's eyes, is being selfless. In my opinion, that is not necessarily putting everyone before you, but being able to completely empathize with people and take their needs as your own needs.

My dream is to have a homeless shelter or crisis center where people can come when they need somewhere to stay, or just someone to talk to if they're in a bad spot. And it has nothing to do with trying to be a good person, it comes from simply wanting to help others find a path in their life that will lead them to happiness. I'm not saying I know or even walk the path, but any nudge in the right direction, or boost of confidence, and shoulder to cry on can turn someone's life around.

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Those are the raccoons in the walls ... while I was at work today the landlady came over and inspected; guess we have some baby raccoons up there too. Great. So my mom had to clean out my closet because there's some weird little door back there. I hope nothing bad was in there X(

And tomorrow is my last day at the video store. It was supposed to be Sunday, but I went in today for Lee, so she's covering my shift on Sunday. And I am pretty upset about some things I heard were said by other people, so I got another girl to cover for me on Saturday. I am SO glad to be out of the job and out of that shithole town. I can't believe I was there for two years; I feel like such an idiot in hindsight. But, I met Mike there, so it was meant to be. The one girl, Missy, is the manager's best friend. So she got preferential treatment. And apparently even Lee talks behind my back about me, even though we're friends, so seriously, I'm sick of it. I'm tired of trying to even be friends with people! Friendships shouldn't be so much work. And over the time I've worked there, I've been really sad that people have left, even when Missy left like 3 times and was re-hired ... but nobody gives a flying fuck about me leaving, so screw them. But what threw me over the edge was when I heard that Lee was even talking behind me back. I don't know who my friends are anymore.

So schwing, I've got the WHOLE weekend off, including Labor Day! Mike does too; well, except Friday :) Hopefully we'll be able to spend it together.

Holy shit .. has anyone seen gas prices? I'm not sure what they are in every area, but here, my stepdad said the cheapest he saw is $3.09 a gallon. I'm fortunate I drive a car that's really good on gas; I feel terrible for Mike because his huge black Ford truck is a gas guzzler. And he drives to Akron 4 days out of the week for school, which is a 30 minute drive - and one of the days is for only a 50 minute class! :?

Ahh ... at Wal-Mart I'm gonna be so happy that I don't have to deal with customer service shit. That's what they have a whole department for. I just sit there, deactivate stuff, don't let minors buy stuff they shouldn't, and greet everyone with a smile. I had so many customers today with problems with their games, movies, etc, and people who took stuff back to the wrong store ... fuck that!! :P

Alright, well I better take Pip for a walk. He's getting antsy! :idea:

Yep ... no work and no Mike to hang out with :'(

I got up kinda late today, that was nice. Went and dropped off a movie at my work ... holy crap, did it pour today. I had the windshield wipers going crazy and people were passing me because I was going slow because I didn't want to hydroplane. My car kinda sucks in the rain.

I also cleaned it out today; I definitely keep a clean car but my mom likes to leave trash in there -_- I also got some rags and wiped down the dash and gear shift thing and it was DIRTY! It looks a bit better now.

Played a lot of Nintendogs of course ... I found a remote-control Bowser Kart that I can harass my dogs with ... got a new dog, a miniature pinscher named Melba :) I wish the game had chinese cresteds :cry: Those are the naked dogs with a little hair on their heads and paws. Mike has one named Eddie :) I'm gonna get a Yorkshire Terrier and name it Patty .. get it? :roll:

Well, the racoons in our attic are driving me insane. The landlord is coming over tomorrow, but it literally sounds like they're about to scratch through the ceiling and attack :x

Here's what my chihuahuas look like, basically, though Stella is a short hair ... and Pip wears sunglasses and Stella wears a flower ...



Cute huh? I searched through 5 pages of Nintendogs pics and couldn't find a mini pinscher one so oh well :[

Alright, well I'm outtie. Night! :idea:

I'm awake and bored ... so I'm gonna ramble.

You Passed the US Citizenship Test

Congratulations - you got 9 out of 10 correct!

Well, I'm glad I got at least a 90% ... when I was in 11th grade I got the highest score out of all the girls in our junior class on an Americanism test .. had tons of questions about elections and stuff ... I was pretty startled but it was cool 8) Just because I know about the USA doesn't mean I like it ...

You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate. At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating. When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism. In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative. Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels. You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.

That's umm ... totally correct. But while I am second born, I didn't grow up with my older sister, because she is physically handicapped and we couldn't take care of her properly. But ... technically it's correct.

Man ... my room is a disaster area :( Maybe I can get Mike to spend the night this week . Guess that means I gotta clean it :sad: ::sigh:: We won't be able to see each other till Friday ... he's got school the next few days and I gotta work ... then on our usual day, it's the last day him and Joel can hang out before he goes back down to Ohio State ... I'm not mad or anything, it just sucks -.- Oh well ... I really can't think of anymore to talk about ... calling to make an appointment for my driving test later this week or next week .. depends on my schedule. I can't believe this is my last week at the video store. Technically only 3 more days since I'm only scheduled 3 days this week ... well, it was four days, but I called off today :oops:

Goodnight! :idea:

Yeah .. I'm tired and don't really feel like looking them up :roll:

Let's see ... I played tons of Nintendogs today! My main chihuahua, Pip, either wears sunglasses, or a beret ... and my girl Stella wears a hibiscus flower by her ear, or the purple collar. They are so sweet! There is a funny ball I can toss around called a "Bark ball" and it makes funny noises when it bounces and is played with. This game is a glorified Tamagotchi ... but it's really adorable.

What else ... went over to Mike's and met his stepdad's family and had some deeeeelicious chicken and German potato salad .. and wonderful deviled eggs ... mmm, I love deviled eggs! I took our dachsund Opal over there too and everyone thought she was so cute ^.^ Chi Chi (our chihuahua) was ecstatic when Opal came back home though - which is funny because Chi Chi teases Opal because she can't climb on the couch or on the stairs, so Chi Chi will hold a toy right over Opal's head while sitting on the couch, or climb like 5 stairs ... it's so mean!!

But other than that we mostly lounged around. Watched the very first episode Ken Jennings was ever on on Jeopardy! It was a weird flashback. Mike thinks I have a crush on him :roll: Ken Jennings is the dude who won tons of money and had that huge 70+ day winning streak on Jeopardy. He's also Mormon and gave a ton of money to his Church. Awesome guy :)

We had a really good day though otherwise ... played "Amplitude", the music-beat game ... ::furrows brow:: I have the worst memory! Had some crazy tickle fights and looked at Mike's collection of 30+ swords and other weaponry. He has this one sword the has a special thing in it where you put poison into this thing while the sword is sheathed and the poison goes onto the blade so when you cut someone, they're poisoned. And it has a little throwing knife and a handheld blade thing in the sheath and hilt; it's an awesome weapon, made in Spain - apparently the best place in the world for swordmaking.

Alright, well not much else to talk about, so I'm gonna play some more Nintendogs and head to bed. Night! :idea:

I decided to rememeber the trip to Florida one day at a time by finding pictures online of the places we went last month :) Here's the schedule.

[b][u]A Vacation In Pictures![/u][/b]

Tuesday, July 12: Landing in Orlando Int'l Airport, Florida. Staying in Kissimmee
Wednesday, July 13: Disneyworld!
Thursday, July 14: Cocoa Beach, Ron Jon's Surf Shop, Miami, Florida City
Friday, July 15: Florida Keys, Key West, parasailing, Florida City
Saturday, July 16: Alligator Alley, Sanibel and Captiva Islands
Sunday, July 17: Tampa, Clearwater Beach, Kissimmee
Monday, July 18: Gatorland, Medieval Times restaurant
Tuesday, July 19: Flying back to Cleveland Int'l Airpor

Well ... I'm not gonna start posting till tomorrow ... my net's screwing up right now. Ciao!

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Yeah! I bought Nintendogs yesterday and it is really adorable. Of course, I got the chihuahua version. I named my boy chihuahua Pip and my girl chihuahua Stella, characters from "Great Expectations." Pip can already do 5 tricks! You talk to them with the microphone, blow bubbles by blowing air into the microphone, etc ... it's so fun!

