Things are just really going well! :)

Me and Mike might have the house to ourselves this weekend, whoo! I have to choose a chicken dish to cook for him. He loves his chicken :roll: And I love making it for him ^.^ The best part about cooking for him last month was him going out to work in the kennel while I made dinner in the house. It was like playing house :lol:

I was a butthead to Mike recently too and got him a giftie :) It'd been awhile since I bought him something ... I love giving gifts. Maybe too much. Mike got mad since I'm supposed to be saving money but ... he can't get mad at a gift! Hehe :)

I got home from Mike's not too long ago ... it was so foggy driving home. When Mike takes me home it's not so bad because his huge Ford Explorer sits up really high, but me in my tiny low Honda Civic ... different. And I'd say about 30% of the time he takes me home at night, there's a random animal popping out, from deer, to possum, to caterpillar. So I drove really slow. And they just re-did Mike's road ... the dumbest thing; they poured down tar and put gravel over it. It's so bumpy, and because there's a lot of farms off that road, there are already indentations IN the road because of the farm equipment. It's so new that they just painted the lines on it like two days ago. Silly! :?

We bought "We Love Katamari" today ... if you've played "Katamari Damacy", you either loved it, or hated it, and if you loved it, this one is even better! In the first Katamari you could really only take your katamari (the thing looks like a bumble ball; it picks up whatever you roll over) and roll it around for a set time, simply rolling things up to see how big you can get. In this Katamari game, you can, for example, roll against someone and see who makes the biggest snowball to make a snowman. Or, you can roll around a skinny dude who wants to be a sumo wrestler, so you pick up food, and the more you pick up, the fatter he gets. The levels are SO expansive, the "cousins" are much cooler to play as (I prefer Dipp), and it's easier to get the presents! And it was only $30 new at Best Buy (sorry Goins!) ... couldn't pass it up! I'm sure Mike is playing it at his house, hehe :)

I can't say I'm 100% happy with where my life is right now. I still live at home, but I do own a car, in my name, and have a job ... and have a wonderful boyfriend, and plan on going up to a local college tomorrow to see about applying. So while I may not move out anytime real soon, I'm adult enough to cope with the dork my mom and stepdad are. And Mike will move out sooner than we realize; I think, time goes so quickly. So that will be nice too; hey, maybe I'll move out sooner. I'm not gonna force the issue but I think the key I need to remember to focus on happiness is to just live in the moment. I'm tired of dwelling on the past (my dad, things blocked out of memory), tired of stressing out about the future to a ridiculous degree that nothing gets sorted out ... I loved just sitting in traffic yesterday while everyone else was all stressed out just thinking ... what's everyone's hurry? I think I need to get a bumper sticker that says that. I'm living in the moment, with what makes me happy (to a reasonable degree). I'm already annoyed by jerks on the road who get all pissed off if you're going the speed limit. People would be so much happier if they would just not let the little things get to them. That's a big lesson I learned. That, and to not be so self-centered. I'm not trying to be preachy, I just feel like typing. But really, it's odd to me that people can just be so mean and angry, upset with their lives, and try to degrade others in the process, or blame others for their problems when there's really no point. It takes so much work to be mad at someone, or to care what other people think. Which is why I don't. :)

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P.S. I am stealin' this from JustinB here on tBlog. I took this How Much of a Geek Are You? test and got 8/9 questions right which gave me this:

[b]You got 8 right!
Excellent, you have the makings of a proper propeller head. [/b]

.... My teachers always told me I'd amount to something ...

I'll start from the beginning ... I went to the McDonalds right near where my interview was this morning. I get there at 10:25 am thinking "Phew, just made breakfast cutoff." Well, by the time the ONE cashier on duty got to me, after lolligagging around, I made sure they were still serving breakfast and she said "Nope, it ended at 10:30 ... you just missed it." I looked at my cell phone and it was exactly 10:30! I was so mad, but in a hurry so I just ordered :?

So I went to the gas station at 11 and the manager was super nice. She's gonna call me tomorrow or the next day and let me know when I can come in on the schedule :) It only starts at $6 but hey, it's easy work, and it's really close by. So yay :) A lil paycheck is better than no paycheck at all as Goins said.

Then me and my mom hung out in Wooster until my driving test. I got there a little early ... and thank heavens ... I got a different tester person!!!!! He was this black dude named Mario; he wasn't exactly friendly but he definitely wasn't arrogant like the last bitch I had all the other times I took my test!

:idea: :idea: :idea: :idea: So I finally got my license! :idea: :idea: :idea: :idea:

I wasn't really feeling that good afterwards though; I didn't sleep well last night so I had a bad headache and by the time we got home I really wasn't feeling good and got grouchy with Mike on the phone :cry: I hate PMS/allergies/headache!

So I took an ibuprofen and my mom asked if I wanted to go see "Flightplan" ... course I said yes. I've been dying to see it and it was *really* good; I loved it. There's an actor in it that I really like, Peter Sarsgaard, who I thought was cool because he did a lot of indie, smart movies. Well, he was in this, typecast of course ... and he was in "Skeleton Key" ... and is in a movie coming out called "Jarhead" with Jake Gyllenhall that looks really good ... about Desert Storm. Also want to see "Domino", starring Kiera Knightley as a bounty hunter 8) Hell yeah!

Then we came home tonight and me and Mike chatted on the phone as always. Now I can go visit him at school :) Long as the traffic isn't too crazy! :roll: But ... I'm gonna go play some Pokemon ... night! :idea:

Today went by really fast. I woke up not feeling too well again; I think it was because of all the rain, and I grind my teeth at night too, which gives me a headache when I wake up. I went to a few places in Orrville, the closest town to me that actually offers employment (unlike my village) and I've got an interview ... at a frigging GAS station tomorrow ... but what can you do, they don't pay too awful and they'll probably be pretty flexible with a schedule if I do end up going to school in the spring. I'll see what they offer. ::sigh:: I'm not saying anything bad about those types of jobs ... but I don't want to be working at a place like that my whole life ... gotta go back to school.

We went up to my grandma's in Eastlake today (I love seeing Lake Erie). I miss it up there so much ... my hometown :cry: My cousin's daughter was there visiting ... she's 9 ... I wish I got along better with children :? Oh well. She drew a really cute picture for me; I'll have to scan it tomorrow or the next day .... it's a koala :) She's an aspiring little artist :)

We went to the best thrift store in the world too up there ... Monday is half off day! But ugh ... it doesn't have a fitting room. It has mirrors on some of the racks .. I saw a woman standing in front of a mirror looking at herself, and I'm like "What is she trying on?" Then she starts TAKING OFF the jeans she was wearing ... she had tried on jeans over a pair of spandex pants! And this woman should not have been wearing spandex! :roll: I did get a cool red velvet-y shirt I'm gonna wear for Halloween. And a Sailor Moon barbie doll!!! :roll: And a cute new purse .... I waste so much money :roll:

So tomorrow I have that interview at 11 am and then my driving test a little later in the afternoon ... I'm really not looking forward to it ... I hate driving :oops:

Night! :idea:

Today was pretty long ... I'm about to head to bed and play some Pokemon but I wanted to post first :)

Got up around 10:30-ish ... I didn't sleep well for some reason; I woke up around 7 am and felt really nauseous; luckily I got back to sleep and felt fine eventually, but I kept waking up, at first, every like 15 minutes then it was longer intervals like 45 minutes until I just got up. Went over Mike's house at 1 pm and he had to chill with the kids until 4 pm so we just stayed in the living room and watched TV.

Anyhoo ... afterwards we went outside with Mike's swords and cut up some vegetables :D It's SO fun - I'd throw like two cucumbers at Mike and he'd slice em in midair and then we'd just throw the remainders to the pigs who were near us. So funny ... they have two pot belly pigs and two regular pigs in a huge pen with a mud/water pit and everything. HUGE pigs!

Then we went over to his dad's house, went out to eat at Damon's (mmm .. my steak was medium rare and delicious!) and then saw "Lord of War." I did not like it. A few reasons - it was a 2 hour movie that could've been condensed into 1 1/2 hours. Also, I thought Nicolas Cage was annoying. For a movie with that title, you'd think there'd be a ton of action, right? No. It was mostly a documentary with him talking so much. And of course there were the completely unnecessary sex/boob scenes. The last like 30 minutes was really good but other than that I give it like ... a 2 out of 5 stars, and that's just because the ending was good. Definitely a "guy" movie as his dad said. I want to go see either "Flight Plan" or "March of the Penguins" if it's still playing.

But anyhoo it was still a good day :) I started a new game of Pokemon on my Leaf Green version. And I think I'm gonna trade in Nintendogs ... I can get $16 for it at the local store ... some new games come out on Tuesday I'm interested in so we'll see 8)

Night! :idea:

What a boring, bland, lonely day.

Got up around 11 and Gwen called me telling me she had to go to a birthday party of a co-worker she forgot about. So we'll hang out next weekend, maybe. Oh well.

So me and my mom drove around a little bit today ... got a cool Zelda shirt from the thrift store ... a couple other things ... then later on we watched "Ice Age." What a cute movie! I thought it was going to be bleh but I liked it better than any other Dreamworks animated movie, even the first Shrek. Mike and I watched it the other day.

Mike went to go see "Corpse Bride" with his friends ... figures. ::sigh:: I know its stupid to feel mad but I can't help it! I'm all by myself.

I looked at a bunch of rentals today in the paper and found some good ones, but it doesn't matter right now anyway, since I don't have the money saved up. My mom needs to pay me back. And I need to get another job. I got some replies from monster.com but most of the companies are up in Cleveland. I do plan on going to a telemarketing place on Monday; my mom used to work there and said it was okay.