Me and Mike went around town yesterday; I drove my car ... that has the best gas mileage in the world! $15 gave me half a tank :) It's a '91 Honda Civic so I'm lucky with the outrageous gas prices. I named the car "Tohru" because in "Fruits Basket" the main girl is Tohru Honda ... har har :roll:

So anyhoo ... met Joel's girlfriend while we hung out last night in Fairlawn. She's pretty nice but even more antisocial than me! :shock:

But I stayed over Mike's last night ... got up this morning and ate some lunch ... lol it was almost afternoon :roll: We've been having a great few more days; we talked about how we don't want pets in our house because neither of us is a fan of pet's doing their business in the house, or fur all over the place. I always thought that was so unsanitary!

::happy sigh:: I'm really starting to come to terms with Mike living on his own for a year, finally. I realize that it would be best for us to live on our own for a while before living together; I think it really will make us stronger. And we'll have that much more time to plan and look forward to it; instead of moving into the first place we can afford, we'll be able to really plan everything. I just have to accept that Mike isn't as clingy as most guys, and needs some space before making the big committment. Which is fine, I know he's not gonna cheat on me or anything.

Anyhoo ... tomorrow I'm calling off work because Mike's stepdad is having a family cookout at his house and I'm invited :) And it's my last week anyway; if I was working that shift alone I'd be concerned, but the manager is there all day. If she wants to fire me, feel free. I'd like a week off before I start a good job :?

I'm glad I'm out of whatever that rut/depression thing was. Getting this new job really helped; no more drama with the manager being best friends with an employee that always quits, comes back, quits, comes back, etc. And while I love Lee she really needs to be in management or get another job; she's wasting her energy at that place. And the manager's preferential treatment is getting annoying; plus she's like in her late 30s and acting like she's my age. I want a manager who acts like a manager ....

Oh, and I almost forgot to mention that G4, the gaming channel, SUCKS. They've changed everything and now the only good show on is "X-Play" and that's because the hosts are funnier than hell. They changed the format of "Cinematech", which used to just play music and show game clips; now it's trivia and shit. "Filter" was cool until Diane Mizota got annoying and they got "correspondents" ... "Attack of the Show" is quite simply the worst fucking show, ever, period. It used to rock that there was a video game channel, now it's embarassing.

It's so evil of me ... there are things about my past relationships that people have lied about or been told lies about ... I used to want to be all "I know something you don't know!" but now it's like ... hehe, I know the truth. So what does it matter? I guess I still am like that a little bit if I'm saying that. :roll:

Not really a whole lot to comment on today. Got up kinda late, had the obligatory argument with my mom, and went to work. Lee is crazy though! She opened the store this morning at 10 am and since the one guy called off work tonight to go to a football game, she stayed until 10 pm to close with me! o_o She's a nut! But I really appreciated it.

Seriously, nothing to report though. Watched "Hysterical Blindness", it's a pretty good movie - definitely one of the chickiest of chick flicks. I really like Juliette Lewis. Uma Thurman was annoying in this movie though ... but I'll forgive her since she's in Kill Bill 1 & 2. That makes up for all her other bad acting jobs.

Welp ... gonna be a busy day tomorrow, so ... gnight :) :idea:

Edit: Kinda weird, a guy I haven't talked to since high school IM'd me not to long ago. We weren't best friends, but we were in the same course together at the vocational school I went to. It turns out that a guy he was best friends with, that I also talked to, is now like a hardcore racist and all that shit ... I was really disappointed to hear that. But he's getting married and all that so I was really happy for him. Kinda crazy though :)

Tomorrow me and Mike are having our movie night. His pick is "Equilibrium" and my pick is "Monster." He says his movie is sorta like the "Matrix" but better story and better fight scenes ... if it's better than the FIRST movie (sequels sucked) it must be nuts! "Monster" is one of my favorites if not for the really good story, but the amazing, Oscar-grabbing performance by Charlize Theron. She's another favorite actress of mine.

Additionally ... I'm rather depressed because yet another friend has fallen prey to alcohol .. ::sigh:: I guess I can just never live that lifestyle of partying and drinking for amusement ...

And another thing ... I love having an honest, loving relationship with a mature, adult, MAN who can be a landlord, dog breeder, and college student at the same time. A relationship that isn't just sex and fights. Sex gets old and monotonous if the love fades. I speak from experience.

Alright. Night night!

What a long ass day! It's past 3:30 am and I've been up since 8:30 am this morning ... eep ... kinda tired ...

I opened at the video store this morning for the last damn time! That feels good! I did the basic stuff, entered some adult movies into the computer, and then basically relaxed for the rest of the time as I moved quickly today 8) After work, we went up the my car insurance place and I coughed up the $92 -_- Oh well, I can drive again now ... even though my car is on absolute 'empty', I need to make it down to the gas station :roll:

Then at 5 pm today I had orientation at Wal-Mart. I get there, expecting it to last and hour, two at the most ... luckily someone mentioned to me that we'd be there till (earliest) [b]10 pm[/b]! Isn't that something they should've told me on the phone?!?! I had to call Mike and let him know I wouldn't be able to come over till later. But orientation was fun, we watched dumb videos and I learned way more about Wal-Mart than I cared to know ... and while I do in my heart hate Wal-Mart for running out small business, I, like everyone else, still love Wal-Mart. And I really like being friendly and helping people, so I'm excited for my job. I got the blue vest and nametag. And for some odd reason, country singer Neil McCoy was at the store tonight promoting his new CD, and one of the guys in our orientation group got to talk to him for a minute. Pretty cool!

So I already got my schedule and start at Wally World on 9/6. I work only about 25 hours a week now, but at $7.75/hr, that's a hell of a lot more than I was making at $5.55/hr for typically less than 20 hours a week. :) A lady from our store works at Wal-Mart now too so I already have a friend in the business :D And what REALLY rocks, is I got summoned for jury duty next month, and Wal-Mart pays you like normal as if you'd worked your scheduled shift, PLUS what you get paid by the court! That ROCKS!!!

When I got to be with Mike at about 10 pm, we just hung out, I made some grilled cheese for us and he made the pizza rolls ... watched some "King of the Hill" ... made beautiful love ... and cuddled ^.^ It was a really great day today! I'm sad for it to be over ... but bed is calling me. Night! :idea:

I thought of something awesome! I'm (maybe) going to get an Egyptian styled tattoo! Whether it be something in hieroglyphics, a really cool eye, or ... something, I dunno, if I don't get any of those other styles ... yeah! I found some really cool ones and I'm so excited to go to the studio tomorrow and talk to people. Mike told me not to get one until winter time so it won't be out in the sun ... it'll be hard to wait but it's probably for the best!

Ugh ... and I really do have to get up in like 5 hours for work, but I'm just not tired! Then I have orientation at Wal-Mart at 5 pm and then Mike and I are having movie night after that! I know I'm gonna doze off :oops:

Here is a good link about finding the "perfect" tattoo.
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I also considered getting a piercing instead. Mike mentioned once he thought nose rings looked good, but ehhh ... I dunno if that's my thing. I liked my eyebrow piercing but it was way too uncomfortable to sleep with. I'd never get my belly button pierced, and the lip, while cool, is a little too punk for me ...

Here are some cool ones, but I can't show the images ... so here are the links :)

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They're all just gorgeous. I love Egyptian culture. :idea:

This question has been racking my brain for the past year. I'm going to post some pictures of tattoos I like and am getting ideas from.


This is pretty much my favorite tattoo ever ... not only do I love Zelda, I love what the Triforce stands for (courage, wisdom, and ... well, power, lol), but I also love birds and the tribal style. If I didn't feel guilty I'd use this exact tattoo. I'd like to get that on the back of my neck.


I really like this tattoo as well ... not that exact shape of the phoenix, but I've always had an affinity for the phoenix. They're my favorite mythical animal ... I used to read books about them, and I love birds, in general. I do like the tribal style as well.


I LOVE [b]LOVE [i]LOVE[/i][/b] this tattoo. Hummingbirds are a thing in my family, I love the vines and the flowers, I love the shape, and the positioning on the lower back. I love this tattoo, but it doesn't have a ton of personal meaning like the phoenix, even though hummingbirds are a big thing with my grandma, especially.

I've liked all of those for nearly a year now. I think that's the amount of time I wanted to give myself before I decided on seriously getting a tattoo, instead of it being on a whim. Any opinions? :)

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Edit: How Bill O'Reilly (asshole) feels about tattoos ...

“Already you see millions of young Americans covered with tattoos, unable to speak proper English, unwilling to read a book or a newspaper. How do you think these people are going to compete in our hypercompetitive economic marketplace? The answer is that millions of them will be unable to compete, and will be doomed to a low wage existence. IBM will not hire you if you have a tattoo on your neck.”

“Thus, we now have 10-year-old boys calling little girls ‘bitches.’ We have 13-year-olds with tattoos and body piercings. We have poor children without parental guidance selling dope and carrying guns.”

Nice, eh? :idea:

Today was a pretty uneventful day. I called my car insurance place (Like a good neighbor, State Farm is there!) and asked them how much I owed. Looks like I'm gonna be paying $90 right now and another $30 at the beginning of September ... more, actually since I'll have my license by then. Bleh. I bought a $10 card from a lady in the town I work in that benefits their sports programs and it has all sorts of cool discounts/coupons for local businesses on it ... but really, other than a shitty day at work, nothing much happened. :)


Me wearing Mike's Tenchi Muyo hat ... a little uneven, but he should've fixed it!


Me looking oh so sullen looking out the window ...


And us being a coupla weirdos :roll:

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Yep. The crummiest thing about today was that Mike went for an interview at a pet store but it turns out they wanted someone who could work more hours than he has available; with school, the dogs, and ... well, me of course (jk) ... :roll: Plus they don't pay too well.

I'm really happy about all these plans of change, though. And I talked with my mom today, she really wants to move out, and even though I want to live away from my mom eventually, it would be better of us to move out together instead of apart, financially. And I can't turn away from my mom like that. As long as since I'll be paying a lot of the bills, I get to pretty much do what I want - not like parties or being loud and obnoxious, but have Mike over and come and go as I please.

I have an orientation at Wal-Mart this Thursday. So I'll probably be starting next week. Of course I have a shitty schedule for next week, which is my last week at the video store. Gosh, it feels great to get out of there. I was thinking "Ugh ... I wonder when that movie comes out ... probably have annoying people wanting it ... " and then I thought, "Who gives a fuck?? Ha!"

I don't remember if I mentioned this but a girl I was good friends with in 9th and 10th grade works there too. I didn't even recognize her, she looked really good; when we started talking she said it was her that called my references and kept pushing for me to get a job! :D I'll have to take her to lunch or something; we used to have HUGE crushes on JC from N'Sync, LOL.

I'm really happy with life now .. I feel a lot better than I was this time last month (well, excluding Florida). I feel better, I've been doing some stretching and yoga exercises, using a good face wash, and of course the best benefit of being on the pill ... my boobs grew a ton 8) I'm just feeling really upbeat in general. Mike's been a super sweetheart lately, even though he's depressed he has to start school again :( This time of year reminds me of when we first started hanging out last year at his house with Lee, Cole, and Jerome ... they were such nervous times for me; then I remember one night we were sitting on his futon and I was tired so I laid down at one end and put my legs on his lap and asked if that was okay, and he said it was and started rubbing my legs ... not in a sexual way or anything, but I remember the butterflies I had! I still get those butterflies everytime we get together. When we ate out last night, he looked so cute and I said "Sorry if I stare at you sometimes, I just can't help it" and he just laughed like he always does. I stare at him whenever he comes to the car from the gas station, or is coming to my house ... I just can't help it :)

We talked tonight about dressing up as Gambit and Rogue for Halloween. That would be awesome, but I dunno if we have the effort or the $$ for it ... but they are so kickass!!! Mike could pull it off because he's really tall and skinny (mmm) and I have a Southern accent when I enable it :P



I used to love the original X-Men cartoon. I used to draw superheroes while I watched it ... kinda nerdy eh? :)

Well, I just popped in Fushigi Yugi, an anime that belongs to Cole that I've been meaning to watch for a REALLY long time. Well, I saw the first 26 episodes ... now I gotta watch 26 more, lol ... it's cool though 8)

Night! :idea:

And I'm on the hunt!

http://www.roommatenation.com" title="http://www.roommatenation.com" target="_blank"http://www.roommatenation.com...

I've set up a profile and I'm looking for cheap places to live! :)

Hell yes! I'll start at the beginning.

Got up at like 9 am and Mike picked me up at 11 am. We went into Wadsworth, a town Mike used to live in and is close by, and put in applications at a bunch of places. He suggested we stop at Wal-Mart to see if we could get it straightened out about that message I got - well, they took me back, interviewed me for like an hour (I was nailin' those questions left and right!) and I AM HIRED! Well, technically I don't have the job till the drug test results come back and I go to orientation, but I got all the paperwork and all that jazz! And let me say this - I've been working at the video store for 2 years now. I make $5.55/hr, which is only $.15 more than I started! At Wal-Mart, the starting wage for a cashier is $7.15, and since I have two years experience in retail/sales, I get $.30 per year experience, so I am starting out at [b]$7.75 an hour![/b] That's ridiculous but I'm not complaining! :D :D :D :D

Anyway, me and Mike also had another talk about a repeating problem we have, got it sorted out, and I think it really helped us out. We went out to eat at Parassons, a local Italian restaurant ... wasn't that great ... watched "Kung Fu Hustle" which SUCKED - totally boring, not funny. Watched TV and hung out ... took some funny pictures ... just had a really great day! The whole Wal-Mart thing is insane though! I'm gonna miss Lee at the video store though :cry: Although I will NOT miss anyone else ... well, I like David, he's cool. But yeah. I went into work afterwards to get my manager's phone number since she's out of town this week, and the other girl working besides Lee was like "I thought you were gonna wait till Natalie got back to give her your two weeks?" Accusing me, because I guess it is kinda shitty that she's outta town. BUT it's not MY fault she's out of town; she's got someone else hired anyway, and I didn't know Wal-Mart was paying that much!

Well, I'm gonna lay down and watch "Finding Nemo" ... what a great day!!

Edit: Oh yeah, I forgot to mention I went an renewed my (expired) car registration today :oops: :roll: We had to wait for like 15 minutes ... three people in the BMV all working as slow as the possibly could, hehe. Saw some interesting people though. But my car is running now, and I'm calling tomorrow to schedule a driving test for next week sometime, preferably later in the week. I'm makin' changes baby!

Well, Mike and I had a big talk on the phone tonight. I cried, he said I don't understand. I guess I can never understand. All I know is it hurts me that he has to know he can live on his own in case anything ever happens. I guess I'm the kind of person who doesn't live on "what ifs" and would rather take things as they come, not pressure the relationship we're already happy in with a possibility that probably won't even arise.

I'm not really in the mood to talk about it because it's just me talking to a brick wall; he is much more independent than I am and that's all there is to it. He says he understands where I'm coming from but I don't think he does. But there's nothing I can do about it, at all. I just have to live with it. I feel like I hit a wall no matter what I want to do; if I want to go back to school I have to continue living in this hellhole, if I want to live on my own I have to forfeit school, if I want to live on my own and possibly go to school at the same time, I have to move up about an hour away. But there is no option that we live together, it just doesn't exist. It hurts more than anything. Even if he didn't pay for any of our expenses I would still want him to come live with me. But, I just have to live with it anyway, AND not only do I have to accept with it, it has to brew over my head for a year before it actually happens. Like Lee said, all I can do is hope he has a change of heart.

Of course I would like to live on my own, or even something close to that, but I can't do that unless I move up north about an hour and fifteen minutes away - jobs are simply more plentiful and pay better there. But I don't want to put that strain on our relationship. I feel like he thinks I'm incapable, and I KNOW I'm capable, and I just don't need to do it. I guess that's the part I don't get. I feel the best things in life our gained through a relationship with someone, and growing together. I want us to grow together, not apart. It feels like precautions are being taken against me. And no matter how much it's denied, I think any normal person would feel that way. It's like a prenuptial agreement in my opinion, which I think is totally wrong. He says it's being realistic, I say it's being pessimistic, and honestly, just inconsiderate. I change a lot of my life to be with him.

I needed to get that out.

Man... what a lousy day. First, I woke up an hour later than I thought I was because my clock is dying. Bleh ... I'll skip some of the middle stuff ... let's just say Wal-Mart is off the radar employment wise ... work was busy, my feet are killing me, and I just ate too much Ben and Jerry's :'( But Chocolate Fudge Brownie is soooo scrumptious ...