I am getting better at saving money. I found lots of opportunities to buy stuff but I didn't. I'm not good at saving money but I guess I have to. It's hard because I never get presents so I have to buy them for myself.

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What a weird day. I got up, kinda straightened up the house a tad ... fixed our shower curtain ... it's got rings on a pole that goes across the shower like most bathrooms. Well everytime I take a shower it seems theres another ring broken off. So there's really no point in having a curtain. So I kinda rigged it to work but I'm sure it's broken again now. Anyway!

Mike came over around 5:30 and I had a ton of running around to do. Had to cash my paycheck, and then drop off some applications. Okay, my problem with my bank ... when I signed up for my checking & savings accounts at National City, I decided that since I was going to use direct deposit (which I didn't since I quit the video store) that I would like if they transfer $20 a month from my checking to my savings automatically, on the 15th of the month. Well, on 9/14, I went to National City's drive thru thing and asked them to deposit my check into my checking so that I'd have enough (my funds are totally dried up; I didn't even have the $20 in the checking I needed, so I did this so I would). Well, there was a big line behind me, and the teller just cashed it and gave me the money. So I'm like, whatever, hopefully they'll realize that I don't have the funds for it this month, and it's not like I'm writing a bounced check or anything. But oh, no. I got a thing in the mail earlier this week saying I now owe $35 to the bank because of insufficient funds. I see why they did it, but COME ON! It was just them wanting to transfer money from one account to the other, and I should've had the money, but the teller misheard me! So I'm going to the bank on Monday to sort it out. They're really nice there, and hopefully they'll let it slide. If not, well, they're just gonna have to wait because I don't have an extra $35 to spend on a stupid fine like that.

Another weird coincidence - my friend Gwen and I have the same exact make, model, and year of car - 1991 Honda Civic LX Sedan. Except hers is blue and mine is red. How weird is that?

But anyway me and Mike did stuff in Wooster tonight, stopped at a really good bookstore called "Books in Stock" ... he got a book from a series he really likes ... a Stephen King book called "The Long Walk" I think? ... and a collection of works by some dude he said I'd like. And I got a Goosebumps book I used to love; "Cuckoo Clock of Doom" which I already started :roll:, Stephen King's "The Running Man", and ... lol, a Simpsons book. And we ate at one of my favorite restaurants, Long John Silvers ... mmmm!

When we got back to his house we just hung out, watched "Finding Nemo" and watched some late night TV. I am PMSing really bad though ... I hate when I get so emotional and grouchy. I act like such a jerk, and it doesn't feel like it at the time, but looking back on my actions I feel terrible. Mike always forgives me but I still feel like the biggest bitch that ever lived. :cry:

Tomorrow I suppose me and Gwen will be hanging out, I didn't get to talk to her today. Hopefully she'll call or stop by in the morning/afternoon. If not, she'll be in town next weekend probably. I'm really excited to see her after like 3 years :)

Well, I better go get some sleep. Night! :idea:

I'm gonna buy a 'skin' for my Nintendo DS that I can easily apply. I can't really decide which one I want. Here are some cool pictures.

	This one is pretty cool it kind of reminds me of the gold Zelda cartridge.
	This one is frigging awesome! It's not as different from the original grey casing so its not as noticeable around the speakers.
	This one is even more similar, and its cool because its not crazy but it still looks awesome.
	Of course I love Zelda ... but this is the only Zelda skin and it doesn't look that great ...

On the other hand, at a local game store, they sell skins there for $10 but some of them aren't as cool. There is a really cool nebula one I like. But me and Mike can both find a skin on here we like and save on shipping. So who knows!!! :shock:

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I'm playing Nintendogs and thinking about cute dogs and I thought ... I'll pick my favorite animal from different categories! Hahah! (P.S. ... why is there this huge gap between here and where my table starts ... or is it just my computer?)

	My favorite dog: West Highland White Terrier! This has been my favorite dog for so long! I found a mug at a garage sale with one on it and it sits near my TV now!
	My favorite cat: Manx! I'm not a huge cat fan but I think manx's are cute because they don't have tails. I dunno why they're that way.
	My favorite bird: Cockatiel! I know they aren't rare birds or anything but we had two when I was growing up (I named both of them Kevin ... first one dyed of my dad not clipping its wings so it flew into the wall ... second one died of an eye tumor :cry:) ... I love their cheeks!
	My favorite wild animal: Koala! Like I even need to say anything about the cutest animals ever! This is a goofy picture though, lol.
	My favorite fish: Plecostomus! We used to have a pleco named Clyde. He got as big as the fish tank; he was old. When he passed away he wouldn't fit down the toilet :oops:
	My favorite rodent pet: Gerbil! I had two gerbils named Ren and Stimpy when I was 10. Ren escaped ... and got eaten by the cats that lived under the house, or so we presume :cry:

Maybe more later! :idea:

Hummm ... I got up pretty late today. I love days like that.

First, I went out and picked up my paycheck from Wal-Mart. It was a good paycheck ... made me doubtful about leaving ... but whatever. It felt good to have money though. My tank was at like ... less than 1/8, and I put only $15 in and it brought it up to about 7/8 of a tank. And that'll last a while! Then I came home, made a resume, sent it to a couple ads in the paper that had connections online, and put it on monster.com. It kind of sucks ... both in presentation and experience ... but oh well. Not like I have much to say on there :(

Then I drove with my mom to get some stuff from the store and picked up/put in applications at Applebee's and Kohls. Applebee's is looking kind of promising; waitressing pays pretty well. So we'll see.

But other than that nothing really going on. Probably gonna get a haircut tomorrow. Gonna call Gwen and see what we're doing on Saturday. Also see if David is gonna be home this weekend so me and Mike can stop by, also if a friend leaving for college soon will be able to hang out. Who knows.

So ... ciao! :idea:

Oh yeah! Mike ordered a Mystery Science Theatre 3000 DVD that has around 13 episodes on it :shock: So hopefully it'll arrive tomorrow. Not expecting it though. And Sunday we're gonna go see "Lord of War" starring Nicolas Cage with his dad. Read reviews, kinda meh, but who knows. Also gonna see if we can find a MST3k tape at his dad's, and "The Little Mermaid" ... speaking of that Disney film, Mike pointed this out to me like ... a year and a half, two years ago, when we were working together ...

Anyone else notice what I notice? I got this picture from this site: http://www.snopes.com/disney/... It claims that it wasn't drawn like that on purpose, but whatever! The resemblence is too significant in my opinion. But whatever! It's still my favorite Disney movie.

P.S. I added some pictures to the sidebar. Two of me from the other day and one of me and Mike from Disneyworld. Whaddya think?

Ho hum ... nothing much going on this afternoon. I put my little profile on roommates.com and all I'm getting are messages from old guys :? I should give them to Mike and have him deal with them :twisted: But seriously, I stated explicitly on there that (on the small chance I DO room with someone) I was only interested in rooming with a girl. So whatever. I told them I wasn't interested. :x

I have to dig out the number for jury duty tonight. I'm kind of looking forward to that tomorrow morning :)

Welp ... not much else going on ... I'm watching Maury Povich. This show sucks! A bunch of drama queens who think their God's gift to men ... ::shudders:: And like most girls who think that, they're NOT.

P.S. I called the number for jury duty and they said I don't have to report. I'm kinda sad! I was looking forward to it. I really like reading books about trials and I'm interested in law, so that would've been neat. But at least now I don't have to get up really early in the morning :roll:

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Tonight was pretty good! I was on the phone with Mike at about 9:30 and I get a call coming through from my friend Gwen! It was so good to talk to her again; it's been at least ... 2 or 3 years, I can't be sure. She sounded just the same :) She told me all about her daughter (10 months, Emily Lorraine) and her boyfriend (Bryan .. sounded kinda eh to me ... ) and her job at Applebee's. It was kind of weird ... she used to be totally religious and made me go to church with her and all that, and now she's kinda the opposite, but hey whatever, she's still the easygoing girl I was best friends with. She just picked up some hobbies I don't share ... lol.

But it was awesome. We talked about her twin sister who's married and has a kid and living in the boonies of West Virginia. Her sister ... got like a 31 on her ACT and now she's not really doing anything ... I'm sure she's enjoying life but man she had so much going for her. And Gwen, she's so smart too ... they were both always frigging geniuses (Gwen wouldn't let me copy her homework in Biology, always ticked me off, lol) ... but I hope they're happy.

We are probably gonna get to hang out on Saturday which is so great! It's gonna be nuts to see her after so long. I'm really excited; kind of nervous, but in a good way! This is so cool :D It was really nice because on the phone, there was none of that awkwardness or anything.

And me and Mike had a really long talk about working, moving, school, etc. I am a really bad procrastinator ... I think the first thing I need to do is move out of here. I've looked online about low-cost apartment complexes, but I think I'm actually gonna have to call places. I've put my name on several roommate sites and looking for places to rent. This house is like a pit of non-motivation. I need to get a more solid job and just get out. Maybe if Gwen is interested in moving back here, we could talk about getting a place together. It wouldn't hurt to mention it.

Welp, I am feeling kind of unwell at the moment. My stomach is feeling unhappy and I have a headache. So ciao :idea:

It's only 4 pm but this has been a really full day already. Okay. I got up this morning, ugh I was so tired ... me and my mom drove up to work because I had to be there at 7 am. I was supposed to work until 4 pm. I get there a few minutes early, hang around for a few minutes before clocking in, and one of the CSS's (pretty much one of my supervisors) comes in the back and says "Oh, are you working today? We overstaffed for today so if you want to go home, that's alright." And I just kind of stood there like ... okay ... well ... fine. I went up and luckily my mom had her phone on her; so she drove my car back to the store and I just decided to go home. And not only that, I've decided I'm not going back. I really don't want to work there anymore. The CSS are just so obnoxious and I have a feeling it's not going to get any better. So I ranted to my mom on the way home, went to bed and slept until about 11 am.

We decided that today would be a good day to put in applications. So we drove back into Wadsworth around noon. First, I went to Fashion Bug. I put in an app there a month ago when me and Mike went around, and they had called me back, but I had already accepted the Wal-Mart position then. So I asked if they still had it; she said she couldn't find it so I filled out another one. She was really nice. Then I went over to the LA Pets store and the lady there was REALLY nice, she said she'd put in a good word for me because we chatted and plus, I can work at both locations the store has because I'm right in the middle of them. After that ... we went into Wooster because of personal reasons . I ended up deciding to go ahead and apply at EB Games, and then just for the heck of it went into the shoe store because I love the smell of shoe stores ... and like one of the greatest things in recent memory happened ... my best friend's little sister was working there! Well, she's not my best friend anymore, but we were best friends when we were in like 9 - 11 grade and it was SO WEIRD to see her little sister. She gave me Gwen's number and showed me a picture of her daughter (that was pretty weird too!) and said she lives over in Ashland and she had just talked about me the other day! I'm so excited. I called and left her a voice mail when I got home so I'm hoping I get a call from her really soon :D It's crazy! I've been trying to locate her for a while now and it's just so ironic that I went into that shoe store that I've only been in about 3 times total ... yeah!!!!

Well I don't want to tie up the phone for too long. Ciao! :idea:

Ugh ... I am really tired of tBlog being a total pain in the ass ... so I'm writing this blog in notepad and copying and pasting it when tBlog feels like working again ...

Today was a good day; wish I'd gotten some pictures. Mike picked me up at 5:30 and we hung out in Fairlawn; going to Borders, the Exchange, EB Games (where we saw his uncle ... humm ... long story; he basically lives at the Starbucks next to EB!), went to eat at Macaroni Grille - our waiter was awesome, left a like 30% tip - and then to Best Buy.

I must admit I looked pretty good today 8) And I don't feel that way often. I wore some heels that were literally at least 4 inches ... hehe. And Mike looked hot as usual, of course. He doesn't even have to try! :roll:

But hummm ... we watched the movie "Return to Oz" at his house ... and since I have to work kind of early in the morning he brought me home. Poo. I hate working early. But I get off pretty early too so oh well. I think on my other day off, Wednesday, I'm gonna start looking at some other places to work, though. While I do like Wal-Mart, like I think I said before, I just don't think it's gonna work out in the long run. I need to go back to school pretty soon and unless I get a steadier work schedule, it's just gonna be too stressful. However, that's the tough part ... Mike will be done with school pretty soon, and if I keep working, we can move in together sooner. But if I just go to school, that's stress on $$ ... ::sigh:: I need to win the lottery. Or come into a small (or large) fortune. Anyone?

Nothing really else going on though. I hate working. Some days I wish I'd stayed at the simple video store, lol. But I can't think that way. Life isn't easy. And you can't let everything stress you out. I'm lucky to even be alive, and not living in a third world country, where they REALLY struggle just to survive. We really have it good here, at least for now. But if Americans don't change things soon, our country isn't going to be the "superpower" that it is for long.

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I started this one last night ... I got really tired and couldn't finish it, then I wanted to today and I can't find the pencil I was using. Dangit!! I always lose my pencils :evil:



I guess I better hit the showers ... Mike's picking me up around 5:30 then we're gonna go eat ... I'm soooo hungry for chicken alfredo .... mm-mm good!!

I also decided I'm gonna start playing the Suikoden series of games tonight (or whenever I get a chance) ... I should really finish Earthbound first, but hehe .. I do that with games all the time :roll: Plus, Suikoden V is gonna be a tactical game, and I definitely have to play that. So I better get started from Suikoden I!

I wanna go back to Florida!!!!

My favorite place was Sanibel Island. I found some pictures online ... look at this paradise ...


That's exactly where we were ... ::sigh:: Shell collecting was awesome there; we got some really beautiful pieces.


We stayed at Anchor Inn in our own little A-frame cottage. Me and Mike got the upstairs bed because the stairs were really narrow. I loved that A-frame. Heck, this picture could even be the one we stayed in since it was right next to the pool. We all swam for about a half hour till our pizza cooled off then Mike gave me a piggy back ride back the A-frame so I wouldn't have to walk barefoot on the gravel.

I would really love to stay in one of those on a honeymoon. But I think me and Mike would rather have a European honeymoon ... oh well :roll: What am I blathering about!!!

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I read jennjr's blog for the first time tonight and thought this was a cool idea. Bold all those that you ever were guilty of doing. When you are done, add one thing that is true about yourself to the end, then post the list to your journal or blog.

I’ve run away from home.
[b]I listen to political music.[/b]
I collect comic books.
I shut others out when I’m sad.
[b]I open up to others easily.[/b]
[b]I am keeping a secret from the world.[/b]
[b]I watch the news.[/b]
I own over 5 rap CDs.
I own an ipod.
[b]I own something from Hot Topic.[/b]
[b]I love Disney movies.[/b]
[b]I am a sucker for hair/eyes.[/b] (Glasses ... <3!)>I don’t kill bugs.
I have “x”s in my screen name.
I’ve slipped out a “lol” in a real conversation.
I love Spam.
[b]I bake well.[/b] (But not often)
I would wear pajamas to school.
And I probably have too
I own something from Abercrombie.
[b]I have a job.[/b] (W-A-L *squiggly* M-A-R-T!)
I love Martha Stewart.
[b]I am in love with someone.[/b]
I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.
[b]I am self conscious.[/b]
[b]I like to laugh.[/b] (Who the heck doesnt?)
I smoke a pack a day.
I loved Go Ask Alice. (what is that?)
[b]I have cough drops when I’m not sick.[/b]
I can’t swallow pills.
[b]I have many scars.[/b]
[b]I’ve been out of this country.[/b]
[b]I believe in ghosts.[/b]
[b]I can’t sleep if there is a spider in the room.
I am really ticklish.
I love chocolate.[/b]
I bite my nails.
I am comfortable with being me.
[b]I play computer games/video games when I’m bored.[/b]
[b]Gotten lost in the city.[/b]
[b]Saw a shooting star.[/b]
I have had 2 serious surgical procedures.
Gone out in public in my pajamas.
I have kissed a stranger.
Hugged a stranger.
Been in a fist fight with the same sex.
Been arrested.
Laughed and had milk/soda come out of your nose.
Pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
[b]Made out in an elevator.
Sworn at my parents.
Kicked a guy where it hurts.[/b] (not on purpose!)
Been skydiving.
Been bungee jumping.
[b]Broken a bone.[/b]
Played spin the bottle.
Gotten stitches.
Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.
[b]Bitten someone.
Been to Niagara Falls.
Gotten the chicken pox.[/b]
Crashed into a car.
Been to Asia.
Ridden in a taxi.
Shoplifted.
Been fired.
[b]Had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
Stole something from my job.[/b] (Typical, pens, paper, that kinda shit)
Gone on a blind date.
Had a crush on a teacher/coach.
Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans.
Been to Europe.
[b]Slept with a co-worker.[/b] (We weren't co-workers at the time ... hehe)
Been married.
Gotten divorced.
Saw someone dying.
[b]Driven over 400 miles in one day.
Been to Canada.
Been on a plane.
Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show.[/b]
Thrown up in a bar.
Eaten Sushi.
Been snowboarding.
Been skiing.
Been ice skating.
[b]Met someone in person from the internet.
Been to a car show.[/b] (The Cleveland Auto Show in 2001 with my friend Steve ... that was so much fun!)
Gone to college.
Done hard drugs. (Never, ever)
Taken painkillers.
Met a celebrity.
I like playing practical jokes. (My jokes never work out)
Once swore Disco would never die.
Seen a ghost.
[b]Attended a professional sporting event.[/b]
Attended a live rock concert.
[b]Kissed in the rain.[/b]
[b]I have been to Disneyworld.[/b]

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
I have a scar right underneath a mole on the top of my right hand. I was rushing inside my house to get something before the bus came my junior year (yeah, I rode the bus...) and I was wearing this huge heeled boots and I tripped and scratched my hand on something sharp on the door. I complained to my then-boyfriend about it ... I can't believe I still have the scar!

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
Not really a whole lot ... some drawings I did ... a "Reservoir Dogs" thing Mike got me for my birthday that has a piece of the actual film in it ... a couple anime posters ... but that's it.

3. WHAT DOES YOUR CELL PHONE LOOK LIKE?
Ew. It's just a generic little phone. Nothing flippy or cool.

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Really just about anything besides country or rap. Lately I've been listening to a lot of industrial/hard rock, especially Deadsy. But I also listen to a lot of mellow music, even Mike's celtic music CD that I got him I'm really beginning to enjoy.

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Something like 12:52 am or around there.

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Right this second? Excluding like my life's true desires, like marriage and children with Mike? A can of Diet Coke.

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS AT TIMES?
I miss high school when I didn't have a job and the teachers didn't care what you did and you saw your friends nearly everyday.

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
Oh ... honestly ... I don't really place much value on my possessions. I guess I would say the heart necklace Mike got me. I wear it everyday (unless it doesn't match what I'm wearing at the time, lol) and it's a constant reminder of our love. :)

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
Oh ... the leather store ... or a shoe store when you first walk in ... or even better, Mike in his leather coat!

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Not really, I did a little on my first plane ride, but I got over it.