I got an email from Mike tonight because I sent him one talking about if he lived on his own, I lived on my own, etc ... he said he just wants to prove to himself that he can live on his own for a while. I understand that, it's just hard to accept it. Especially since I don't think I'd ever be able to live on my own, especially if he wants me to go back to school. It just won't happen. And I would hate living at my house if he lived alone. I just don't see the need I guess. He's so independent. I've never been an independent person ... not that I don't think I can manage emotionally on my own, I would just much rather live with someone, and I guess I don't get why he wouldn't want me to live with him. I don't understand when people need to prove something to themselves, or experience it. I don't believe the mantra "try everything once" ... I don't need a whole house to myself. And why waste all that money on just me? I'd be depressed living alone. At least if Mike moves into his duplex, he wouldn't need to pay rent. I would help pay for some of it ... but that's not even something that's going to happen. So whatever. I guess I just prefer when a relationship moves faster. I think that's part of what is depressing me too. Oh well.

Now that I'm all teary eyed I'm gonna go to bed. Night. :idea:

Edit: It's about 1:45 am and I just got off the phone with Mike. We didn't really talk about the moving situation ... just about how shitty work is and all that. I was thinking though that I guess I would like to live on my own, if not alone, maybe with a friend or roommate. But there aren't many people that I think would want to live with me. I'm pretty sure if my cousin Brittany was interested, we could get an apartment together, but she'd wanna live up near Cleveland, and I don't blame her with the career she's interested in. It would be fun to get an apartment with Lee but I don't know what her and Cole's plans are. Oh well.

Monday I'm going to the title bureau and insurance place to get my car mess all straightened out. I hate driving ... I am just no good at it, and don't care to be, but I know I've gotta bite the bullet and get my license. I really take no offense to comments about it because we are all bad at something and I am bad at driving. I have the ability to get my license, as almost everyone does, but unlike most people who are bad at driving, I don't want to put myself at risk, I guess. Especially around here where there are tons of country roads and the speed limit is 55 mph; people go nuts.

And it turns out Mike's mom is helping him out with college a lot, which is great. But sometimes it's hard to see all the help everyone else gets from their parents, and I don't get any; in fact I have to help my mom pay for stuff.

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Why do parents take messages for you while you're IN THE HOUSE? AAAAAAAARGH.

Wal-Mart, who I applied to, called today and my mom took a message that tonight I have an interview/new hire orientation (which is it? who the hell knows) at 7 pm. Well my genius mom, I have to work 4 - 11:30 tonight! So I have to ask the guy I'm working with if he can either cover for me, or let me leave for an hour or two to do that, then come back and close the store. So I have no clue what to expect. My head hurts and I'm in a pissy mood. Then my mom wonders why I'm pissed at her! :evil:

Yeah ... I got up around 11 am or so and Mike picked me up at 12:30 pm. We went over to his dad's work in Akron ... then drove over to the student center thing at Akron U and he talked to someone there. Turns out FAFSA hardly gave him any money for college because his (rich) stepdad claimed him as a dependent, even though he's not helping him with school -_-

Also finished watching "Fruits Basket" finally! Weird but good ending. I rank it above Evangelion, but not above Trigun or Cowboy Bebop.

Let's see ... we went into Wooster around 7:30 pm to the grand opening of Kohl's. I got a pair of really cute brown leather boot/shoes for $26.99, and the normal price is $44.99 :shock: I love grand openings :D

What else ... ran into my friends David and Alissa at the plaza in Wooster; haven't seen them in forever :) We looked in Sam Goody and EB Games and hung around and chatted for about 45 minutes. It's like dang ... I miss talking to them. Alissa is one of the few girls I actually get along with :)

We also watched "Life is Beautiful" and of course I cried. Then tonight Mike had been talking about him moving out all day, then I said how unhappy I was at home, and he's like "Are you gonna move out, too? Probably do you some good" and I'm just like .... *sigh* It feels like he can be really oblivious sometimes. ::shrugs:: It really depresses me, I know he wants to move slow in our relationship, but it's not like I have the money to spend on living on my own ....

So, I'm gonna go to bed now. Been very emotional tonight, with that movie (tearjerker!) and then these goings on. Ciao. :idea:

P.S. Here are the shoes I got! Oh and I forgot to mention while driving on the freeway this afternoon, about oh ... 200 feet up, if that, an oversized load vehicle blew it's tire! Mike was on his cell with his dad and I automatically said "HOLY SHIT!" and all this dust and debris flew in the air with a 'POP' and the tire was on the road ... we were REALLY lucky we didn't get in an accident. That's something I'll never forget.

Yeah, and I'm wearing pants :roll:

I just wanted to add that I stuck a Disneyworld picture over on my left sidebar. Since this computer has nothing in the way of photo editing, I wondered if it looked too gritty, or anything bad? It looks crappy on my computer anyway, but I wasn't sure if that's just because my computer sucks or what.

I'm really excited about today. Hopefully we end up going on a double date with Mike's friend Joel and his girlfriend. I guess Joel's girlfriend is really antisocial too, and Joel's like "Yeah, she gets all nervous about stuff like that" ... I'm like "Hey, I'm exactly the same way, nothing to worry about" :) So hopefully it works out.

Well nothin' much else to report so I'm outta here. Ciao! :idea:

Well ... after the shitty happenings this morning. I won't go into them too much, but my mom and I just don't see eye to eye a lot anymore. It's aggravating, because she'll call me a name because she's mad at someone else and take it out on me, then just expect me to forget about it. For example, she wanted to move out a few months ago. Well, I don't want to leave the area. She said, "What are you going to do, stay with Rick (my stepdad) and his idiot kids? Gonna sleep with him while you're at it?" I mean, what kind of mother says that. She has serious issues she needs to work out. It takes all I can to not scream at her that she's a psycho ... but um, she was driving at the time. I just sat there and calmly asked how she could even say that to me. The best defense is being the calm, adult person in the situation.

Anyhoo, Mike picked me up at 4 and we went to the vet's down the road. He's more of a farm animal vet, but he has antibiotics for pets too. Two of Mike's puppies are sick :( The vet has kids, a girl from my high school in my grade, and her brother who is two years older than me and I had a SERIOUS crush on freshman year. I mean, probably my first really serious one. He's tall, dark hair, glasses, nerdy. I saw in the paper last week or so that he got engaged; so I was happy for that :) He was a junior and I was a freshman, and I actually asked him later why he didn't ask me to Prom, and he said it was because I was too young. A senior ended up asking me :roll: I'll never forget he came up to me at Grand March and said I looked gorgeous, and it was so weird dancing with him at Prom. Hehe, freshman year was so much fun. I had lots of senior friends from Drama. Sophomore year was booooooring. I had a great girl best friend, but I didn't like any guys. Junior year I went over to the vocational school and had my first real relationship. ::shakes head:: Oh, the poetry I spouted in that year would fill a book. He cheated on his long distance gf with me, then dumped me for her (and I mean, he wanted to sleep with me and told me he loved me, I just had my appendix taken out), then by the end of the school year we were going out again, then over the summer I went crazy n got my eyebrow pierced, came back to school senior year and we went out till before Christmas when we mutually broke up with each other. Then we've had our run ins since. I'll always care for him, but seriously, that needed to stop. He's one of those guys who thinks every girl wants him. I online-dated Michel from Jan - April 2003 ... what a sweetie. Lives in Edmonton, Alberta, Canada. He messaged me the other day and I sent him a reply, but he hasn't sent one back since. I don't blame him. Then I went out with my other ex right before graduation 2003 and we went out till Oct/Nov 2004, so that lasted a long time. And now me and Mike have been together since Nov. 2004 and today (8/19) is our 9 month anniversary :) It's amazing.

But anyway more about today. We cleaned off some of our extra shells from the Florida trip ... Mike kept spraying me with the hose and I got so tired of it that I went inside, grabbed a pitcher of water, and when he thought I was gone, I dumped it on his head! It was great. It felt good on a hot day. Played more Earthbound, made some amazing love (multiple O's!) and then I started feeling not so great later on so we got me home. Tomorrow we're going to Akron U. to pay his fees and all that jazz. I'll probably pick up some literature on taking the ACT while we're there.

I gave Mike's mom a pair of earrings I made her today since she complimented me on the ones I was wearing and had made the other day :)

Sorry this was such a long post. I just felt like typin :) Ciao! :idea:

Hehe, I just popped in "13 Going on 30" starring Jennifer Garner and it has the previews ... as much as I wanted to hate the movie "White Chicks", I actually thought it was hilarious. Anyhoo ...

One of my coworkers may be the most annoying people who has ever walked the face of the Earth. She works the fewest hours, yet she comes in, frantic about what needs to be done, tries delegating jobs to ME (though I'm the manager on duty) and is so stressed that she complains and never gets ANYTHING worthwhile done. Then she makes the few things she does do sound so damn amazing, it's like hello ... that's what you're getting paid for!

This movie is really good! It's cute, funny, and Jennifer Garner is great in it. It's good to just watch something cute every now and then :)

I finished Urbz for DS last night. Decent ending. I am taking it back to Blockbuster though, to get my money back for it, since it has a 30 day warrantee :twisted:

Tomorrow morning ... or the next morning ... I am on a mission! I am going to a GOOD store, buying some GOOD makeup, starting to use my facial masks, and making my face look GOOD! I am tired of being pimply because of my over-oily face! I am going to be hot and feel good about myself, DAMMIT! As a matter of fact, I just put on a mask and it's making my face feel all tight, hehe. Me and my cousin used to use these when we were younger. No wonder I had better skin back then! Well maybe horomones hadn't quite kicked in yet ... I just went and rinsed it off and maybe it's the placebo effect, but I feel better already! Just taking one step in the right direction feels great!

I'm gonna start browsing eBay as well and looking for some well priced makeup. I found my favorite lipstick; it's by "Jane" and it's called "Punch Bowl." I've been wearing it for years, usually finding it at Wal-Mart, but I went there recently (to a couple different ones, actually) to try to find a new tube because I'm almost out and I can't find any!!! Admittedly it doesn't stay on very well but it tastes good and smells good and is the perfect color! I'm actually really lucky ... my cousin Brittany is training to be a cosmotologist, and my other cousin Gina loves to do makeup and wants to go shopping with me! Perfect timing! I'm not one to stress over my looks, but I really just want to feel good about myself these days, and to make Mike feel like he's got someone special.

So I must go to bed now. Ciao! :idea:

Meh ... today was good and bad. I went up to the library expecting to have a $20+ late fee but it was only $6.50! I happily paid it and got out a ton of stuff. I got these books ... "Quarterlife Crisis" about how to deal with being my age and a little older when you can't decide what to do with yourself ... "The Best of Dear Abby" is hilarious ... "Haunted Ohio" about local hauntings ... "The Comfort Trap" of being stuck in a rut ... and "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff ... It's All Small Stuff." Also got a book about Yoga and two Yoga DVDs, one about basic yoga, and another about yoga to help a bad back, because Mike really does :(

And all of a sudden I get a call at like 8 pm from a girl at work saying we have a meeting at 3 pm on Thursday. Talk about short notice. I planned on going to the free clinic that day to get two of my teeth looked at - one that's been cracked since March and another that started acting up last month. So I told her I probably wouldn't be able to make it ... she told me it's mandatory ... what's the manager gonna do, fire me? She's in a bind the following week, so if she wants to fire me, fine. But I could tell any possible employer that she fired me because she only gave us (not even) two days notice about a meeting and I already had the day off :x

In other news ... the new Zelda: Twilight Princess has been pushed back until after the fucking New Year. Big fucking surprise, Nintendo. At least the new Lunar and Lost in Blue are coming out for the DS this month. Mike is gonna buy Lost in Blue and I'm gonna get Lunar, than we'll trade :) Nintendo apparently also lowered the price of the DS by either $20 or $30. Do they realize how many people they're pissing off?!?!?

Well, I gotta finish some stuff and look up some recipes ... ciao! :idea:

Yes, that is today. I'm thinking of looking up some cooking/baking recipes to make something for Mike to take over his house as a surprise. I think it's a little late in the day because I slept in X(

Blah ... nothing really to talk about. Last night I decided it's time for a new me, and that this is the improved, less stressed, happier version, dammit! LOL. Ohh yeah ... maybe I can go to the library and pay off my late fee ... and get some self help books :shock: Me, pay off a late fee? Preposterous, I know :roll:

Something really good about me and Mike's relationship though, we both like a lot of the same things, yet we each have our own obsessive interests. Even though I don't necessarily like his extreme ones, I indulge him, and he vice versa, because even though we're a couple, we're also individuals. We can't help what we're interested in, and it's really wrong to try to bend the other person to your way of thinking. I was never into RPGs until he wanted me to play some. I figure, well I don't love them, but maybe I can get into them since he likes them. And now I have played ... Final Fantasy Tactics, Final Fantasy Tactics Advance, Golden Sun, Lunar, and now Earthbound, because of and for him. And I'm kind of really into non-fiction, true crime novels, and though he doesn't like that kinda stuff, we talk about what I read and we go to bookstores to find books (well, he looks for books too, of course). But anyway ... I think that's the key into getting back into our relationship; he said last night maybe the reason we fight more is because the relationship isn't "new" anymore. Honestly, I think it has to do with our own interests, and because we basically do the same thing, all the time. Not that I want to do expensive things, I just want to do *different* things. But its hard because there's not a lot to do around here.

I'll probably post again later tonight; this was just kind of a random rant post :roll: Guess I'm just bored! I have been writing on my other blog, but I can't seem to get away from this one until that other one is 100% customized. It's tough.

Ciao! :idea:

I got up really late today : Oh well. Mike picked me up and I was in a crummy mood because my mom was being aggravating ... he's like "I know what'll cheer you up - some Domino's pizza" and I was in a pretty good mood after that :D We also went to the library and rented "Life is Beautiful" because it's an amazing movie. I dunno if he'll watch it but we don't have it at the video store :P

We watched "Million Dollar Baby" and he was less than impressed, lol. Can't please everyone :) He gave it a 6/10, so that's not too bad. Then we went for a walk in the woods and he tried to show me some techniques on sword wielding ... I'm just not too good at it :oops: Then I played Earthbound for about 3 hours. That game is hilarious ... just left the Saturn Village! Mike wants me to dress up like Paula for Halloween but I'd have to wear a blonde wig. If he'll dress up as Ness, though, I'd do it! Get a little Mr. Saturn doll ... hehe, it's too bad I got into that game late. I just didn't get to play much SNES as a kid, but it's fun now!

What else ... OH! We watched a new Dave Chappelle standup DVD at work called "For What It's Worth" and OH MY GOSH. Funniest frigging standup I've ever seen. We were practically crying it was so hysterical. I recommend it to everyone - it's dirty, but not TOO dirty ... ::shakes head:: I would watch it again right now if we didn't have to take it back tonight!

But ... I am really getting kind of worried ... I don't know what my problem is, but I've just been so short tempered and mean lately, and can't concentrate on anything ... I don't know if it's stress or something in my brain going haywire ... but it's really stressing me out, and makes problems with me and Mike ... I just get so paranoid about everything and can't quit. It drives me nuts. I'm seriously thinking about going to a psychologist or something, just to get me okay so that our relationship will be okay. It's really rough on Mike, and I hate it. I said something tonight that I felt so bad about; Mike was playing some J-Pop in the truck and ... it just ... was terrible. I don't like J-Pop at all. It was getting REALLY annoying and I just burst out "How can you even LISTEN to this?!" and I know it hurt his feelings and I felt so bad ... I didn't know what to say. I hate when I do that; I do it to my mom too. I don't know what's wrong with me :(

Anyway ... gonna go play some Urbz, I'm almost done with it. Ciao! :idea:

Not much to write about besides what I wrote earlier. Work was sucky and usually I wouldn't mind talking about it but I'm too lazy; it wasn't important or anything anyway - more aggravating. Mike and I talked on the phone for a while; he was supposed to go to his grandma's today with his dad but they can never seem to get in touch with each other at the right time :( So we're going next week if he can't round up his dad this week. I really like visiting his family. They're very down to earth. Granted, I've only met ... his grandpa on his mom's side, his uncle, aunt, two cousins, another uncle, his grandma on his dad's side and her boyfriend. He doesn't talk to a lot of them, and for good reason, apparently.