11. IF YOU DIED TOMORROW:
I would go visit my dad and tell him sorry that we didn't talk more, spend time with my family and Mike and then I could die happily.

12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Well ... Mike, unfortunately, but I mean, I was being sort of silly ...

13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
I'm not really huge on specific labels, but Mike's dad gave me the new Tommy Girl for Christmas last year and I wear it everyday, I love it and am almost out! :cry:

14. WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
I like dark hair, short, but spiked. Just like Mike's hair. Big spikes look stupid, unless you do them right, and no one ever does.

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO AT?
Ohhh ... hehehehe I don't mind ... me and Mike talked about this after his friend's surprise engagement party. I told him I don't want to be proposed to in front of a bunch of people because it would make me really nervous! But other than that, I don't care, as long as there's time to share the moment together and cry without feeling self conscious.

16. DO YOU LIKE PORN?
No. :evil:

17. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
My mom. She owes me money dammit! And she keeps taking my damn clothes! :evil:

18. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
I don't speak French completely; I write it pretty well. But um, I couldn't go to France and survive or anything.

19. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
I get all goofy when I try to express my feelings, sometimes ... I just try to be loving and accepting, and actually do tell them ... I'm kind of weird about it though ...

20. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
Mike, basically the only number I call.

21. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
Arrogance.

22. HAVE YOU EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
LOL, no ... I suck at that stuff. I've been on the receiving end, however! :roll:

23: WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
Talking to my friends Dave and Nick.

24. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Because I'm bored and I haven't filled out one of these things in a while.

25. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
Not care, because I don't drink. I would be happy if it was illegal, but then more people would want it since it would be forbidden.

All I did today was straighten up my room and try on some weird combos of outfits ... it would be so neat to be a fashion designer ... but I'm not rich or anything so I don't think I'd really make it.

I'm watching "Pirates of the Silicon Valley" again today, lol. I love computers, and the history of computers. Noah Wyle as Steve Jobs is just so awesome ... even though he's quite a jerk ... I love how Hewlett-Packard had a shot at the computers Steve Wozniak designed before they were even a company, and they turned him away, saying "What on Earth would ordinary people want with computers?"

Tomorrow is me and Mike's 10 month day :) We decided to go to Macaroni Grille up near Akron for some DELICIOUS eating ... chicken alfredo, oh my gosh ... fucking great :cry:

I'm supposed to work 7 am - 4 pm Tuesday ... I think I'm gonna call and ask if I can work 11 am - 4 pm or something instead. ... say I had to take my brothers to school or something ... yeah .

Well I'm gonna enjoy "Pirates" for the 2nd time this week. Night :idea:

Here are some drawings I did. I know they're not the greatest but I have a scanner at my disposal and felt like using it. :roll:


I don't remember if I posted that one?


I did this one the other night. Kinda weird, not touched up well, but whatever. :idea:

Well no wonder I was tired yesterday ... got up at 6 am and worked from 7 am - 4 pm. But oddly I wasn't tired at all, that whole day. I did all sorts of work, ranging from stocking in the Infants section in the morning to cashiering at like three different registers the rest of the day. Infants was SO FUN! The place was in a total disarry but looking at all the cute baby caps and booties and outfits was really fun. I even creeped Mike out later by mentioning it ... he's like "We can't have a kid for another 4 or 5 years ... " So I asked "Why?" LOL. He's right, we want our child to have a great childhood, not scraping for money or needing to put it in Daycare. Neither of us had good childhoods, and I definitely want to be a stay-at-home mom. :)

But anyhoo last night was pretty good. Got some Domino's pizza (my favorite!) and Cinnastix, of course. It was so silly at Dominos ... Mike was carrying the pizza and took the pop and I'm like "Here, give me the pop!" and he's like, "Get the door" ... so in the tradition of the Dominos commercial I blurted out "It's Dominos!" ... the workes there were probably like, oh my gosh ...

Not a whole lot else to report. Me and Mike are obsessed with Katamari Damacy. I beat the game the other day but we're still getting records and finding all the Royal Presents, and his cousins ...


I was big enough to roll up the rainbow! And the moutain, which is the hardest item in the game to roll up 8) And the Japanese castle ... that game rules!

Blah. I'm so tired of not getting money back I am owed. I gave my mom a $20 to put $10 of gas in my car yesterday after I went to work, and she only gave me back $5 because she needed the other $5. She won't take money from my stepdad, but she'll take it from me. I can't wait till she gets a damn paycheck.

I hate thinking about Christmas ... I love it with Mike, but yesterday he's like "I'm gonna ask for a PSP for Christmas" ... it's like ... great. He'll get one. I couldn't even try to ask for something like that. I'll be lucky if I get the $140 back that my mom owes me, let alone anything expensive. I know it's the thought that counts, but geez ... I can't help that I get slightly jealous at talk like that. I've never gotten expensive presents, and when I did the one Christmas, my ex-stepdad took them away ... I was 9. I hated that bastard ...

But Mike said he already knows what he's getting me for Christmas :shock: That's not fair! I have not even the slightest inkling what I'm getting him :cry: Maybe it's an engagement ring :shock: Yeah, right, lol ... I could hope and want that and really wish for it but oh well ... that would be what I'd want the most though. I kept nagging him for hints but all he gave me was "The wheels on the bus go round and round" so I have no clue what to make of that. Hehe.

Well I'm done rambling for now so auf weidersehn!

:idea:

Today was a totally boring day. I worked 10 - 3 ... cashiering wasn't too bad today; I just hate bagging stuff. I'm no good at bagging stuff properly. Oh well. I talked to a really nice guy who works there too as a cart pusher who used to come into the video store; we're both total Star Wars freaks. I'm like, "You must get a ton of exercise walking and pushing so much!" He's like "Yeah, I weighed 280 when I started and now I weigh 255." He's been there since May. What an awesome thing! The guy is like in his 30's, and this is totally platonic, but he really looks a lot better since we first started chatting at the video store. I forgot to congratulate him about him and his wife's baby ... rats!

But other than that I was stupid and took a nap when I got home, so I'm not tired at all now ... and I work 7 am - 4 pm tomorrow :cry: Oh well, I'll function. Unfortunately Mike got the same illness me, my mom, most of my family and about 50% of everyone else I know got. So after work tomorrow we're having a movie night; he picks a movie and I pick a movie. We're probably watching "Pirates of the Silicon Valley" ... well ... actually I'll watch that tonight again, lol. I really don't think he'd care for it.

Grr. I need a pair of scissors! I bought a keychain that you put pictures in to put in pics of our Florida trip and I can't cut the pictures ... grah ...

I bought a new bra today and it sucks.



It's a good idea but it wears a little too close to underneath my arm ... too underwire-y. ::sigh:: Have any girls gotten sized for a bra? I feel like I'm wearing the wrong size. I know I have to be a C because my old B bras are too small now, but they just never fit right ... blah.

Check out pictures for the Nintendo Revolution. It's definitely controversial but from articles I've read and people I've talked to, it's defintely revolutionary, and my pick for next gen system.
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I looked up my name on poetry.com and found some REALLY old poems. Literally, from like either sophomore year, or after me and my first boyfriend broke up. Wow. Was I corny. Here is the only decent one ... I wish I could delete them!

[b]"Today"[/b]
All these tears I've wept over fears
That I don't even know how to explain,
You'd think after years that I'd be more near
To finding a reason for the pain.
It was yesterday that I wanted to say -
Pour my heart out to anyone.
But now it's today, and the only way
To escape this hell is to run.
Remembering times I've felt sublime;
That must've been someone else.
In the crevices of my mind is the reason why
I haven't yet killed myself.
Fooling my brain - I've got it trained
To think that things will get better.
That maybe someday there won't be rain,
But my life just keeps getting wetter.
Love? I thought - but I got caught up
In simply a lust beyond my grasp.
My heart is wrought when all I sought
Was someone that would last.

That's about it .... I was just thinking yay ... the weather is supposed to cool down soon ... Mike can wear his leather coat again ... he is so yummy and smells SO good in that coat. Is anyone else addicted to the smell of leather? When we first got together I would lean against him in the car wearing that jacket ... he's so tall and he just looks so good! I used to see he come into the video store wearing it when he still worked there before we got together ... I can still remember the corniest things from when we first met, in August of 2003 ... I dyed my hair red back then and it got way too bright once, and we worked together and I'm like ... I know my hair looks terrible ... he's like "No, it looks good" ... and when I got my hair cut from being long in April 2004 ... I think he was depressed because he told me he likes long hair ... we used to play tic-tac-toe and hangman at work when we were slow ... I'd sit in the back office counting the safe or something while he was in the front and I could see him on the security camera at the front register ... I love still looking at him like that, he is so good looking, I don't know how I got so lucky because I'm nothing special. But it's his inner qualities, his morality, his giving spirit, his sense of honor, and of course his weird sense of humor that make him so much more attractive. And those glasses ... oh I love glasses ... and he looks just as good without them! ... I keep two pictures of him in my wallet, one with glasses and one without ... these pictures.




Isn't he so good looking? His eyes are so great, big but not girly or anything, and his nose ... I love prominent noses! I wish I had a good full body picture of him; oh wait, maybe I do ... this is from when we went to Stan Hywet in April or so ...



I love and hate having a hot boyfriend, lol. I worry so much about him being hit on by girls but I know I don't have to worry. :) Most of them probably don't play video games/RPGs, watch anime, and have a good moral system like we do. Hehe :) I remember once we were at work, I think it was like last summer, and we both went to reach for the same thing (one of those corny moments) and I noticed how masculine his hands were ... hehe. He says he wanted to ask me out but heard from Michele (who of course is Nick's girlfriend; Nick was my first bf, Michele worked with us) that I had a boyfriend! I kicked myself after that, lol, but what can you do. We have our issues, especially like a few months ago ... but we're getting past them.