Meh I don't feel so good. I've been up since 8:30 am ... maybe that's it -_-

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RAaah! It's mostly my fault though. I get up this morning and go to open at work. I get there, and the alarm isn't on when I open the door. Okkay ... someone forgot to set it. I get to the safe, and there's no deposit in there. WTF? Were we robbed? No ... but I was robbed of intelligence! Lee and I discussed switching our shifts today and I forgot to tell her I didn't need to switch, and she forgot to tell me she was still switching. So she was already there! Since she lives farther away, and it was mostly my fault, I came home. Grr. Now me and my mom are gonna go job hunting since we both want new jobs. I *hate* that I have to put in a two week notice because I just want to QUIT, but I know that's wrong. Would look bad as a reference. Fuck ... I always get shit on there, especially hours wise. I get less hours than everyone else there this week (except the new guy), even though I've done a hell of a lot in the past week. Fuck it; seriously. I'll do the BARE minimum because that's what is expected of me, at those hours. THEN the manager is taking off a whole week next week and we're just expected to cover for her ... oh, and even though the schedule is usually only made the Friday before the new week, the next TWO weeks are already made out, just because the manager needs it. ARGH! I want to go back to school so bad and get out of this fucking rut. I'm going to sign up to take the ACT as soon as my mom pays me back. I don't want to be bouncing from job to job from the rest of my life. I'm not necessarily interested in being a career woman or anything, but fuck ... it's a downward spiral right now in that department.

In other news, I've signed up for a new blog. I'll see how that goes; I like it better already. I'm interested in a new layout and actually having a theme that I talk about ... I dunno. Ciao. :idea:

I hate how I can hardly remember what's happened in days previous. What even happened yesterday ... Mike picked me up after work at 3:30 ... oooh yeah we went and saw "Skeleton Key" ... minus Kate Hudson and her annoying character - not even necessarily her as an acress, her character was bitch - I thought it was really good. I love a good thriller that keeps you guessing until the very end. Me and Mike thought we had it figured out; while he was sort of close, we were both wrong!

Played a lot of Earthbound today and then Joel and Jerome came over and hung out. They are really awesome. We played some Dead or Alive (3, I think), Super Smash, and then ... meh ... watched "Sin City." I really wanted to like that movie, I really did. But not only was I constantly annoyed by the pointless nudity, the stories were dull, in my opinion. I didn't feel anything for the characters, especially since the men were murderers and the women were whores. The cinematography was [i]awesome[/i] though. And then Joel says after the movie "Don't you get mad at all the boobs in every movie?" And I almost cried right there out of sheer pissed off-ness + thankfulness that a guy finally said something. Mike's like "Can't you tell, look how pissed off she is!" It just felt good to have him actually say that; Mike thinks that I'm accusing him of looking at the women or something - no, I'm making a comment on society in general - especially the stories in that movie; all the heroic men want to save/avenge their women, but then they degrade them by showing the women like that. ARGH! I fucking hate Hollywood.

Mike's mom and stepdad were supposed to be gone this weekend so I was gonna spend the night; they ended up staying but luckily I was allowed to stay anyway :) There are things we like to do in the house when no one's home of course. I was thinking the other day, what if Mike asks me if I've done some of this stuff with anyone before? I've never enjoyed it with anyone else before, but if he asked me if I went through the motions I would say yes - well, maybe it was okay because I was thinking about him. But I could never lie to the man I love.

Well, I gotta open in the morning, so I must go to bed. Ciao! :idea:

Yep, that was my day. Kind of shitty as well. I had to lend my mom $140 so our dog can get fixed because she's out of a job right now. I know I won't see that money for a while, if at all. She'll probably say I should help pay the bills and just keep it; wouldn't surprise me. She even had the audacity to ask for it while wearing one of my shirts. She's always stealing my damn clothes! I wouldn't care if she ASKED but she never does. And then she gets a stain on it, and oh well. My mom is being a real bitch lately.

Called the free dental clinic since I don't have health insurance and said I gotta take tons of paperwork there next week to see if I'm eligible. I have to be; especially with my mom out of work and me getting shit pay.

Talking to my cousin right now, haven't talked to her in a while. We grew up together :) She's only a couple weeks older than me. We don't live nearby anymore but we still get along. I wish we could hang out more; I would probably consider her one of my best friends. Our personalities are nearly 100% opposite :roll:

My manager and I had a really good talk today about how I'm unhappy at my job. I feel better now about some of the things I was pissed about. She also invited me to a club with her, Lee, and our other female coworker. I'm REALLY not the clubbing type, but I may just go so we can all hang out and have one of those bonding experiences, lol. Lee will be there so I wouldn't feel too weird, but I'm still pondering it. I'd love Mike to go, but he hates those places and hates dancing. And plus it'd be kinda fun to have a girls night out, I guess :)


P.S. This is Peter Sarsgaard, my favorite indie (well, not so indie anymore) actor, starring in "The Skeleton Key" with Kate Hudson, coming out 8/12. Also starred in "Boys Don't Cry", "Shattered Glass", "Kinsey", "Garden State", and many more. And just to even it out ...


One of the most talented and gorgeous actresses, Angelina Jolie. Not only is she in great movies - some of my favorites being "Taking Lives", "Girl, Interrupted", and the "Tomb Raider" movies - she's a great humanitarian. Even though she is kind of a homewrecker I still like her.

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MMmm ... I just got off the phone with Mike ... I was in the kitchen making egg noodles at the time ... I'm like "I love egg noodles, but not as much as I love you, I guess" as a joke ... he's like "Oh, that makes me feel good; you [i]probably[/i] don't love them as much." So I say "I love you more than everything combined" and right off the bat he says "But not more than God, don't even say that" and I'm just like :shock: Well no, I guess I don't lol. It was just funny. Work was good but busy tonight. Not much to report :)

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Edit: Oh yeah ... one of Mike's puppies died today :'( They had a chinese crested/brussels griffon litter of [b]8[/b] (that's a ton) and three of them were pretty little and not eating from their mom. One of them was particularly bad; we nicknamed Starvin' Marvin ... I know that's terrible. But he was my favorite. This whole week he was doing SO good and getting chubby like all the other puppies - and today his mom squished him :'( The mom dog is kind of stupid and really hyperactive ... oh I almost cried when Mike told me. Then two dogs had pups today, a brussel and a dachsund. Only one dachsund puppy but they sure are cute - just like our Opal :) And I forgot to mention I've been playing the Urbz nonstop; I love it!

Oh, and Mike made me start playing Earthbound the other day ... wow. That is a crazy game! Everytime I get into a battle I die over the music; it's the best game music ever. And it seems like more and more games from more recent memory copy a lot of the stuff from that game. I even tried playing as Ness in Super Smash Brothers but I just couldn't get into being his character. Mike has played it a ton of times so I can ask for his help when I need it, but wow ... that game is insane. I only play it at Mike's so it'll take me a long time to play, but I like having him watch me play it :) I mean with characters like Orange Kid, Apple Kid, and Poo ... what's not to like?

Blah, Mike's parents aren't home this weekend and he's having friends over Saturday night :| I would stay but I have to open Sunday morning. Plus its his best friend coming over and he's leaving for college a couple hundred miles away pretty soon. I hate when I get jealous over stupid stuff like that. But we're going to see the "Skeleton Key" Friday night; figures its not playing at the theatre we have a gift card for -_- Hopefully it is decent. And I might watch "Sin City" this weekend ... maaaaaaybe. Like I was talking to a dude at work tonight, I gotta just take it at entertainment value, not the naked women. I do want to see the cinematics though. But I don't know if it's worth sacrificing my values for. I'm not a prude, I just don't care for movies that exploit naked women simply to make money. It's degrading. I told Mike I'd never be a stripper, and he asked me if I'd do it if he needed a liver transplant. Of course I would but dammit! That's not the point :|

LOL alright I'm going to play the Urbz. Night. :ciao:

P.S. Lee if you read this, I guess I am gonna open Sunday morning. Thanks for offering though! :)

Man, I love days where I don't get up till like 3 pm. Nothing to do but sleep! They are few and far between anymore, but I take em when I get the chance.

So let's see. Today is Wednesday ... lol, that seems weird. The past couple days went by pretty quickly. On Monday, me and Mike went and got some food to eat for our camping "trip" - some Chef Boyardee in cans to cook over the fire (I got Dinosaurs and Meatballs, he got Overstuffed Ravioli!), some cookies that were on sale, some Pringles, and some pop. When we got back to his house we put up the tent ... rofl, my mom told us it was gonna be SO hard to put together, and it looked really intimidating - tons of poles that attached together, very minimal directions - but Mike figured it out quickly and we got it together in about 15 minutes. Fricking HUGE! I got some pictures of it but Mike has them on his camera. It has THREE rooms - a "porch" in the front and two rooms off that. It was great. We had a fire, cooked our food plus some hot dogs, talked about the moon landing conspiracy (as we did not land on the moon, thank you), and made some wonderful love :oops: Was so wonderful out in the open ... well, in a tent, but with the fire roaring and it was kind of warm ... ::jitters:: Was so great! Mike liked cutting the wood and prodding the fire. We had a ton of wood but had to chop some of it up; that was fun too. But UGH! When we woke up in the morning, I woke up at like 8 am, it was SO FUCKING HOT. I'm not even kidding, the thing was like a sauna. And I had been shivering under the covers during the night, and it got SO hot that morning!!! So we went in the house, a short walk away (rofl). But we didn't do a whole lot yesterday (and I gotta get offline so I'll make this quick). We got in slight argument yesterday about my self esteem problem - it manifests itself in a lot of other ways, like I hate when there is nudity in movies or on TV, and when Mike plays his dating sims (he loves those things - but then again, I play them too), but I realize its all because I'm insecure in myself and we talked about it. But I really gotta work on my temper because we have been arguing a lot more recently and it's getting him really ticked. Sometimes I just can't keep it inside though :'( But we're working on it.

Anyhoo we went to Blockbuster and I bought "The Urbz" for the DS - I wanted it for a while, and used it was $22.99 and there was a buy 2 get 2 free sale. We get to the counter and it rings up $24.99. Not a huge deal, but I ask the dude if I'm still gonna get it for the marked price, because that's false advertisement. He said "No, Blockbuster prices are subject to change without notice." That pissed me off since I work at another video store and if there is a price marked, we give it to the customer at that price or lower. So ... yeah. Asshole. He was a total prick. But the game RULES! I was kinda worried it would suck but I'm addicted!!!

Well, I gotta go. Ciao! :idea:

Literally, it's like sunny and 75º - not too hot, not too cold. Just got back from a thrift store and got two cute rings and two books for only 50 cents a piece :shock: But um yeah ... I don't really have a whole lot to say I guess. Me and Mike are gonna have a good time camping tonight! I haven't been camping since I was 14. Hopefully it's not toooo buggy, but gotta expect some. I'm thankful every day we have together because we're so good for each other. Share the same morals, neither of us do drugs or drink; which is really important - I know so many people who used to say they'd NEVER do drugs or drink, and yet as soon as they're out of high school or meet someone different, they totally change their morals. Mike says out of all the friends he had in high school, just about only him and his best friend, and one other friend haven't done either of those things. It's like people who are weak willed just latch on to someone who has strong morals not to drink, and then get peer pressured into it. A little champagne or wine during the holidays with the family is alright I guess, but I don't even like that. Makes my face hot and I think it tastes nasty. I feel bad for people who regularly do that - I was around so many family members who drank their lives away and we're high so much they could never live. What kind of life is that? I'm happy to be alive and my brain 100% functioning, unlike my sister who will never have the joy of being able to control her movements or actions - I'm not going to willingly put myself in that kind of state. When I last spoke to my relative she said her parents were just drunk all the time. I hated going to their house as a kid because they'd always pressure me to do stuff and smoke weed right in front of me and then say "And oh, don't tell your mom ... hehe!" But whatever. People don't agree with what I'm saying because they think I'm telling them not to do something - no. I'm just saying why I don't do it and why I think it's stupid.

In other news I saw a bumper sticker on the back of an beat up van that said "I'm not a dirty old man, I'm a sexy senior citizen." Gross. :idea:

Yep ... worked this morning from 9:30 - 4:30 and went to my grandma's after work with my mom. Work was pretty uneventful. I drew a pretty good picture but I haven't had time to scan it. Hung out with my cousin and my aunt tonight but that was about it. Me and my mom had some good discussions in the car on the way there and back (an hour each way) about politics and ethics and stuff like that ... my mom is pretty cool to talk to now that she's not so gung-ho Republican.

But yeah ... nothing much else. Mike and I are camping tomorrow out in his woods instead of at a campground because we thought it was gonna be free but it's not. This'll be better anyway in case a dog has puppies. They've got a dog that just had EIGHT puppies last week, and three more dogs that are due any day - a chihuahua, a dachsund, and a chinese crested. The chihuahua puppies are gonna be soooo little and probably ugly ... but they'll be ugly in a cute way ^.^

I just read that Peter Jennings died! I knew that he had lung cancer but I had no idea he was so close to death. He was really my favorite anchor; ever since September 11th I always liked his delivery and I thought he had a good voice. ::sad sigh:: Glad he is in a better place now and not suffering, though.

Welp ... that's about it. Ciao! :idea:

Edit: Because I've been going to random old sites I used to peruse, I visited studentcenter (www.studentcenter.org) and updated my profile and stuff. My username is redmercury. I can't figure out how to get rid of some older stuff, like something that lists me in the looking for a relationship section, but whatever :? It's a pretty cool site. You can check out my profile here: http://www.studentcenter.org/...

Today was pretty eventful. Let's see ... went over Mike's house at three. We played some Super Smash Brothers Melee and I kicked his butt twice in a row! The first time we played I was Zelda/Sheik as usual and he was Marth. That's his second favorite dude. So I beat him then, so we play with him as Ganondorf (me Zelda/Sheik) and he's like "Sorry hon, but you're going down this time" and he's a better player than I am so I expected to but I beat him! It was crazy. Then we played later and we were just goofing off but he beat me mostly.

We were downstairs in the kitchen with the two foster kids at their house getting something to eat, and Mike pretends that he's gonna whip me with a wet rag ... and he does it REALLY hard on accident and makes this loud *CRACK* and hits me on my thigh right below my shorts, and it HURT! I just doubled over because it hurt so bad, the kids were cracking up, and his mom was getting ticked at him, lol. But it left a welt that's still there! It was pretty funny though, he didn't even mean to do it. I was just embarassed because it was in front of the foster kids.

We went to Rogue's Hollow tonight and it was kind of dull. Got some way too sugary lemonade. Wandered around ... saw a girl that used to work at our store ... then left. I have been getting so emotional lately and I don't know why ... blah. But Monday - Tuesday we're going camping! I'm really excited. Then next weekend his mom and stepdad will be gone 8) Mike has never been camping before. I find that insane.

Oh, we also went to this sweet used bookstore in Norton where I got two books by Vincent Bugliosi. He's a prosecutor/author who wrote "Helter Skelter" about the Manson family, which I read when I was in 9th grade. One is about the OJ Simpson trial, and the other is about a murder and the case; something I've never heard of. He's really cool; and I've read Marcia Clark's book about the OJ trial (she was the main prosecutor). I don't know what it is about that case that intrigues me so ... well maybe the fact that he got out of it : But I highly recommend "Helter Skelter" as a necessary read. Mike also got a book called "Legends" that he's been looking for for a long time, and really oddly, it has a bunch of authors short stories that he likes, and it also has Tad Williams, who is about the only fantasy author I'll read. Of all people, the one fantasy author I like. Hehe. :roll:

Well, I'm outta here, I just sent Mike a weepy email because I'm a fricking emotional basketcase. Ciao :idea:

Yeah! I've got high hopes ... blah blah whatever that song is. Mike's picking me up in a little over an hour and we're gonna go to the Rogue's Hollow Festival (isn't that a cool name? and check out that link, it rocks). Supposed to be fireworks tonight and who knows what else. It's the closest thing to our town, because our town, more aptly village (that's what it is), doesn't have anything except the "Historical Days" which we all call the "Hysterical Days" because it's pointless. The only cool thing about our town is there is a spot that the Underground Railroad went through. And we've got the largest ... lol meat market in Ohio. Well, even though our village is quaint, I like it because nothing ever really goes on and it's really quiet. We used to live in a bigger suburb of Cleveland, and I thought I'd never adapt to the country lifestyle ... but now I don't know that I'd want to move back :)

We were thinking of making the hour and some drive up to Eastlake to visit my grandma but I'm thinking nah ... I want to go swimming at Lake Erie if we go up and it's not the best day today. I do love Eastlake ... if there was any town that I thought I 'belonged' in, it would be there. Right on the lake, my family lives near there, and it's just a nice area in general. I lived there for about 5 years total different times of my life, in like ... let's see ... lived in the apartments, lived with my dad, and lived with my grandma .. three different places in the same town, lol. They just built a minor league baseball stadium there though which I'm not crazy about, but apparently they have flea markets in there sometimes. And maybe ice skating in the winter :)

Well, I better start getting ready. I hope Mike didn't do any dastardly deeds last night that he won't tell me about because he didn't really tell me what he did last night on the phone. I hate that!! :evil: :idea:

I went to www.quizdiva.com to take some quizzes because they have a TON there and they said the site is shut down! T_T That site had more quizzes than I've ever seen! I've been going there for years and now it is gone. Thanks for being there quizdiva!