And for the hell of it ... me driving Mike's stepdad's frontloader!




the greed it consumes you//the lust it defines you//the odor of hatred seeps from your skin//your angel face cringes at the demons within

I wrote that on a whim

That was today, yes ... sat around and drew a couple pictures ... might scan those later ... went up to work to check out my schedule ... I am really unhappy with the way some things are turning out there. I really like the job ITSELF, but I don't like any of the people besides the customers and a few cashiers and people I've met randomly. Here's my "quandary" - since I'm a new employee, I have a handwritten schedule. I wasn't supposed to be on the hard copy schedule until Saturday. Well, I'm on it for this week anyway, so I could either follow my written, or the hard copy. I asked a supervisor and she said to follow the hard copy, but I can't get in trouble if I follow the hand written one. I decided I liked that one because I was sick earlier this week and my written schedule gave me two days off. Cool. Then I decided I'd really be weird and follow the hard copy schedule AFTER Wednesday - the hard copy gave me today off. LOL, I'm evil :evil: So I can either work 10 am - 3 pm tomorrow like my written schedule and not get good hours, OR I can go 3 pm - midnight, BUT also get up to work 7 am - 4 pm Saturday! Isn't there a law that makes you have a longer time between shifts? So screw it, even though I WAS following the hard copy schedule, I'm working 10 - 3 tomorrow instead and talking to someone about it. It takes 20 minutes to get there so I wouldn't even get 6 hours of sleep. I really wanted this job to work out, since it pays SO good, but I want to go back to school in January anyway, and I don't think that Wal-Mart is gonna allow me to do that. They have me scheduled for 38 hours next week. How shitty is that? They can't give me 40, oh no, then they might have to give me BENEFITS, Heaven forbid. :?

But um, yeah ... not much to report. Me and Mike are trying to figure out there to go Monday for our 10 month day. We already decided for our one year anniversary (November 19th!) that we're gonna go down to his stepdad's cabin for a few days 8) ... well, whenever we can sneak it in around his Thanksgiving break. I'm so excited! I love playing house! :lol:

Bleh ... I gotta reschedule my driving test tomorrow morning for like, Wednesday next week. Oh, another thing that rocks - I'm scheduled for Thursday but I have jury duty that day ... so I can't work but I get paid for it anyway, plus what I get from the court! Fuck yeah! 8) Well, as long as I stil have to go; I guess you call the night before and they tell you if you have to show up. I hope so o_o And I get a teeny weeny paycheck from the video store tomorrow too, whoo 8) Extra dough. Probably buy something for my car from it. Grr, I was so pissed at my stepbrother who hit it with a fucking basketball today. That little brat has no respect for anyone's property - and I love that it is MY damn car, no one else's name, and I paid for it all by myself. It kind of sucks because it means that I have no money for other stuff, but my mom or dad can't just pull it from under me, or I have to say that it belongs to anyone else :wink: When me and Mike own stuff together it'd be different ... my first name sounds good with his last name ... my name will be really short because his last name is super short ... ::spaces out happily::

Welp, I'm gonna go to bed, gotta get up in about 8 hours or so ... goodnight! :idea:

I haven't listened to Alanis Morissette's album in forever. It was good back when I was like 12 (my mom listened to it relentlessly) ... and now I can really enjoy it! I can also understand some of the lyrics better ... :shock:

[b]"Hand in My Pocket" by Alanis Morissette[/b]
I'm [i]broke[/i] but I'm [b]happy[/b]
I'm [u]poor[/u] but I'm [b]kind[/b]
I'm short but I'm healthy, yeah
I'm high but I'm grounded
I'm sane but I'm overwhelmed
I'm [b]lost[/b] but I'm [i]hopeful[/i] baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving a [b]high five[/b]

I feel drunk but I'm sober
I'm [i]young[/i] and I'm [b]underpaid[/b]
I'm [u]tired[/u] but I'm [i]working[/i], yeah
I [u]care[/u] but I'm [b]restless[/b]
I'm [b]here[/b] but I'm really [i]gone[/i]
I'm [i]wrong[/i] and I'm [b]sorry[/b] baby

What it all comes down to
Is that everything's gonna be quite alright
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is flicking a cigarette

And what it all comes down to
Is that [b]I haven't got it all figured out just yet[/b]
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is giving the [i]peace sign[/i]

I'm[i] free[/i] but I'm [u]focused[/u]
I'm [b]green[/b] but I'm [i]wise[/i]
I'm [b]hard[/b] but I'm [u]friendly[/u] baby
I'm [i]sad[/i] but I'm [u]laughing[/u]
I'm [i]brave[/i] but I'm [b]chickenshit[/b]
I'm [i]sick[/i] but I'm [b]pretty[/b] baby

And what it all boils down to
Is that [b]no one's really got it figured out just yet[/b]
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is playing the piano

And what it all comes down to my friends
Is that everything's just fine fine fine
I've got one hand in my pocket
And the other one is hailing a taxi cab ...

I love that song! I highlighted the terms that I feel I relate most to. The "tired but I'm working" really struck me ... yeah! I'm lucky enough to have a job to make money so be a little more motivated about it! Here is another great song that I think everyone should really think about.

[b]"Wake Up" by Alanis Morissette[/b]
You like snow ... but only if it's warm
You like rain ... but only if it's dry
[b]No sentimental value to the rose that fell on your floor[/b]
[i]No fundamental excuse for the granted I'm taken for[/i]

[b]'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you[/b]

You like pain but only if it doesn't hurt too much
[i]And you sit...and you wait...to receive[/i]
[b]There's an obvious attraction
To the path of least resistance in your life[/b]
There's an obvious aversion; no amount of my insistance
Could make you try tonight

[b]'Cause it's easy not to
So much easier not to[/b]
And [i]what goes around never comes around to [/i]you
To you to you to you to you to you...
There's no love, no money, no thrill anymore

[b]There's an apprehensive naked little trembling boy
With his head in his hands[/b]
[i]There's an underestimated and impatient little girl
Raising her hand[/i]

But it's easy not to
So much easier not to
And what goes around never comes around to you
To you, to you

get up get up get up off of it
get up get up get up off of it
get out get outta here enough already
get up get up get up off of it
wake up

That song is so great ... and here's another great song that doesn't pertain to me but it's still a good "fuck you" song.

[b]"You Oughta Know" by Alanis Morissette[/b]
I want you to know, that I'm happy for you
I wish nothing but the best for you both
An older version of me
Is she perverted like me
Would she go down on you in a theatre
Does she speak eloquently
And would she have your baby
I'm sure she'd make a really excellent mother

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, till you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

You seem very well, things look peaceful
I'm not quite as well, I thought you should know
Did you forget about me Mr. Duplicity
I hate to bug you in the middle of dinner
It was a slap in the face how quickly I was replaced
Are you thinking of me when you fuck her

Cause the love that you gave that we made wasn't able
To make it enough for you to be open wide, no
And every time you speak her name
Does she know how you told me you'd hold me
Until you died, til you died
But you're still alive

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Cause the joke that you laid on the bed that was me
And I'm not gonna fade
As soon as you close your eyes and you know it
And every time I scratch my nails down someone else's back
I hope you feel it...well can you feel it

And I'm here to remind you
Of the mess you left when you went away
It's not fair to deny me
Of the cross I bear that you gave to me
You, you, you oughta know

Work wasn't so bad today. I only worked 11 - 4 but it still went by kinda slow since I am not quite 100% ... I'm at like ... 80%. Nasty cough but I've been awake. Lots of nice customers today. Everybody's so friendly!

Mike picked me up around 6 pm tonight ... his friend was supposed to hang out with us but he ended up not coming over. So we watched "My Neighbor Totoro", an animated film by Miyazaki, the same guy who did "Spirited Away" and "Princess Mononoke" - both are awesome, and so was "Totoro"!!!!! Soooo cute. I really liked it :)

What else did we do ... drove into a neighboring town to get some ice cream, yum ... I stuck my head out the window while blasting Smashing Pumpkins so that was kind of cool ... there was a dude at the gas station who looked *exactly* like Carl from Aqua Teen Hunger Force - I'm talking flip-flops, sweat pants, nasty shirt, hairdo, the works. It was hilarious.

But other than that we mostly just hung out tonight ... foggy as hell on the way home; usually only takes like 5 minutes to my house from his, if that; tonight it took like 15. Craziness. We were both a little insane this evening for some reason ... must be the moon or something :roll: And everyone will be pleased to know that my chihuahua Pip got second place in the agility trials championship in Nintendogs ... lol :lol: My computer is acting really funky lately. And I'm gonna go to bed. Night! :idea:

I was feeling a little tiny bit better yesterday but this morning I am really feeling a heck of a lot better. Still got a cough, and the sniffles, but my head doesn't hurt and I can actually get up without my brain feeling like it weighs 50 pounds. Good thing too ... because now I'm off to work! :cry:

Not much extra to add but I felt like making a new blog post out of it. I really am doing a lot better now in getting over the fact that Mike is gonna be moving out on his own, without me, next summer. We even talked about it last night because he really can't stand living at home anymore - he pays rent, does tons of stuff around the house, and still has to give like half of the profit from the dogs to his mom and stepdad. His mom I definitely see because she does some of the work, and I guess his stepdad should get some because he owns the kennel itself, but geez, that's a lot of money. And now his stepdad doesn't want him to move out - no wonder, Mike does tons around the house and he gets a profit from doing absolutely nothing. I want him to move out ASAP, also so we can get this out of the way and so we can move in together sooner, lol. But I'm in no hurry I guess, and I want him to prove it to himself.

Mike's mom mentioned last night how next summer they want to vacation on the New England coast, like we did Florida this summer. She mentioned it to me but I didn't want to be presumptious and assume that I was also invited. Aaaand ... as much as I love his family, especially his mom, I would really rather save for a vacation for just me and Mike. Or maybe that can wait until the honeymoon, hehe.

Blah ... two months ago today we were in Disneyworld! Everytime we see a commercial for Disneyworld we get pouty and wish we were there again. McDonalds has a thing where you can win a trip, so darn ... lol guess I'm gonna have to get Happy Meals more often! Happy Meals are a nice little taste of fast food - I grew up on the stuff and I know it's not healthy, but every once in a while, and I'll live. I like food. And that's the other nice part about being sick - I lose a couple pounds, lol. Mike said I have to win the lottery so we can go back to Florida, too. I wish!!!!! :cry:

Well now I really do have to go call Mike. Ciao :idea:

Ugh ... I had the scariest nightmare last night. I hardly ever have nightmares, fortunately, and I think I had this one because I'm sick. I know there is a lot of it that I don't remember, but ... ok, there is a huge, scary, dark castle surrounded by a couple of haunted looking, broken down stone buildings. Pretty small; some of them are just the outer walls with no ceiling. One that I stayed in was just that, with a stone bed and a fireplace. VERY creepy and scary. Well I guess I had a mission or something to kill or get something from this evil queen or witch ... all I remember was that she cut off my right arm just above my elbow, and I was screaming, blood curdling screams. Then all of the people in the castle were taunting me and then she cut off the rest of my limbs; my left arm above the elbow, and my legs just above the knees, so I was struggling on the floor without any limbs. Then for some reason, someone sewed my limbs back on into place, so I had these scars all over where I had been dismembered, and I showed them to the people in the castles ... it was so disgusting; I'll never get that burned image out of my head of my limbs being gone, and the scars where they were sewn back on.

But um, yeah, my head is pounding and I'm coughing and sneezing like crazy .. and I have to work at 11 am tomorrow :cry: Hopefully I'll feel better ... I don't really have a choice. I'm gonna try to get a lot of sleep and get up around 9 am so I have time to eat and shower and be awake for a bit before I try to go in. I'm really not looking forward to this :(

Dangit ... I lost the ear care stuff for my new ear piercing. Mike told me to use neosporin since it's antibacterial, so I am ... but it just doesn't feel right ...

Well, I'm gonna go call Mike and then get some sleep. Ciao! :idea:

I couldn't stay awake to finish watching "Forrest Gump" the other night because I was so tired but I'm finishing it now and I always just cry at the end when Forrest is talking to Jenny at her grave ... and talking about their son ... I'm such a big crybaby! I never used to cry at movies like this!!! :cry:

I felt like total crap last night after I got out of work. Figures. Probably got it from some snot nosed kid at work :? I had the most restless sleep I've ever had last night; I kept dreaming I was ringing customers, but I was partially awake because I was in bed feeling sick ... it was really weird. I woke up at least once an hour. I slept on and off till about 2 pm, and Mike picked me up at about 5 ... I was really close to telling him I felt too crappy, but we went and got some Italian Ice from the grocery store and I took a Motrin and felt better after a short nap :) He was so sweet to me tonight, rubbing my legs and my back ... he got in the mood while rubbing my legs, but I was too tired at the time .. made up for it before I left though, hehe :lol:

So tomorrow I hope I feel better. Luckily I had today and tomorrow off, otherwise I would have to call off. I get so tired and worn out, and my head is just full of phlegm. Boo! I hate being sick. But I'm gonna go to bed now because I still feel pretty crummy. Night. :idea:

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often. You tend to take more than give in relationships. You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time. You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change. You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

I wouldn't say I fall in love OFTEN .. I do tend to fall in love easily I suppose ... the thing about being very attached is true though :) ... I hope I don't take more ...

You Should Learn Japanese

You're cutting edge, and you are ready to delve into wacky Japanese culture. From Engrish to eating contests, you're born to be a crazy gaijin. Saiko!

Hehe, I think I'll stick with trying to learn French again. Japanese would be cool but I wouldn't have too much use for it. Plus I already know a lot of French.

Your IQ Is 125

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional Your General Knowledge is Exceptional

LOL, I always did suck at that logic stuff :roll:

Also bought this CD the other day ... this is my new theme song ...

[b]"Bitch" by Meredith Brooks[/b]
I hate the world today
Your so good to me, I know
But I can’t change
Tried to tell you but you looked at me like maybe I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved to see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m you dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m you dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

Just when you think you got me figured out
The season’s already changin’
I think it’s cool you do whatcha do
And don’t try to save me

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m you dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

I’m a bitch
I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When you’re hurt
When you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb
I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

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Blah ... I was feeling sick to my stomach and having cramps last night, but I didn't think I was actually gonna wake up sick, too ... not only that, but it's not even the kind of sickness that I felt last night; I woke up and it hurts to swallow and my nose is slightly runny. Man!!! It even hurts to talk ... I guess I'll buy some throat stuff at work tonight but I'm dying until then ... my stepdad gave me some pudding to eat out of his work lunch, lol ...

I can't believe that today is September 11, 2005, four years after the tragedy. My thoughts and prayers go out to the victims familes and friends. I'm sure everyone remembers what they were doing that day. I can't believe it was 4 years ago - me and my friend Dave were sitting in web design class 3rd period, and an announcement comes on about it ... so we try to go to cnn.com or sites like that, and they're too busy ... so in 4th period the room has a TV and we watch the second tower fall. My first boyfriend, Nick, was in that class and his stepdad worked in Manhattan, I think, so he was kind of worried about him. It was right before we got together so I really can't believe it's been 4 years already. We don't talk anymore I guess, lifestyle differences and other shit, but I really can't believe it's been that long.

I hope I don't get bitched at at work tonight. I wasn't feeling too great yesterday, plus we had that surprise engagement party for Brian and Lisa, so I called in sick. I wouldn't have been able to do any good anyway; being a cashier in training on a busy Saturday night. And now I feel like this, all sore-throaty ... blah :'(

Me and Mike even talked about our house and when we get married :lol: He wants a silver wedding band and I told him he doesn't have to waste money on two expensive rings; it's kind of silly to buy a really pricey engagement ring and then the actual wedding band. So I told him to splurge on the latter :roll:

He stayed over my house Friday night because I had my driving test on Saturday. My room was so messy ... he's like, "Am I gonna have to be the housekeeper?" I told him of course not; I just don't give a rat's ass how my room looks :roll:

And my driving test ... well, I passed the maneuverability, but I did fail the driving. I'm not surprised at all ... I was super nervous and the woman was a bitch! UGH, for example, I was switching to the left hand lane to turn. She said "Now, check for traffic before you get over ... " so I looked in all my mirrors. They are positioned so I can see EVERYTHING, I didn't need to physically turn around. So I get over and she says sarcastically, "Or don't..." in this bitch tone. I tried telling her I did look, but what good would getting upset do? So now I have the first part out of the way and I'll take the driving again next week, no biggie, I guess. I had that woman the other two times I failed the manueverability and I hate her! Grrr! I can comes to terms with the fact that I'm not the best driver in the world, but man ... adding a bitch to the test does not help my performance.

I'm trying to find some Hello Kitty stuff for my car. I found some pretty cheap deals on eBay for seat covers and steering wheel covers, but nothing that really caught my eye ... and I don't want my car to look really gaudy or anything .... I dunno.

Well I can't think of much else to talk about, so later gators. :idea:

Bleh, I am feeling really sick to my stomach ... so I decided to watch "Forrest Gump" because it makes me smile :)

Mike just dropped me off a little bit ago and we had a bit of an argument ... it wasn't about anything serious, but I wanted to stay and talk about it but it was getting late and he couldn't stay over because he has a lot to do tomorrow :(

We spent the past few days together. Tonight we went to an engagement party for his friends Brian and Lisa ... that didn't go so well, lol ... I don't know them really well but umm ... they've been together like 6+ years or something and Brian made out this big surprise party for her 'birthday' since it was her birthday earlier this week. Well, we surprised her and everything, then about an hour after the initial surprise, he brought out a cake that had the engagement ring on top :) He was so nervous beforehand ... and then when he brought it out he asked "Will you marry me?" and we were at an angle so we couldn't see her face, but she didn't sound excited or anything ... it was just an unemotional reaction :[ And the party was totally dull unfortunately, at least for me ... I only knew Mike, Jerome, and a new friend named Dave ... plus Mike's weird schizo ex girlfriend was there and I smiled and everything at her but she didn't even look at Mike, let alone me. So that was kind of awkward. But I hope Brian is okay ... I'd be devastated if I got that kind of reaction.

I got my ears pierced a second time the other day after work; pretty cool 8) I decided instead of getting a tattoo I'd rather get a piercing on the top of my ear; I'm not even sure about that though. But I would like to wear some little hoops in my ears.

Anyhoo, I'm gonna go lay down because I still feel pretty blah. Night :idea:

Yes, I know this is the corniest, crappiest poem written, ever. I wrote it in like 10 minutes on notepad. But I wanted to post it anyway because at this time I'm slightly delirious! But it's from the heart, and that's what matters, right .... RIGHT? :lol:

[b]For My Potato[/b]
Forgetting all that I once had once been taught
I prepared for a battle that would never be fought
In my heart, my mind, I expected to suffer
But again you have shown me there is another

A seperate way to live, a different way to be
Rather than spending my days wrapped in misery
I now am thankful for the fact that I have you to prove
That life is for living and there is nothing to lose

Only one reason explains why these changes occured
Sums up my feelings in one short simple word
Is it so hard to guess? I hope that you know it
Because sometimes it feels like I dont really show it

I find it hardest to write when I am feeling the best
Thats probably why this poem sucks more than the rest
But I hope it will strengthen what I have so much of ...
For you, my potato, my only, my one true [b]love[/b] :)

(P.S. He's a potato because he's Irish ... sweet potato ... hot potato ... hehe)

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I am really enjoying working at Wal-Mart. I worked only 11 - 4 today, but it was pretty hectic. Since it's technically only my 3rd day (I still can't believe I got the training programs, CBLs, done in less than two days), I think I'm doing pretty well. I got to ring on a drawer by myself for a while. I also met a really nice girl who is also a cashier and just a little older than me who helped me out for a while. Hopefully we can be friends :)

Turns out Mike is getting a job there as well. While of course I'm happy for him on one hand, part of me can't help feel weird because we'll work at the same place and probably never see each other. I just have a bad feeling about it. And ... 'other' people work there too so that sucks. Figures.

Me and Lee have sorted everything out though :) So I'm glad about that. Serious miscommunication problems ... but it's good that we don't work together anymore. She takes her job really seriously and there's nothing wrong with that, so hopefully she'll get this managers position that she's pulling for. More or less, hopefully the district manager will see that she really deserves it.

Tomorrow me and Mike are gonna go driving and maybe see a movie or something. I feel like going on a "date" ... we have to go to Wooster tomorrow so there's some decent stuff to do there. I have my driving test there Saturday morning so I wanna drive around town to get accustomed to it. I'm so glad my car is little!

Speaking of my car, I realized today how much I love that thing. Today it decided not to start for a few minutes but then it ran alright. My stepdad mentioned today now that I have a good paying job, that it would make a nice trade in car. I'm sure I'd get a great deal considering I paid so little for it, but I dunno ... it has its quirks but it generally drives fine. I found a picture online of a car that is the same model and year, but mine is like a burgundy color. Maybe tomorrow Mike can take a picture of mine.



I want to do something to my car to make it unique but I don't want to spend a lot of $$$. I need to get a steering wheel cover because that thing is ice in the winter, so maybe a matching that and some seat covers. Nothing gaudy ... and something that matches the burgundy interior ... ::ponders:: I'll have to browse the automotive section at Wal-Mart.

Alright, well my head's killin' me and I gotta work an early shift tomorrow too. Ciao! :idea:

That's right, I'm gonna talk about makeup :) I was pleasantly surprised the other day at ... yes, Wal-Mart to see the prices on the Mary Kate and Ashley line of cosmetics. I was like ... argh I hate them, but I'm low on money and need a variety of lip glosses in one thing ... so they had this square of four shades for less than $3 and they are really good! That, with a more liquidy lip gloss roller on top made it stay on almost all night at work with no re-application. But the only reason I resorted to that in the first place is because I can no longer find my very favorite brand of lipstick, Jane in the color 'Punch Bowl.' :(

When it comes to mascara, I need something that makes my lashes stand out, because they aren't very full. So I use Maybelline Illegal Lengths, and it's great. It's not the best on the clumpiness factor, but I think I'm just bad at applying it. It's well priced; I mean I don't shop anywhere but CVS/Wal-Mart, but I think it was like $6.

On eyeshadow I like Maybelline's Color Delights circle of cream shadows. I have two varities, one that I can't find that has some light blue, purple, pink, and a white, and the one I use now that has brown, green, purple and blue. The only thing that sucks is that they clump up in that area where you eyelid is folded over, but you can kind of remedy that with some neutral powder shadow on top, at least it works for me. I also use Maybelline's ExpertWear powder shadow in some purple varities when I want to cover up the really visible veins in the eyelids.

And I tend to like the really cheap eyeliner, either N.Y.C., Wet N Wild, or L.A. Colors. Right now I'm using the latter. I suck with liquid liners so I use the regular pencil. I really need to resharpen it however ... I keep scratching my eye with it :roll:

I don't use any foundation or powder; not that I have clear skin, but it usually makes me break out worse than usual and I suck at applying it, anyway. I just don't have the time to put on all that make up. I think you really have to be a pro at applying it for it to look good, and admittedly most girls aren't :(

So here's a rundown of my favorites (all the pictures are what I have):


[b]Eyeshadow:[/b] Maybelline's Color Delights "Draped in Velvet"; Maybelline's ExpertWear "Velvet Crush"


[b]Eyeliner:[/b] N.Y.C. pencil in Black


[b]Mascara:[/b] Maybelline's Illegal Lengths in Black


[b]Lipstick:[/b] Jane's 'Punch Bowl' (couldn't find a single pic; mine is in the middle)

(I couldn't find pics of either of these, anywhere! :evil:)
[b]Lip Gloss:[/b] Mary-Kate and Ashley's Total Lips Lip Gloss Collection; BonBons Lava Lips

What are your favorites, girls (and guys if they know)?

Goodnight!!

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Yep ... I worked from 6 - 11 tonight at Wally Mart. It wasn't really super busy ... from 6 - 7 I worked on and finished the computer training programs in the back room. Then I hung out with a cashier girl who was really nice but was having bad allergies and was kind of irritable because of that until 7:30 ... it was so dumb, I had just sat down at a computer for an hour, and was only standing for a half hour, when the supervisor comes over and says "Why don't you go take your break now?" So I did, then I hung out at that register till 9:30. It was kind fun, I rang for about 45 minutes but it got kind of overwhelming since it was busy and my first time. Then I had the tedious task of taking a cart full of random items that people didn't buy and restocking them - I never did get them all put away! It sucked. But it was a pretty good day compared to yesterday; the only thing I'm worrie about running register is bagging things appropriately and knowing the right codes for veggies & other grocery stuff.

And besides wigging out on Mike over the phone about how I'm gonna fail my driving test (which I am) it was an alright day. He's gonna get some "Mystery Science Theatre 3000" on DVD for us to watch; I liked it back in the day and totally love it now.

And I'm also getting back into my computer mania fueled initially by the movie "Pirates of the Silicon Valley" which I love ... and Goins and JustinB talking about computers and technology and stuff ... I'm in the market for a new computer, and I'd like a Mac, but they're so expensive and the specs aren't that great on the mid-priced ones. So I'll probably just end up getting a regular PC from the newspaper or eBay, lol. Oh well, I don't have the money for such high end tastes :roll:

Well I gotta work tomorrow from 11 am - 4 pm. See ya! :idea:


Noah Wyle as Steve Jobs/Anthony Michael Hall as Bill Gates in ...
[b]Pirates of the Silicon Valley[/b]
Watch it and be enlightened :)

By the way, as I was editing a previous post, I forgot to re-insert the fact that I got the info about Zelda from JustinB, who has a really cool blog about all sorts of different things related to technology, computers, and video games. You gotsta check him out 8)

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Here are my favorite excerpts so far from "Don't Sweat the Small Stuff ... And It's All Small Stuff" by Richard Carlson, Ph.D.

[b]#27. Imagine the people in your life as tiny infants and one-hundred year old adults.[/b]

I learned this technique almost twenty years ago. It has proven to be extremely successful for releasing feelings of irritation towards other people.

Think of someone who truly irritates you, who makes you feel angry. Now, close your eyes and try to imagine them as a tiny infant. See their tiny features and innocent little eyes. Know that babies can't help but make mistakes and each of us, at one time, was a little infant. Now, roll forward the clock one hundred years. See the same person as a very old person who is about to die. Look at their worn-out eyes and their soft smile, which suggests a bit of wisdom and the admission of mistakes made. Know that each of us will one day be a hundred years old, alive or dead, before too many decades go by.

You can play with this technique and alter it many ways. It almost always provides the user with some needed perspective and compassion. If our goal is to become more peaceful and loving, we certainly don't want to harbor negativity towards others.

[i]I love that one because it really allows you to look at other people as real, identify with them more, instead of thinking of other people as inferior - we really are the same, on the inside.[/i]

[b]#11. Imagine that everyone is enlightened except you.[/b]

This strategy gives you a chance to practice something that is probably completely unacceptable to you. However, if you give it a try, you might find that it's one of the most helpful exercises in self-improvement.

As the title suggests, the idea is to imagine that everyone you know and everyone you meet is perfectly enlightened. That is, everyone except you! The people you meet are all here to teach you something. Perhaps the obnoxious driver or disrespectful teenager is here to teach you about patience, the punk rocker might be here to teach you to be less judgmental.

Your job is to try to determine what the people in your life are trying to teach you. You'll find that if you do this, you'll be far less annoyed, bothered and frustrated by the actions and imperfections of other people. You can actually get yourself in the habit of approaching life in this manner and, if you do, you'll be glad you did. Often, once you discover what someone is trying to teach you, it's easy to let go of your frustration. For example, suppose you're in the post office and the postal clerk appears to be intentionally moving slowly. Rather than feeling frustrated, ask yourself the question, "What is he trying to teach me?" Maybe you need to learn about compassion--how hard it would be to have a job that you don't like. Or perhaps you could learna little more about being patient. Standing in line is an excellent opportunity to break your habit of feeling impatient.

You may be surprised at how fun and easy this is. All you're really doing is changing your perception from "Why are they doing this?" to "What are they trying to teach me?" Take a look around today at all the enlightened people.

[i]I'm really going to start doing that, it's such a wonderful technique just to think about. Instead of stressing out ... just be calm and go with the flow.[/i]

[b]12. Let others be "right" most of the time.[/b]

One of the most important questions you can ever ask yourself is, "Do I want to be 'right'--or do I want to be happy?" Many times, the tow are mutually exclusive!
Being right, defending our positions, takes an enormous amount of mental energy and often alienates us from the people in our lives. Needing to be right--or needing someone else to be wrong--encourages others to become defensive, and puts pressure on us to keep defending. Yet, many of us (me too, at times) spend a great deal of time and energy attempting to prove (or point out) that we are right--and/or others are wrong. Many people, consciously or unconsciously, believe that it's somehow their job to show others how their positions, statements, and points of view are incorrect, and that in doing so, the person they are correcting is going to somehow appreciate it, or at least learn something. Wrong!

Think about it. Have you ever been corrected by someone and said to the person who was trying to be right, "Thank you so much for showing me that I'm wrong and you're right. Now I see it. Boy, you're great!" Or, has anyone you know ever thanked you (or even agreed with you) when you corrected them, or made yourself "right" at their expense? Of course not. The truth is, all of us hate to be corrected. We all want our positions to be respected and understood by others. Being listened to and heard is one of the greatest desires of the human heart. And those who learn to listen are the most loved and respected.

Those who are in the habit of correcting others are often resented and avoided. It's not that it's never appropriate to be right--sometimes you genuinely need to be or want to be. Perhaps there are certain philosophical positions that you don't want to budge on such as when you hear a racist comment. Here, it's important to speak your mind. Usually, however, it's just your ego creeping in and ruining an otherwise peaceful encounter--a habit of wanting or needing to be right.

A wonderful, heartfelt strategy for becoming more peaceful and loving is to practice allowing other the joy of being right--give them the glory. Stop correcting. As hard as it may be to change this habit, it's worth any effort and practice it takes. When someone says, "I really feel it's important to..." rather than jumping in and saying, "No, it's more important to..." or any of the hundreds of other forms of conversational editing, simply let it go and allow their statement to stand. The people in your life will become less defensive and more loving. They will appreciate you more than you could ever have dreamed possible, even if they don't exactly know why. You'll discover the joy of participating in and witnessing other people's happiness, which is far more rewarding than a battle of egos. You don't have to sacrifice your deepest philosophical truths or most heartfelt opinions, but, starting today, let others be "right," most of the time!

[i]This one I have actually come to use over the past couple years and it's definitely made me a happier person. Not only do you feel good about letting someone else have their opinion, if the person is mean-spirited, you kind of take the steam out of them by saying "Okay, sure, you are right. I'm not going to argue."[/i]

I'll definitely be posting more of my favorite excerpts as I get further in the book. I highly recommend it to anyone searching for inner peace!

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So today was my first day at Wal-Mart. And wow, why does all the shitty stuff happen to me when it comes to jobs? First I get there and get a manager to clock in with me, because that's the procedure. My card won't go through the time clock. Long story short, when I went to orientation a week and a half ago, I told them I couldn't come in till today because of my two week notice at the video store. So she just marked out the days she had me scheduled to work and told me to come in today - well, she must've forgotten, because they expected me to be there, and since I wasn't, they assumed I quit and terminated me! Great communication. But we ended up getting everything straightened out in the end, and it was a pretty good day. I worked on the computer training a lot; probably have that done by tomorrow or the next day. Mike is considering applying for a job there especially because they're really short on cashiers.

But in other news, I've got my driving test on Saturday and I'm sure I'll fail. I just suck at maneuverability, so bad. I'm really worried because I NEED to get it, and I suck for not having it, but I just get so nervous during the test.

And here's an interesting story based on a news transcript with Nintendo's Shigeru Miyamoto. I'm not sure to take it as there won't be any more Zelda period, or if the next Zelda (after Twilight Princess) will be so different ... just read it :wink: http://www.eurogamer.net/arti...

Got these results from blogthings!

Your Brain's Pattern

You have a dreamy mind, full of fancy and fantasy. You have the ability to stay forever entertained with your thoughts. People may say you're hard to read, but that's because you're so internally focused. But when you do share what you're thinking, people are impressed with your imagination.

I tend to think I am pretty hard to read; at least Mike says he can 'read' just about anyone ... but me 8)

What Your Underwear Says About You

Admit it, you've dreamed of being a underwear model. You're sexy, in that pinup girl, tease sort of way.

Erm .. okay!! :shock:

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I hate when you can't decide what to do. I have so many things to think about and I don't even know where to begin ... so I end up stuck in the same place.

I'm sick of people who take advantage of me simply because I'm an easygoing, naive, friendly person. I hate that I don't know myself; I am extremely antisocial and hate people, yet I assume the best of most people.

Yesterday Mike and I were driving in my car and I noticed my gas tank was hardly 1/4 full. I had put a half a tank in it the day before and drove it straight home. The only solution is that my mom drove it somewhere without asking. And then when I came home this evening, my room was skewed and somehow, my computer monitor was unplugged. What the hell? If there's something I hate more than anything, it's snooping, and just assuming you can take something without asking that belongs to someone else. I'll let my family/friends borrow just about anything, but I can't STAND how no one asks! And my mom takes my clothes all the time; and not to be mean but she's a size larger than I am and stretches everything out, and usually manages to spill something on it. I hate it!

And I think that certain people are my friends, yet all anyone does is talk about me behind my back. The only people who don't are a couple friends that I knew from high school that I talk to online. I guess that's why I'm glad I don't work at the video store; it was such a stressful environment because everyone just backstabs everyone there. I wish I could be a recluse. And I just wish that my friends would really be FRIENDS, instead of always bragging about this and that, and having huge egos; not that I don't care what happens in anyones life or what they feel, but gosh, I can't stand egotistical people. I can't stand how fake everyone is. I would get degraded at that job because I wouldn't bust my ass for a $5.55/hr job where no one cared about the employees or the customers. I'm not gonna nag a customer to spend an extra $4 on a movie when most people living there are just trying to make ends meet, like me. Mike made a joke today about all the money that's owed me ... my mom still owes me $140, my stepdad has owed me new tires for me car since LAST summer when his dumbass kid dented my passenger door with the lawnmower ... I'm just tired of people being uppity assholes. Maybe I'm just friends with the wrong people; or I shouldn't be friends with anyone. I feel like no matter how good I treat someone, I still get disrespected and walked all over. And people think I don't know what they say or do behind my back, or when they get buddy-buddy with people I hate, but I do. Somehow I always run across that stuff. That's what inspired this post, I guess.

I found out today my friend's grandfather died. I can't imagine losing a relative. My grandpa passed away when I was 4, but I don't remember any of it. My grandma makes me worried because her health isn't the greatest, but I don't want to think about her passing.

I had so much sugar this evening ... the sun sets so early anymore.

I find it kind of funny
And I find it kind of sad
The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had.

(Who knows what thats from?)

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Wow. Today Mike bought "Katamari Damacy" for me today for the PS2, and it is probably one of the most addictive games I've ever played. It's so ... weird! It's got weird music, odd graphics, crazy characters, and the best part about it is that you can roll people into a big giant ball. And here is a random image saying new DS games that are supposed to be coming out soon, including Katamari!!!!!! Whoo!!



Also a Xenosaga; I'm sure Mike'll be pleased about that :)

All in all I had a great weekend; got to stay over Mike's house Friday - today. And I must admit, I've really discovered I have a flair for cooking. I'm not saying I'm great at it, but all the dishes I've cooked have turned out really good, which is surprising considering I thought I would hate cooking. I made us spiced potatoes and garlic chicken, and the chicken turned out great. Mike liked the potatoes more than I did, but that's because I made em pretty hot, hehe. It was so great though, Saturday night I cooked while he went out and cleaned his dog kennels, and I had a meal prepared for us by the time he got back in. It was great.

We also went to the mall and I got two great things! The anime "Fruits Basket" is one of my favorites; you can see two characters on my side bar. Well, I don't really like Hot Topic as a store since it is so commercially punk/goth/whatever, but we looked in there anyway and they had "Fruits Basket" shirts!!!!!! I got one with the main girl, Tohru on it. And I got a bubble ring that has Keroppi on it ... Keroppi is my favorite Sanrio character and it depresses me that he's at Hot Topic ... but whatever :cry:

We also watched the movies "Shaun of the Dead" (already seen before, frigging hilarious) and "Equilibrium" which was a REALLY good movie. A beautiful blend of intelligence and action in a film. GREAT action scenes, actually :)

Well, I start at Wal-Mart tomorrow night. I'm pretty nervous but I'm sure it'll turn out fine. ::jitters::

Anyhoo ... not a whole lot else to say; I'm just so sad this weekend went by so quickly. Mike goes back to school tomorrow and I gotta work ... blah! Gotta make the $$ though. Ciao! :idea:

So today was my last day at the video store. Nothing eventful happened. Figures, the new girl we have working there I just met tonight is really nice, and we got along really well. Oh well :P

But umm ... other than the fact that my chihuahua Pip in "Nintendogs" has finally made it to Master Class in the Obedience Trials ... not a whole lot to report :roll:

One of my links, Gaia Online, is a really cool site. I haven't been on much in the past like .... year but I went on tonight and the site still rocks; really good message boards, you get to create a character and dress them up and everything ... it's fun for girls especially because you basically get to play Barbie with your avatar :)

Well, tomorrow I'm cooking *something* for Mike and me. Chicken, some kind of potato, something else, and a dessert ... LOL I don't have the specifics yet ... I guess I should look up some recipes now, eh? So I shall 8)

As for my previous post, it's a testament to how susceptible I am to conspiracy theories. Even though it was something I was really into a few years ago, I'm really second guessing myself on that. I can admit when I'm wrong. Which is good because it happens a lot!

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