So I've submitted to blogthings.com, which is cool but doesn't have nearly as many quizzes. Here are some of my results.

P.S. Work sucked tonight.

Your Summer Ride is a Jeep

For you, summer is all about having no responsibilities. You prefer to hang with old friends - and make some new ones.

I love jeeps! I would love to have a jeep. I'm considering getting one actually if I sell my car. I don't know why I like them so much. My cousin had one for a while and that thing was just fun to ride in.

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness. You are always tactful and diplomatic. You let people down gently. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

I'd say that's pretty accurate.

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want. And that's marriage - with the right person. You're serious about settling down some time soon. Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!

But I think I've met my person! Truth be told, I'd love a Dharma and Greg type thing where we just eloped and started living together ... hehe. We've talked about moving out and when and what would happen and ... it's not for a long time ... :(

Meatball Pizza

Unusual and uncompromising. You're usually the first to discover a new trend. You appreciate a good meal and good company. You're an interesting blend of traditional and modern.

That's pretty damn accurate for just asking what I like about my pizza! Mmmm ... pizza ::drools:: But the firs to discover a new trend thing ... I hate it, because I'll love something, like the 80's, or a certain style of clothes, and invariably a few months/year or so later *everyone* will be into it. Grah!

And I'm almost done with Golden Sun! I'm in the last "dungeon" and am working on leveling up my dudes. Well I might update late but for now I've got some stuff to look up. Cia!

Yay I got to stay over Mike's house the past two nights ^.^ Let's see ... today's Friday? Yay, I get paid today ... let's see ... Mike picked me up Wednesday around 7 pm ... we hung out ... what the heck did we do? ... I don't remember lol. Got up kinda early Thursday morning, picked up some stuff for me, then headed over to the Silver Creek Metro Park to do some swimming at their lake. Man, we were not in the mood though. The water .. smelled. We stayed from about 12 pm - 3 pm, went back to his house and relaxed - were really tired. But I got a little more sun and finally some sun on my face! Then last night we watched the first half of "Plutonium Baby" ... hilarious. There was a funny line in there too; one of the characters said "Over there lives a guy and his granddaughter" and another dude some back "Whats her name fuckin Heidi or somethin?" So we got a kick out of that. Also played some Super Smash Bros Melee and we kick ASS. I had a memorable match against Dr. Mario, lol ... anyhoo ... then we got up this morning and I went to my Wal-Mart interview. Okay - I get in there 10 minutes early at 8:50 am so I look good. The girl at the layaway counter tells me she's working on some paperwork but the supervisor will be done by 9 am. So I wait ... wait ... 9:10 rolls around and the supervisor comes out and says "Sorry but its gonna be about another 10 minutes" ... 9:20 comes and goes ... finally at 9:35 (been sitting there 45 minutes!) she comes out and I go back there and basically just verify my electronic application and talk to the supervisor of domestics. She was really nice, but man ... I was pissed. I mean, they scheduled me for 9 am and ended up having a staff meeting at the same time? WTF? Ridiculous.

But anyhoo I just got home, ate some breakfast, read the newspaper, and I gotta go to work tonight. :[ Blah. Mike's hanging with his friends tonight but I guess we're gonna do [i]something[/i] tomorrow ... who knows what :roll: He told me today he almost dated the sister of a dude who used to work at our store. I was slightly taken aback ... it makes me think, whoa, what if they had gone out before I broke up with my ex? I wouldn't have been with my love :'( But that's why they didn't go out ... we're fated to be together <3 Things have been slightly stressful at his house the past few days, but blah ... whateva. And yesterday was my two year mark at the video store ... whoopee :roll: >
Blah, and I have been a total HOG lately as in food consumption. I'm addicted to Peppermint Patties - I'm getting the shirt from that Hershey's commercial :shock: I ate practically a whole bag of em the other day X) I get like this on my time of the month ... at least I'm putting on weight in a really good area ... hehe. Well I'm gonna work on the crossword puzzle. Ciao :idea:

P.S. And grr I can't read my comments! Stupid window won't pop up T_T

Well, it finally happened. I applied at the evil empire that is Wal-Mart on Monday. I love and hate that store ... it's got such a grip on me :shock: I can always find something to buy there. But anyway ... I've got an interview Friday morning :) I'm pretty excited. Although I hate on job applications where they make you choose from "strongly agree" to "strongly disagree" and the question is "I did drugs in the past but I don't anymore." How am I supposed to answer that? I've never done them, so I say strongly disagree, but that could also look like I STILL do them, since they're assuming I do! Argh. But I got the call a couple hours ago for a first interview. I don't know what I would do there, but hopefully I'll get a bit of a bonus since I've worked in retail for two solid years. A former manager from the video store said she got a bonus for it :) But this rocks because you get a discount if you work at Wal-Mart! And Mike buys all his dog food there, which is a LOT for 30+ dogs, so he really wants me to get hired, lol. His ex used to work there but I haven't seen her in a while; she's pretty nice though - well, at least to me. He says she's kinda nuts. And a lot of people who come in the video store work there too so that's cool. Well, I guess we'll see what happens. No counting the chicks before they've hatched or whatever.

Looks like I'm also gonna be waiting till Friday to renew all my car stuff because it's kind of expensive, but I get paid on Friday. So whoo :) Also gotta work Friday night however - meh -_- And Mike's not gonna be picking me up tonight for another like 4 hours so what am I gonna do?! ... Not play Golden Sun! In a really aggravating part ... well anyway, I'm excited about the prospects of Wal-Mart ... plus you get to kind of wear whatever you want to work! That rules! :shock:

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Yeah ... haven't really felt like coming online at all either because my computer is being a total piece of crud. What else is new? I'm really just on to look up something on the Golden Sun FAQ ... I usually wouldn't look it up but I'm getting kind of frustrated in the game and need some assistance -_-

Work sucked today. I have to go to the BMV tomorrow to get my plates renewed. I uh ... kinda put it off because I was driving my mom's car if I needed to and I didn't have the money at the time ... so I hope they don't charge me a ton. Oh well. But tomorrow night oughta be good; I bought some REALLY corny B-movies to watch over at Mike's tomorrow with him - how's these sound?



[b]Plutonium Baby[/b]
Danny's mother died at his birth from a radiation experiment. Now Danny is a plutonium baby and when he confronts his mother's killer, New York City becomes the stage for this showdown of crazed monsters of super human strength! (1987)




[b]Death Force[/b]
Betrayed and assassinated by his best friends, one man arises from the missing of Vietnam to wreak a terrible and bloody vengeance. "DEATHFORCE" cuts a swathe with samurai sword, automatic pistol, and machine gun through the criminal underground that has ensnared a beautiful, captive woman. Heads topple and bodies twitch as relentless fate pursues the betrayers to an explosive, heart stopping climax. "DEATHFORCE" is action plus! (1980s)



[b]The Incredible Melting Man[/b]
The frightening story of an astronaut who returns from a space flight with an unknown disease that causes his flesh to melt! To stay alive, he must consume massive quantities of human flesh and blood! The infected and crazed Colonel West escapes from doctors' supervision and hides in the neighboring community, where he begins a hunt for human flesh. He stalks the townspeople - the reign of terror has begun. Who will be next to meet with violent death from THE INCREDIBLE MELTING MAN? (1977)

Great, huh? Hehe. I also got the movie "Hollywood Madam" about Heidi Fleiss. For some reason I'm intrigued by her, even though she only shares my first name, heh.

Anyhoo ... me and Mike are also gonna make a pumpkin pie tomorrow! And I might make some more zucchini bread ..... maaaaybe. Then we're gonna get up semi-early Thursday and go swimmin'. We miss not swimming every single day like down in Florida :(

Well ... I'm gonna look up that Golden Sun FAQ and then hit the hay. Ciao! :idea: