I have to get up in about 6 hours ... and yet I keep playing Suikoden II ... I love it :shock:

I'm at this really cool part right now where I recruited the main character you played as in the first game :D You could only do that if you had a save and got the best ending from Suikoden I. Kinda cool 8)

Not much happened today. I go for orientation tomorrow at Grinder's, the restaurant I applied to, so we'll see how that goes. I'm hired, but I've never done waitressing so this is gonna be a totally new experience. I'm excited though.

Me and Mike went to Taco Bell at a little after midnight tonight and the tacos must've been bad or something ... he was starving and only ate one soft taco before he felt sick, and I ate maybe half of one of my tacos. I still feel somewhat queasy, an hour and a half later.

This morning I got up at 7:30 am and went with my mom up to my grandma's, an hour and some minutes away. Was a nice trip. I love my grandma, hehe :) She used to be an alcoholic, and a lot of people thought it was funny ... even I used to joke about it ... but she needed some serious help and she hasn't had a drink as far as I know of since March of 2004. It's great :) She's had surgeries and stuff for glaucoma and her kidneys but she's bearing with it. I think out of all my family members, even though my grandma is conservative politically, we get along the best.

So anyhoo I'm gonna wrap up things here with Suikoden and hit the hay. Night! :idea:

Was a pretty decent weekend. Oh, me and Mike got in a really big argument Saturday afternoon. Lots of crying, yelling. But we resolved it and we're back to normal. It was because I got upset over nothing (as usual) and was bitchy ... and I would kind of like him to be nice to me and all that, but I shouldn't expect him to when I'm bitchy over nothing ... but I still [i]want[/i] him to, you know. So anyhoo afterwards we went to Wal-Mart and I/we made some more yummy dinner :) I hate getting in fights like we did; I've just been feeling SO grouchy lately. I dunno why. But I'm so lucky he understands and forgives me ... I feel like he shouldn't, but I'm so happy he does.

So anyhoo I stayed over Saturday night ... went to work tonight ... dressed up as a pirate! I didn't get a picture (sadness) but I might tomorrow because I gotta dress up again. Who knows :roll: But I was SO MAD. I worked from 3 - 10, and a girl worked with me from 7 - 10. She did NOTHING. She put away maybe an armload of movies (out of 5) and spent about an hour outside on cigarette breaks with her friend and some guy she was flirting with. But even when she wasn't smoking, she was inside talking to that guy the whole time! Example; I did about $430+ on my drawer, and she did about $42. Yeah. Bitch.

So now I'm watching "Lords of Dogtown." I don't skate myself (I tried and almost broke my ankle) but I do like watching people skate. I wish I could skate but I know I'd break every bone in my body. I liked it the whole like, week I could skate until I tripped over a rock, heard my ankle crack (I sprained it bad) and threw up. Haha! It was something to remember.

So ... gotta get up at about 7 am to go to my grandma's up near Cleveland with my mom. Night! :idea:

Edit: I'm to about the end of "Lords of Dogtown" and I thought it was awesome. Not only is it about the cool skating, it's about the dynamic of three friends who took different paths to fame and how they deal with it. What I thought was hilarious, they gave Tony Hawk a cameo as an astronaut posing with Stacy Peralta - he says "Hey, can I try that (skateboard)?" He gives Tony the astronaut the skateboard and he falls off it saying it's harder than it looks. Made me laugh. Minus the partying, it's a good movie.

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First of all ... I'm playing Suikoden II and I got up to a woman I want to recruit in my party ... and she says "Oh, Master Airyx, it's been a long time ... hehe ... this is my [i]real[/i] profession." I think she was trying to say she was a prostitute or something!

I've been some moody and grouchy today. Work was alright. Just was work. I watched "Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants" and it was really good! I cried at like five different parts. I'm usually not one for chick flicks but I really identified with some of the stuff the girls went through ... as any girl would. I recommend that movie :)

But I've had a headache all day, between my teeth hurting ... I have an underbite, which means that my bottom teeth stick out above my top teeth ... but I also have teeth that have normal alignment, so my teeth are stuck in their position ... hard to explain, but it gives me headaches, especially when I'm stressed. And my stepdad has been smoking around me today and the smoke is giving me a headache.

Mike's liking Wal-Mart more .. figures they changed the way they train people ... I started crying when he told me about that because if it had been that way when I worked there I probably would've stayed, but no ... and I was supposed to stay over his house tonight but his parents didn't end up leaving. I really needed some cuddling and looked forward to it all night until I got an e-mail from him ... this has just not been a good day. I'm going to bed :cry: :idea:

Isn't it weird when you just get this otherworldly feeling ... like it feels like a feeling you had a long time ago ... for no reason? Or just like ... ecstacy .. I just felt really good for like two seconds while I was listening to a song ... weird o_o

Anyhoo, today I am busy, yuck. I work from 4 - 10 ... but after I'm done with this I gotta drive 20 minutes to go pick up my um ... prescription. Yay -.- Another $20 I don't have ... oh well. It's worth it :D

Last night me and Mike talked about my self esteem issue, kind of. I really haven't been eating a lot these past few days, and I know that's not the healthy way to lose weight. But it feels kind of good when you can make yourself not eat. I usually have really low willpower about that. So anyhoo, I decided I'm gonna eat slightly kind of like I normally do, fast food only once a week for now until I can cut it down more - it's just so ingrained into my diet that it's hard to not eat it. Also, for at least a half hour during the day I'll do stretches, sit ups, push ups, etc. I'll do those tonight when I get home while on the phone with Mike probably. My usual mindset is that if I can't go all out, I don't do it all. So even while this isn't a huge plan and won't result in a ton of weight loss right away, it's the right track. We get fast food a lot when we're hanging out together, so maybe I can get their salads, or stick to chicken. I dunno. I just know that no matter how much Mike denies it, we'd both be happier if I was just a little skinnier. Because I would be more confident in myself, and less bleh about my body ... and more willing to show it off (with him, duh) ... so yeah :)

Alright, well I guess I better go. Bleh ... I hit the 1,000 mile mark since I got my license last month, ha! It was somewhere between 9/24 and 9/27 that I got it ... I'm at 1,012. Whoopee :roll:

Ciao! :idea:

Yep ... me and my mom went out for breakfast this morning and got back around 10 am ... and I went back to bed :roll: I've just been tired all day :(

I went over Mike's at 5 pm and we just hung out. Drove out to Wadsworth and picked up a preplayed copy of "Lost in Blue" for DS ... I'm getting the vibe that Mike's not loving it. It uses a similar engine from both "Urbz" and "Trace Memory" ... oh well. It was cheaper since it was preplayed.

Came back to his house ... I played Suikoden II for entirely too long ... then we just laid around and watched an old Snick video from back in the day. "Clarissa Explains It All" was great ... a girl I went to elementary/middle school with is Melissa Joan Hart's second cousin. If her mom didn't babysit me and shown me a picture I wouldn't have believed her, heh. Also an episode of classic "Ren & Stimpy" ... the cartoon that started it all ... a shitty episode of "Are You Afraid of the Dark?" even though that was like my favorite show ... my favorite was the pinball wizard episode ... and then "Roundhouse", which we fell asleep to, lol. Like I said .. I was tired. And now it's [i]that[/i] time and I was REALLY moody today. Not necessarily grumpy, just unnaturally sad and gloomy. I cried a couple times ... I was kinda nasty to my mom when I got home a little while ago ... I hate it but I just get mean, especially at [i]this[/i] time. ::sigh:: Oh well. Mike is really understanding about it. He just lets me lay down for a while and pets me or just kinda lets me chill.

Since we're gonna have the house to ourselves this weekend I'm gonna cook for him then, so I didn't today. Groceries are expensive! Luckily I have most of the spices I'll need now, and just have to buy the chicken, potatoes, etc. Can't go wrong with that combo for Mike. He's still not liking Wal-Mart but it's getting a tad better ... I still hate it that his ex works there ... I know he'd never want to get back with her (she parties, is psycho, etc) but I think she's the type that would try to flirt with him just because she likes to be the center of attention. I liked talking to her when we worked together, but I know the type of girl she is. I hate girls who just have to be the center of attention, which is 75% of the girls I know. That's why I don't have many girl friends! Ha.

Alright, well I'm tired so I'm gonna hit the hay. Night! :idea:

P.S. Is it just me or does every other 'post key' that appears have either a capital "i" or a lowercase "L" and I can't tell the difference! Grr!

Yeah ... since I fell asleep so early last night (before 10 pm ... unheard of for me!) I was jarred awake somehow this morning at like 6:17 am and rememebered that I didn't call Mike that night. Had an adrenaline rush and couldn't get back to sleep. Oh well :[

Worked from 9 - 2:30-ish ... came home ... went up to my old work this evening and talked to Lee for a while, then started feeling slightly lightheaded and had to grab a bite to eat ... I was good and got a salad :)

Last night I went to Payless and bought a pair of those pointy toed boots. I used to think they were really stupid but I think they look kinda cute, especially with a pair of pants I got the other day. I gave in to fashion ...

But anyhoo my day wasn't super eventful. I was at the Post Office sending out my application for Akron/Wayne and who shows up but Mike :lol: I get nervous when we run into each other randomly. Not bad nervous, more like fluttery-stomach nervous. Hehe :)

Well there's not really a whole lot to talk about tonight. Ciao! :idea:

Ugh ... Sunday night I got about 3 hours of sleep and woke up at 9 am to get my tires replaced. If it hadn't been such an important thing, I would've said "screw it" and gone back to sleep!

So now I have some pretty decent tires on my car. Not the greatest in the world, but out of the two varities they had at the tire place for my car, they were the best. So me and my mom went and had breakfast while they put them on. After that I went up to Wal-Mart and got an oil change. My car runs SO smooth now, it's like a totally different vehicle. It's great!

So after that I went over Mike's house and hung around with his mom for about an hour until Mike got home from school ... sad because he had to leave for work later, but we just chilled out ... he was so worn out :( I hope he had a good night at work last night. I was super tired and set my alarm to wake me up to call him when he got home but I must've fallen right back asleep. I'm gonna call him this morning while he's on his way to school ... I hate forgetting to call! :(

So anyhoo that was yesterday. I must've saved in a weird spot in Suikoden II because I can't figure out who to talk to to progress the storyline. I'll have to wait till tomorrow so Mike can help me out.

Bleh ... I have to leave for work in about an hour, hour and a half ... least it's only till 2 today. Oh, I also made an appt for an interview at a restaurant but I realized I have to work at that time. Figures! But the manager there was this guy I went to school with and I didn't know if he recognized me, so I'm like "Hey, didn't we go to school together?" And SO condescendingly, he's like "Yes, I remember you Heidi, it's been a long time." He just came off as so arrogant. It's like, whoopdeedoo, you're the manager (on duty) of this piddly place. So I'm not really looking forward to the interview anyway.

I'm also kind of ticked because I'm not sure what's gonna be going on with school. I [i]might[/i] go up to the local college today (didn't yesterday because I tried calling but couldn't get a hold of the right person) and discuss when I should enroll. I can either enroll in the spring, take my ACT ($40) and pay the late registration fee ($100), or wait until summer and not do either of those $$ things. But it sucks because I don't want to wait that long again, and that's gonna be around the time Mike is moving out ... it just seems so silly of me to go back to school after all this time. Not that I don't want to, but ... ah it's just weird to explain. Especially for an Education degree, it's gonna take a long time. Oh well, I have to do it. I'll talk to Mike about it tonight probably.

Oh ... and I found out yesterday that his mom and stepdad are going away this weekend. FIGURES! They have gone away for the same weekend every month for the past three months ... and it's always [i]that[/i] weekend ... I mean ... we have tons of other stuff to do, but given the choice, why does it always have to be [i]that[/i] weekend? Oh well, I guess they might be going away the weekend after that too. So I shouldn't complain too much, but still :roll: I think maybe I'll cook for him this weekend too, like I have the other weekends we've had alone time. What to make though . He has to work a lot, but maybe I can stay at his house and cook or something. I love playing house! I told his mom and stepdad it'd been a year since Michael Moore trip .. and his stepdad's like ... "You were here last Christmas?!" And I'm like "Yeah :D" and his mom told him the stuff they had gotten for me, hehe ... it was funny. It was so fun talking to his mom, especially since she told me all sorts of cute stuff he did when he was little! Such a sweetheart!!!! T_T

She did however mention something that I thought kind of sucked. They host foster kids, which is what Mike wants to do. Well, they don't let you take offenders if you have (underage) children. We can do it for a few years, but of course I want to have at least a kid, and Mike does too ... eventually. I don't want to wait past age 26 to have a kid though. That's the age my mom had me, and plus, if I have the same reproductive crap going on that she does (endometriosis), I want to get that stuff taken care of ASAP.

Well I'm gonna get ready for work. Ciao! :idea:

Hehe, today is October 24th. A year ago today I went with Mike, his dad, and the foster kid staying at their house at the time to see Michael Moore at Kent State. It was pretty cool, going to an event like that. Even if I don't necessarily agree with all his views, it was really inspiring. There were celebrities there too ... LOL Rosanne was there! She was DRUNK or something, because it was before the elections ... remember John Kerry? Haha, well she called him "Jim Kerry" ... and we don't think she meant to! And the main guy from Rage Against the Machine was there too; it was neat. Afterwards we went to McDonalds ... it was funny because earlier that day I'd gone to a flea market with my mom and stepdad, and bought this funny little gift for him; it was beans in a box that were made up to look like samurais. It was more neat and artistic than goofy. He has it on his shelf thing, still :) I just shoved it at him right there in the middle of McDonald's .... we still joke about how nervous and goofy I seemed, and in front of his dad and all. But it was fun, I still remember pulling out of the parking lot how busy it was and some guy cussing out his dad. So weird to think that was a year ago, already. And in about 3 weeks it'll be our one year anniversary :)

Mike was really depressed tonight about a couple things so I'm gonna do some cookin' for him when we spend time together on Wednesday. I already know I'm making the potatoes he loves ... but what else? Hrmmm ... and tomorrow I'm gonna stop over and kinda hang out with his mom and stepdad while I pick up a movie I forgot over there. I should take something over there nice for them, while keeping in mind his stepdad's diet. What to do, what to do :)

Well, I gotta get up in 4 hours to take my car to the shop. Night! :idea:

I hated this morning. I had the worst dream ... I don't wanna talk about it because it makes me upset but I hate when dreams are SO real that you can't help but wake up and wonder what the hell is happening?

So me and my mom hung out today and got along ALL day - which is crazy! It was fun though. We went to the thrift store, grabbed some lunch together, went to Wal-Mart where I got some really nice makeup & health/beauty items, then over to Kohl's where I got a really nice pair of dress pants. Never know when you're gonna need those. Also went over to K-Mart ... then came home. It was a good time, we didn't argue once.

In good/bad news, turns out one of the tires on my car is so bad that the tread is completely worn off part of one ... luckily I let my mom drive today, because initially I wanted to but then remembered I hate driving with my mom. It could've burst. So we're going tomorrow and with the sudden amount of money my dad paid ($2,000) she's gonna pay for two tires and Rick is paying for two like he promised. I'm glad I'm at least seeing a little bit of that child support money. Anyhoo, I also don't have jury duty tomorrow which I'm kinda sad about :( Oh well, maybe I'll get another summons.

Mike is not liking Wal-Mart ... I hope it goes better for him than it did for me and my mom ... he's a lot more resilient in those situations though so I think it'll be okay ... for $8.05/hr, it oughta be okay, hehe :roll:

But anyhoo, I'm playing the crap outta Suikoden II. It's awesome! I'm a little over 8 hours in. So I'm gonna go work on that. Ciao! :idea:

Yeah! Here are those pictures we took the other day at Mike's. These are the only ones that turned out good and/or didn't have my mom in them, lol.


Aren't they so precious?!? The grey-ish one is the shy little boy and the more red one with the floppy ears is the spunky little girl.


Et moi. I don't look very good in the picture but look how tiny the puppy is!!!!


And here is a closeup of the previous picture of the ring that Mike got me! I couldn't sharpen it much more without it looking worse but it's so gorgeous :D

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Yep ... hehe and if I was working at the gas station I'd have to be there in a few hours ... bwahaha :evil:

Worked 9 am - about 2:30 today at the video store. Was only supposed to be there till 2 but one of the computers fuzzed out on us. But at least I got PAID for staying after! Someone returned library movies to us so I dropped them off at the library ... cashed my check ... grabbed a bite to eat ... and rented some movies :) When I stopped at the gas station (not the one I worked at) a woman that works there who knows my mom (not sure if she knows we're related, though) asked if I was still at Citgo, and I told her the whole tale. She said she's heard that the manager is a total bitch and overworks everyone. So I don't feel neglected in my woes!

Mike picked me up around 5:30 today since I thought my car was gonna be at the shop getting tires, but as I initially believed, that's not till next Friday. Poo. We didn't do a whole lot ... went to the thrift store and I got a really cute book I read in like 2nd grade ... "Ramona Quimby, Age 8" ... so cute! I remember it was a big deal when I got the book because if you got "stars" on the little poster in class every day of the week, you got to pick something out of the "prize box" ... most of it was candy or little trinkets ... then that book was in there, and I ended up reading the whole series. Look at this adorable cover!



What else ... watched another MST3K ... "Space Children" ... seen that one Goins? It wasn't great, but there was a short feature before the movie that was HILARIOUS. That's gotta be the best show ever made (well, of that length).

I'm PMSing this week ... :sweat: But tomorrow we're going to the Haunted Schoolhouse! My first time to a haunted house, Mike's been to just about every one in northeast Ohio. What I'm looking for now maybe for next weekend if there are any corn mazes/hedge mazes going on. Might be too late in the year but who knows.

Welll ... I'm gonna play more Suikoden II ... night! :idea:

And it figures ... I was dead tired while at Mike's house but now I'm really awake! :evil:

I left the house a little earlier than I needed to this morning in order to go pick up my paycheck from the gas station. It was a meh paycheck. Oh well. I stopped and got a lil breakfast from McDonalds (hadn't had a sausage biscuit in months .. guilty pleasure!) and got to the video store a little before 9 am. I talked to Lee for a long time on the phone ... she's doing really good at her manager training. I'm glad things are going well for her. As for being at this new video store, I feel like I can help make a difference since I've been with "the [b]C[/b]ompany" longer than any of the other employees. And honestly, the store really does look bad. The new manager is trying hard though, but she's got a lot on her plate. But we're moving to a new building in December so I can't really do a whole lot. Oh well.

Went to Mike's around 4:30 ... grabbed a bite to eat .... watched the new "Amityville Horror." Wow. Talk about taking liberties. I understand that the movie would've dragged if they followed the book to a T, but they just flat out MADE STUFF UP, and instead of "the house" and it's evil spirits antagonizing everyone, they made it out to be the lead man wanting to murder everyone. Totally not at all how the book went. They of course added sex appeal by including a "babysitter" that wasn't even present in the book, changing the ages and attitudes of the children, and practically deleting the 1/3 of the book by not including Father Mancuso's view of the tale. It's hard to describe if you haven't seen/read it, but the book was a hundred times better. They replaced an evil pig from the book, which was actually scary they way they talked about how it was friends with the little girl, with just another little girl who wasn't creepy at all. The movie just wasn't scary, period. I highly recommend the book though.

I started Suikoden II tonight :) I'm liking it already, I was feeling drowsy when playing though so I didn't get too far. Only like an hour in, but the story is awesome, the character art is great, and the music is good too. I like when they keep some of the same music/sound effects from game to game like the Suikoden series.

But I had a really good time today :) Tomorrow we're going up to Pet's Pajamas (an independently owned snobby pet store ... lol) to give Mike's FRIGGING ADORABLE chihuahuas to the lady there to sell. We got some pictures today, I should have em soon. I've also gotta figure out when my stepdad wants me to get my car to the tire place for new tires, yay! Also got a call from a restaurant I applied to, gonna have an interview there tomorrow if I can arrange that right after work at the video store (they're next door to each other). Gonna be another busy one tomorrow ... then I have jury duty next week ... I wonder how much they pay ... anyhoo, night! :idea:

I just got out of the shower ... and I wanted to post before I forget ... I just used the BEST frigging body wash EVER ... it's by Syrah, which I realized is a type of wine - wouldn't have known that if I didn't watch "Sideways" - and it's white grape extract. Holy crap. I've never been a fan of grape-y stuff but I don't think I've ever smelt so good!!! My cousin Gina who is a total nut about all things body wash, good-smelly things, gave me that because she didn't really like the grape. But if you're looking for a "luxurious" body wash, Syrah is the way to go ... it's based on WINE, I don't even wanna know how much it cost!

If you live in Ohio, please Vote Yes on Issues 2, 3, 4, and 5 next month in the elections. Ohio needs to straighten up it's act; if we can't get Taft out of office, we can do [i]something.[/i]

Well, gotta go to work in a few. Ciao! :idea:

Yep, that was today. After I posted earlier I found out some rather aggravating news about my FAFSA/SAR status; i.e. my eligibility for college grants - they're expecting my family to give WAY more than they actually will; in fact the only support I'm getting from them is I'm allowed to live in their house while I attend, and maybe the random couple dollars my mom will give me for a book here and there. That's it, period. And while I don't expect anyone to help me pay, it would be nice - but it's not happening. They just expect because my stepdad makes average money that he's helping. No, not in any way, at all. So I'm gonna talk to Wayne/Akron about it to see if they can factor that in. The site said the school can make adjustments to that kind of stuff, so I hope so. Or I'm not going to school.

Work wasn't too bad today. This really nice girl (well, she's 30) named Cathy gave me her phone number :) She's like the sweetest person ever. I dunno if we have a ton of similar interests but it would be really nice to keep in touch. I have to go pick up my paycheck there before I head to the video store in the morning ... work from 9 am - 4 pm, then me and Mike are gonna hang out. Today was our 11 month day :D I shouldn't have had to work ... oh well. I needed the money. And it wasn't a bad night; busy as always when running the drive-thru but oh well ... I am glad it's over with. I'm still feeling frostbitten from the coolers.

So anyhoo ... better get to bed, gotta be up in 6 hours. Night! :idea:

I thought I was tired last night ... well, I had a second wind ... and by 6:45 am this morning, I finished Suikoden! Hehehe ... man it was a really good game. and if Suikoden II is supposed to be way more awesome than the one I just finished, I'm really excited to play it. The ending of the game was really good ... I got all 108 characters (stars) ... yay :roll: ...

Bleh, I work 4 - 10 pm tonight. Hopefully I don't get bitched at while I'm there since ... it could happen. I don't really give a shit though; I really did like all the people who work there except for the manager ... and I'm sorry, but I don't feel the need to stay at a place where you end up working 20 minutes past your scheduled shift but they [i]make[/i] you clock out instead of paying you for that time (it obviously adds up after a while!) .... argh. I don't wanna get ticked off about it again.

So let's look at some cute pictures!!!


It's hard to believe Opal was this little! I think this was taken within the first few weeks we had her; so she could've only been about 6 - 8 weeks old. Soooo precious; my favorite picture of her!


Aren't they so cute?! If you look closely you can see Opal's paw sitting on top of Chi Chi's head!!!


Chi Chi cracks me up when she squints like that, right after she wakes up or when she's tired.

Later gators! :idea:

For some reason it popped into my head how weird this little tBlog world is. I was thinking "Hmm, I need to check out kreativekat's blog tonight before I forget" ... and it's like ... I wonder what people who read my blog, and other people's blogs, think of their life compared to theirs. Because I know I read hers thinking that she's a professional, lives in a different country, has a lot of different interests than me, but we do both blog on here and read one another's when we get the chance, and comment on each other's lives. I'm just using kat as an example :) But I don't know why it struck me odd in that moment, I mean I can read about anyone's feelings on their blogs but what do they think of ME? I probably seem silly because I'm 20, work crummy jobs, play video games, and don't really have many friends, talk obsessively about my boyfriend (hehe) ... it's just strange. Blogs are weird.

Anyhoo. Today was rather uneventful. My mom paid me back the whole $100 she owed me since apparently my dad made a child support payment out of the blue. He owes us over $10,000. So that was nice, I filled my car up with gas since the prices kind of went down today. I also bought some cute Halloween earrings :)

What else ... I'm debating over whether to get Sims 2 for DS or Mario Dance Dance Revolution when they come out. I'm gonna make a list so I can sort it out better ...

[u]Pros of getting Sims 2[/u]
Can play it on the go
I love the Sims, of course
It's cheaper

[u]Cons of getting Sims 2[/u]
Don't think you can build your own house
Battery life on DS is lower

[u]Pros of getting Mario DDR[/u]
It'll be a workout
I'd love to see Mario groovin' to the music
Fun to play with other people

[u]Cons to getting Mario DDR[/u]
Won't be able to play it much since I can't be dancing/stomping in my room
Costs more

Well, that figures ... even Steven. I think in the end I'll end up with Mario DDR since they're making another good game I want for DS next month. Plus, I mean ... I really can't resist dancing Mario!

I work my last night at the gas station tomorrow. Long story, the manager is a huge bitch and expects you to work, and I mean WORK for 8 hours straight with no break; you can't even talk to someone for five seconds. If it was just standing around with no break, okay. But literally, shifting stuff around in the coolers, bending up and down by them to pick up stuff for drive-thru customers ... of course you get breaks if you smoke, which is 80% of the employees there. Whatever, I'm glad to be back at the video store, as crazy as that sounds. It's not the same one I worked at before but that's a good thing. There's such a bigger selection of free rentals for me at this store :D

I did apply to work at a restaurant for one or two days a week though, when they need the help. It's right next door to the video store. Hopefully I can do that; if not, oh well.

Ugh ... I hate how my car sits so low to the ground. I was pulling out of a plaza driveway, and they're doing roadwork right next to it ... so my car scraped the road as I pulled out since it was kinda crummy ... I hate that :evil: That car can take anything though. And YES! My stepdad is getting me two new tires next week. He's owed them to me since last SUMMER! But I shouldn't complain, at least it's happening :)

Tomorrow before work I plan on heading over to the college and talking to them some more about the ACT & applying for school in January. Oughta be fun ... hehe. Now that I finally have the spare money for the application fee. Like I said in a previous blog, I plan on majoring in Education so I can be a teacher. I can't explain how satisfying it feels to [b]finally[/b] have a plan as to what I want to do with my life. I've been trying to figure it out since I got out of high school. But teachers hardly ever push you to be a teacher while you're in school, lol.

Well, I think that's about it for tonight, gonna get up kinda early. Night! :idea:

Blah! Maybe I shouldn't even talk about it. I finally calmed down from it. Let's just say I worked at the video store today, got bitched at by the gas station manager, went to my grandma's up near Cleveland, and came home and called Mike. I am too emotional :cry:

I'm watching "Fever Pitch" right now and I think it's pretty cute. Jimmy Fallon is always the goofy dude. I like him most of the time in stuff I've seen him. And Drew Barrymore is usually okay. I don't like how they tried to play her up as a successful nerd ... and to add to the image she doesn't pluck her eyebrows, lol ... I dunno. Mike really didn't want to watch it and I didn't confess that I wanted to :oops: So sorry hon if you're reading this :roll: :D

Night! :idea:

After today's earlier post ... Mike did end up calling me. I started driving over his house to be there at 5:30, and I live on a state route, so the speed limit is 55 mph once you get out of "town' (actually, a village, lol). So I'm approaching 55 ... and my hood starts flapping. Like, it wanted to pop open. So I was like :shock: and slowed down to 30 mph. If I had been on any other road, I would've pulled over and shut it, but I was already running late, and it didn't move at all as long as I didn't go over 50. So I drove slow the rest of the way to Mike's. It really freaked me out. And apparently my muffler was hanging kind of low the other day when I left my car over Mike's house so Mike fixed it for me :D I don't know thing one about cars. I guess I probably should bother to learn the basic stuff ... hehe :) Oh well.

So we went out to Golden Corral with his family, including the foster kids. I had a really good time. They were going to see "The Fog" though and neither of us wanted to, so we wandered around Borders & Barnes and Noble. It was only a little after 7 pm, but almost everything was closed. I know it's a Sunday night, but geez, the mall was closed, EB Games was closed, even Petsmart was. Among other stores we wanted to go to. It sucked!

I was really tired tonight though so we started watching a Mystery Science Theatre 3000 episode and I dozed off. It was boring anyway ... was a British Godzilla ripoff, lol. :roll:

But I got work at 9 am tomorrow morning ... still not sure if I'm gonna work at the gas station or not. I work at the video store 9 am - either 1 or 2, and then scheduled 2 - 10 pm at the Citgo. So ... I [i]probably[/i] won't ... I will if she needs me, but I'm not looking forward to telling her. I'll take my work clothes with me and say if she needs me, I'll stay, but if not, whatever.

I guess I better get some sleep then. I'm about halfway through the "Amityville Horror" book. It's really good 8) Night! :idea:

The crudest picture ever drawn! But I love it, still! <3>

After staying up really late last night playing the Sims ... I just can't seem to wake up today. I had these really weird dreams ... in one, I was like a convict escaping a mental hospital ... (I'm kind of remembering as I type) and struggling really hard ... at one point I was in like a hideout and a cop ... who happened to be Mrs. Lisic, and old teacher of mine that I saw at the gas station Friday ... let me off without turning me in because she could see I wasn't crazy ... and I changed my demeanor and apparently years or at least months passed in the dream because I changed my looks a lot. I dunno. And in the second one I had ... it was like "Battleship" but with houses and dogs and wolves? And a wolf ate Opal, our dachsund! It was really weird, everything was tiny and I was picking up the wolf in the fingers to get him to release Opal, but it was too late ... her neck was all chewed up. I told my mom (in the dream) and she's like "I'm the only one who cares." I don't really like Opal but I don't want her to die! :cry:

So anyway Mike and I might be going out to eat and perhaps see a movie with his family tonight. Friday night we all went out into his woods and had a bonfire and stuff, with the foster kids, and they're really funny, so I had a good time. Even though I was dead tired because I got up at 7 am to work 9 - 5 and was out there till past midnight :shock: But it was fun anyway. He was such a sweetheart the other day, I didn't wanna accept it but I didn't really have any choice; he gave me $25 to use for gas and stuff till I get a paycheck this upcoming Thursday. I literally had no money so I don't think I could've made it without that $25. He's so good to me :')

Well, I better hop offline so Mike can call to tell me if anything's goin' down. Ciao! :idea:

I read in the paper today that Sweetest Day is a predominantly "Great Lakes" holiday. I thought it was more a nationwide thing. So what's the deal, other peoples? :)

So anyway ... I shuffled around this morning ... looks like I'm gonna be working at the movie store in Orrville next week. I'm gonna fit it around my gas station schedule for now but I think I'm gonna end up quitting there. I know the manager won't work around my school schedule because I didn't tell her that I was going in January, and she told me she didn't like the schedules of the girls that do go. So whatever, school comes first.

Anyway, Mike picked me up at 4:30 because he was a sweetheart and drove me home last night because I was dead tired, so I left my car at his house :) Sooo .. I get out to his truck ... and there's this little purple bag on my seat. I'm like :shock: :) "Is this for me?" And he says yep ... so I open it ... it's a white box ... inside that is a black soft ring box ... he got me a gorgeous ring from Kay Jewelers!!! ::tears of happiness: I was so taken back, I mean he didn't [i]say[/i] anything in particular with it, but I mean ... ^.^ ^.^ It's really pretty. It's silver and has three iolite stones in it. They change color from blue to purple depending on the light. He asked my mom on the phone the other day what my ring size was. And my mom didn't even let it slip! Sneaky!!! :D I'll get a picture of it pretty soon, I love it so much. :')

The rest of the day, we drove out to Canal Fulton, poked around a toy store (it's like, new and antique toys, board games, figures, etc) and got an ice cream cone. We also ended up renting "The Shining" because neither of us had seen it. He read the book but said the ending was totally different. Jack Nicholson sure is crazy in that movie :shock:

But anyway I'm pretty overcome with craziness about the ring ^.^ And I'm playing the Sims right now so I'm gonna do that ... and simmer in my happiness :D

Well ... it didn't start out so cool. I got up pretty late ... hehe ... and I thought I had to work 2 - 7 but I really had to work 2 - 10. So yuck, I was pretty tired by the time I got home. And I'm REALLY tired of this recurring thing ... when you work a shift, you can only clock in five minutes before starting and clock out five minutes afterwards. That's NOT enough time to close out your drawer & do all the paperwork. I've been there at least 15 minutes past my schedule shift every time I've worked because of that. And that adds up!

Anyhoo ... I was really good friends with a guy named Jon junior & senior year - and it was one of those purely platonic male/female relationships; I mean in my opinion there was no attraction from either one of us but we just got along REALLY well. We could talk about pretty much anything. We went to Prom together both years. Well ... I didn't see him at all after high school ... but I saw him tonight after more than two years!!! His dad came in, and he's really recognizable - he's probably 90% black and has blue eyes. I really don't think he wears contacts either. Jon's mom is white, so Jon has blue eyes too. Anyway, I'm like ... "HEY! You're Jon's dad!!" We talked for a few minutes and then about 15 minutes later Jon came in! It was so cool. We didn't have much time to talk but we exchanged phone numbers. I felt bad because I couldn't take a break but I'm sure we'll hang out pretty soon; especially since Dave and I hung out recently; we were like a trio. So this is really cool :D Just hope he doesn't do drugs like he used to ...

So anyhoo... that was the cool thing about today. And I found out Saturday is Sweetest Day so I dunno what me and Mike are gonna do :) We're both pretty broke so I'm thinking maybe we can go on a walk somewhere if it's not too chilly. Maybe there'll be some pretty leaves :) I gotta get up to be at work at 9 am tomorrow though so ... night! :idea:

P.S. .... I have to get up in 5 hours and I can't sleep :cry: I've been thinking about playing Suikoden ... but I know I'll be up all night if I start now :cry: I really like that game ... and Mike says Suikoden II is better, so I'm really looking forward to finishing this up. This game is REALLY sad though. The main storyline is that you're a general's son, and your friend gives you this special "rune" ... called the Soul Eater. It basically means that people close to you keep dying as the game progresses; i.e. the leader of your 'group', a close caretaker, and even your father. And when these people die, it is emotional. I mean, they're saying things like "It's getting harder to breathe ..." It's rough. I would really like to dress up as one of the characters sometime. Here are the two main characters I like. And a dude character who is cool too, but I can't be him :roll:


[b]Odessa Silverberg[/b]
This was the only good pic I could find where they don't bitch at you for not hosting the pic yourself. Anyhoo ... she's kickass and the leader of the Liberation Army.


[b]Valeria[/b]
Valeria is frigging AWESOME. When she's not in your party, she says something like "If I'm away from battle too long, my hands ache for bloodlust" ... she's one of my most powerful attackers. She looks like an amazon!


[b]Stallion[/b]
He rocks as well. He's (obviously) an elf and like his name suggests ... runs really fast. Not only is he cool looking and has a decent attack, when he's in your party, you book nearly twice as fast across the world map. 8)

Yesterday was [i]really[/i] good. Nothing insanely out of the ordinary happened ... but me and Mike went an entire day without having the slightest bit of a skirmish :roll: Played Suikoden ... about 2/3 of the way done ... played the Sims ... even though it's not the new Sims 2, we have almost all the expansion packs so it's pretty awesome 8) ... he slept :roll:

And when I was leaving around 3 am, the grass was all dew-y and I had sandals on and it was cold so he picked me up and carried me all the way to my car! Was so sweet :wink:

I'm about to leave for work ... dreading it ... meh -.- Oh well.

:idea:

As if anyone needed another one.

I just got done talking to Mike on the phone, and he told me that one of his professors goes to peace rallies and anti-Bush things. And I hate Bush but I wouldn't have *really* thought about going to those till now; this is really pissing me off: In the Homeland Security bill that Bush passed, and Congress passed, which was [b]46 boxes of papers[/b] long, there is a blurb in there that specifies a [i]specific[/i] pharmecuetical company will NOT be held responsible for putting [b]mercury[/b] in their MMR shots (that measles, mumps, rubella thing). Now, all kids had to get that for school. And mercury isn't good - it's been connected to heightened probability of autism in children. So mercury = good chance of autism. And Bush says that this company [i]cannot be held responsible[/i] for their acts of idiocy. I mean ... autism is a lot more prevalent these days. And now we most likely have a major culprit. If that doesn't piss you off ... there is something wrong with you. Here is a story from www.gene-watch.org that I would like you to read ... while I summed it up, it's really good. Or just skip ahead lol ...

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[b]Thimerosal and Autism: An Emerging Scandal
by Sallie Bernard[/b]

The Homeland Security Act, signed into law by President Bush on November 25, contained a provision shielding a small group of pharmaceutical companies from liability for harm to children caused by thimerosal, a mercury-based vaccine preservative. The rider was inserted just prior to the full House vote, and few in Congress were aware of it.

The liability shield has nothing to do with homeland security. Thimerosal is not found in vaccines for smallpox or any other possible bioterror agent. Until recently, however, it was used in most routine infant vaccines — and many parents, along with a growing number of scientists, are linking it to childhood autism and related disorders.

The rider effectively ends hundreds of lawsuits filed, or about to be filed, by parents of autistic children. The main beneficiary is Eli Lilly & Company, the developer of thimerosal. From 1990 to 2002, Lilly made political contributions amounting to almost $6 million — nearly a quarter of which was spent on November’s mid-term elections — and has substantial ties to the Bush Administration. Mitchell Daniels, the White House budget director, is a former Eli Lilly executive. The company’s current CEO, Sidney Taurel, is on the Homeland Security Advisory Council. George Bush Sr. was a member of Eli Lilly’s Board of Directors during the 1970’s.

The White House denies responsibility for the rider, but Representative Dan Burton (R-Indiana), who has a grandson with autism and has held hearings on autism and vaccines, lays the blame at their door. Bill Frist, the new Senate majority leader, has been linked to the provision.

Adding to the intrigue, the Department of Justice asked the special vaccine injury court to seal the records relating to more than one thousand autism-thimerosal cases now pending. This action would have effectively blocked public scrutiny of any vaccine manufacturer’s documents to emerge from the proceedings. Although the record-sealing was eventually rescinded, parents of autistic children were left wondering exactly what in those documents needed to be hidden — and, ultimately, why Eli Lilly and the other manufacturers are so scared.

Apparently, there is plenty to worry about. Although autism was once thought to be a purely genetic disorder, the steep rise in number of cases during the last decade shows that environmental causes are also at work. The huge increase in autism rates coincides with the addition, in the early 1990s, of two new thimerosal vaccines to the infant immunization schedule. In 1999, the FDA disclosed that the amount of mercury in vaccines exceeded EPA safety guidelines. Manufacturers were asked to remove thimerosal, although existing stocks were left on the shelves. Parent groups like Safe Minds demonstrated that the symptoms of mercury poisoning matched the abnormalities they saw in their children. Scientists are now showing that vaccine-levels of thimerosal can cause neuronal apoptosis, immune imbalances, and autistic-like brain lesions and behaviors.

Documents obtained by lawyers show that Lilly and others knew about the dangers of thimerosal as far back as the 1940s. In fact, as the FDA has admitted, safety testing of thimerosal has never been conducted. A recent attempt by vaccine researchers to absolve thimerosal of toxicity through a poorly designed — but well promoted — study that used only 33 infants (Pichichero et al., The Lancet, November 2002) was derided by parent advocates as inadequate and overreaching.

It is not surprising that Lilly and the vaccine industry would fight so hard to dismiss concerns over thimerosal and, failing that, to have the concerns forcibly dismissed by law. Not only are lawsuits a threat, but the presence of an untested toxin in infant vaccines raises the ugly question of whether vaccines are being properly evaluated before being unleashed on the public. A lot is at stake. Vaccines are considered one of the few bright spots for pharmaceuticals in the future. Hundreds of vaccines are in various stages of development. Revenues are expected to reach into the hundreds of billions of dollars.

Parents of autistic children are making substantial inroads, but the pharmaceutical giants are fighting back with a vengeance. Truth, however, has a way of becoming undeniable.
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Anyhoo ... work sucked today ... I'm definitely not one of those girls that won't do menial tasks when I have to. But I REALLY hate sweeping (with a broom) ... and I had to sweep a ton of the parking lot today, plus clean the pumps, and just all this stuff ... I really hated doing it. I must admit, my hands are pretty easily worn out, and all the sweeping made them really sore. :(

Played a lot of Suikoden tonight, I plan on playing more after I get offline 8) Me and Mike are gonna watch some animé tomorrow but I'm not sure what. Hopefully go to a haunted house pretty soon too!

Oh, I almost forgot. I'm addicted to caffeine; I can admit. I get caffeine headaches and irritability when I don't have it. But of course when Mike tries to tell me I'm addicted I have to deny it :lol: ::sigh:: Anyone else addicted to caffeine?

:idea:

Wow ... I didn't realize my legs would be so sore today after running around like a chicken with its head cut off last night, lol ... that's a good thing, though!  Exercise 8)

I'm getting pretty aggravated with tBlog acting up everytime I try to get on.  What the heck is going on?

1. What time did you wake up this morning? Hummm ... I guess I wouldn't call noon morning anymore :roll:

2. Diamonds or pearls? I hate that pearl is my birthstone ... I like anything better than pearl!

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? "Wallace and Gromit!"  So great!!!

4. What is your favorite TV show? Huh ... I don't have cable at my house but I do watch it at Mike's ... right now my favorite is probably "X-Play" on G4. 

5. What did you have for breakfast? I guess what I'm eating now is my breakfast - two peanut butter n jelly sandwiches 8)

6. Peach yogurt or granola? Erm ... peach yogurt?

7. What is your favorite cuisine? ::ponders:: ... I do like Italian food, but ... just gimme a hamburger and fries any day :roll:

8. What foods do you dislike? I don't like just about any seafood ... except like, fish from Long John Silver's, heh.  But I hate the thought of eating fish, crab, or all that other stuff ... ew!!!

9. What is your favorite crisp flavour? o_O  Eh?

10. What is your favourite CD at the moment? Besides my burnt CD?  Guess I'd go with "Tidal" by Fiona Apple.

11. What kind of car do you drive? Haha ... maybe if I had a nice car this would be a good question ... a 1991 Honda Civic LX.

12. Favourite sandwich? Hands down, grilled cheese!

13. What characteristics do you despise? Arrogance, self centered-ness, greed, being inconsiderate of others ...

14. Favourite items of clothing? My track jackets.  I was into that style before it was popular ... grr!  :roll:

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? Well, okay, this is a toughie - if I were going on a vacation to really relax, I would say Hawaii.  I mean ... it's frigging Hawaii.  Sorry if it's cliche.  But if it were a vacation to broaden my horizons, I'd say Egypt.

16. What colour is your bathroom? Umm ... it's just neutral, I think ...

17. Favourite brand of clothing? I'm not interested in brand names.

18. Where would you retire to? Heck if I know ... Florida?  LOL ... they did have a TON of retirement communities when we were there ... more than I would've thought!

19. Favourite time of the day? 1AM-3AM. Hmm ... if I'm alone, I like from about midnight - 3 am, because I can just sit and talk online, usually while playing a video game at the same time.  At Mike's, I like that time around 9 pm because we've been hanging out for a while by then, but we still have quite a few hours to kill ;)

20. What was your most memorable birthday? None of my birthdays have been particularly memorable, in the way of crazy-goings on ... my sixth b-day party had like a slip n slide and all this cool stuff ... lol.

21. Where were you born? Cleveland, OH.

22. Favourite sport to watch? If I watch any sport, if it even counts, I'd say BMXing. 

23. Who do you least expect to send this back to you? This question doesn't count :P

24. What book are you reading now? "Outrage" by Vincent Bugliosi, about the OJ trial.  Also a weird little book called "Mister God, this is Anna" ... about some weird little girl ... it's kinda religous, and most of those books are boring, but this one is pretty cute.

25. What fabric detergent do you use? Heck if I know, lol.  Whatever is downstairs when I'm doing the laundry.

26. Coke or Pepsi? Diet Coke <3  Although regular Pepsi is better than regular Coke.

27. Are you a morning person or a night owl? Definitely a night owl.  Or as Mike's mom says, a vampire.

28. What is your shoe size? 9 1/2 wide.

29. Do you have any pets? We have two dogs at my house, the chihuahua Chi Chi and the dachsund Opal :)

30. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share with your friends? I've decided to be an education major :)

31. What did you want to be when you were little? Oh, everything ... an astronaut, a member of the House of Representatives (when I was like, 9, lol), a journalist, a gymnast, an opera singer ...

32. What are you doing today? Well, I gotta be at work at 2 pm.  So working till 7 pm and then coming home and just bopping around.  :idea:

Ugh. I am so aggravated with people and their pettiness. I think that I'm a pretty good friend to people, but apparently I'm only worth anything when they don't have anyone else better to hang out with, or when they get something out of it. It's like, I don't NEED this, I have a feeling I'm being shunned really bad by two people; I never see them online anymore; am I blocked? I mean, I really didn't do anything to deserve this; but oh that's right, an old friend is back, so screw me. And pointless lies ... just ridiculous, so screw it. This is like the third time this has come up for me so I'm tired of their "holier than thou" attitude because I'm a pretty humble person as it is, and am tired of people acting like they're the smartest, most caring people ... ARGH!

Well I worked the drive-thru tonight at the gas station; it wasn't too bad. Insanely hectic but it went by quickly. I applied at a restaurant in town however ... spoke to the manager, he was really nice. I'm kind of optimistic about it. Hopefully they don't "tip-share" ... so that whatever tips you get you have to make it even with everyone else. That's the dumbest thing ever. :?

Turns out I do have to work tomorrow, so no hanging out with Mike's friends since they wanna hang out at his house in Akron. Oh well. Wednesday at Mike's I'm gonna get all my FAFSA stuff sorted out and when I get paid next week, apply to Wayne and send payment to take the ACT. Fun stuff ... but it's about time I get off my ass and do it! I'm pretty excited about it though :)

Goodnight! :idea:

I'll make this short because my back is killing me ... I keep pulling a muscle so Mike was showing me some stretches ... I'm sure they'll work out in the long run but I must've bent wrong and screwed it up even more ... :cry:

Let's see ... yesterday me and Mike went to see the Wallace and Gromit movie! Holy cow, it was SO funny and cute. I think we were like the only adults there on a date, hehe :roll: And no aggravating kids! :shock: But anyway, for claymation it looked *amazing*. And it had a TON of silly puns, and I LOVE puns. I love stupid jokes :lol:

Before that, I had an orientation for work Saturday morning. It actually went really well; it was six hours long but they had a professional speaker guy giving it who was really funny and personable. We had to watch some videos but he made fun of the bad acting and told stories and we talked and everyone had a good time :)

Hmm ... I played a lot of Sims today on Mike's PC ... that game is so time consuming. Played a lot of Suikoden as well :) Me and Mike had a pretty big argument today ... went to pick up some pizza and got into it about something that I didn't really think was a big deal but he got upset about ... I understand but then again I have my point of view, but he was right ... but we did talk a lot and I said a lot of things I had really wanted to say for a while ... I think he vented at me a lot too ... I already feel a difference in the area of concern, so I think we've turned over a new leaf :) I basically said I just wanted to feel like he was more affectionate, he said he wanted me to be less ... expectation-y, so ... we worked some stuff out. I just have to work on my trust/jealousy issues.

So anyhoo, tonight was pretty good after that lil spat. Watched some Mystery Science Theatre of course. Turns out Goins' favorite is "Puma Man", just like mine! :roll: Let's see ... Mike's friends that got engaged recently wanna hang out on Tuesday so hopefully I don't have to work ::crosses fingers:: .... night! :idea:

Man .. it got chilly tonight!!! My room is usually the warmest in the house, but when I woke up from my nap about an hour ago ... brrr! :cry:

So yeah, completely uneventful evening. After I picked up applications from the restaurant, and yes ... the Movie Gallery in Orrville, I came home and took a nap. I was thinking ... if the gas station doesn't work out, and I do go back to school in January (I'm planning on it), I'm already trained and know all of their policies. But I won't settle for the starting wage; I only made $.15 more than that when I quit, and I should've been making a lot more. That's part of the reason I quit. I would want at least 20 hours a week, if there isn't anyone else in line for those hours. It's not like I'm dying for a job, so they can settle on my terms if they want someone who is already trained to open and close 8) They aren't very friendly in there though ...

I tried calling Mike about a half hour ago ... his mom said he just went on a walk in the woods behind his house ... :cry: I hope he's not mad at me for some reason; I called at the time I always do ... and it's dark and I hope there aren't any wild animals back there, like the coyotes that we heard sometimes ... I just don't see why he would go at the time I usually call. Unless it's just one of [i]those[/i] things so I would get worried/upset for no reason, so he'd be able to tell me it was a dumb thing to feel that way. :x

My eye hurts ... like where the tear duct is ... kinda itchy ... has anyone had pink eye? I had it when I was in first grade. Pretty crummy.

Does anyone have any feelings about the Harriet Miers issue? She's the woman Bush nominated to replace court justice Sandra Day O'Connor. What cracks me up; I read a really good article in the Akron Beacon Journal today: when he nominated John Roberts for chief justice, there was a to-do about him being religious. Conservatives kept saying "Don't bring religion into this, that has nothing to do with his ability to judge." Well, now that we have this Miers woman, who has no judging experience, mostly Bush and some of her/his friends are talking about what a great Evangelical Christian she is. It's like ... I thought that didn't matter? Both liberals and conservative alike (I hate those terms, but I'll use them for lack of better words) are questioning her credibility, and for good reason. Bush is basically just saying "Trust me." Yeah, right.

Well I gotta get to bed pretty soon, gotta get up around 6:30 - 7 am tomorrow morning for that orientation :cry: Sucks!! ... :idea:

Today has been rather busy already! I got up at 8 am ... just couldn't sleep after I woke up for some reason ... went online for a few minutes ... and one of my friends from high school was like "Hey, wanna go to Wal-Mart?" So I was like ... okay, I guess, I don't really have the gas or anything but whatever, I hadn't seen him in like 2 years so I said what the hell. Picked him up at like, 9 am ... drove out to Wal-Mart ... he bought like $100+ worth of games :shock: It was cool to see him though, me and him and another guy were like best friends junior and senior year. We all made a website together for a competition and got 8th in the state :) He was telling me about his like 28 year old girlfriend ... lol :roll: Sadly ... I left my headlights on :roll: I called my mom and ended up having to buy some jumper cables so she could jump it. It worked out fine, but the cables were like $15 ... so I'm totally broke now :cry:

Unfortunately I'm the hypocritical type so if Mike had told me he hung out with a girl I'd be ticked ... even though I know I shouldn't ... I just need more friends. I hardly have any friends at all. Like I said the other day, this girl at work is really nice so hopefully we can be friends. I really don't like to hang out with my guy friends because I know I'm hypocritical. I would've liked Mike to hang out with us but he was at school today.

Got home by 1 pm to take Opal to the vet ... totally unnecessary. I won't even get into that :evil: So ... I'm just lounging till my stepdad gets home to tell him how the vet visit went. After that I'm gonna go into town and put in an application at a restaurant that my mom used to work at. Dunno if they're hiring but I figure it can't hurt. It's not that I dislike the gas station, but ... I'm just paranoid about what Mike says about robberies, plus "drive-offs", when someone leaves without paying for gas, can get you in big trouble. I think that's kind of unfair.

Tomorrow I have an orientation in Massillon ... yay. That's like 40 minutes away. Some other lady that's going is gonna drive, at least. I told them they didn't want me to, lol. After that me and Mike will (hopefully, maybe) go see that Wallace & Grommit movie :lol: Either that or maybe I'll stay over and Sunday there's an Ohio Fair at Stan Hywet (we went there around April) that has all sorts of renaissance-y type stuff. That would be fun :)

Welp ... gotta get goin in a few ... ciao! :idea:

It was nice sleeping in today after getting up early for week the past few days :)

My mom gave me a whole $15 out of the $125 she owed me towards my car insurance, even though she said she'd give me a lot more than that. She asked me what I want for Christmas ... honestly .. I just want her to pay me back ... I don't care about gifts!

Went up to Wal-Mart to pick up my last paycheck. As I was leaving ... I thought ... I'm gonna take a different way to exit. So it ended up being a right hand turn only ... so I followed it, thinking there'd be a place to turn around ... well, I started wondering just was down that way, and long story short I ended up like a half hour away, lol! Nice drive though.

I went to pay my car insurance, knowing it'd be higher since I got my license ... well, it turns out they overcharged my a few months ago and used it as credit towards this month ... plus, the lady there said I won't have to pay the regular insurance till next month. So yay! I was broke ... lol!

I also went and picked up "Trace Memory" for DS today. It's pretty good so far. I bought some fabric too because I decided I'm gonna buy some patterns off eBay, drag em to my grandma's, and have her give me some tips. Mike mentioned he thought I'd like sewing, and I did like it when I was in high school, so ... there ya go :)

Well I'm gonna play some more of this new game ... ciao! :idea:

Yesterday and today were both pretty good :) Last night me and Mike got some cheap good and watched another Mystery Science Theatre 3000 ... "The Screaming Skull." Extremely corny black and white horror movie ...



It actually was so cheesy that an announcer said at the beginning of the movie, "If anyone dies of fright during this feature, we'll cover the funeral expenses." How goofy does it get? :lol:

Stayed over his house and got up at 7:30 in the am .. I am reallly not a morning person, but I had to be at work at 9 am. Yuck. I'm such a grouch in the morning.

Work was fine, only until 2 pm, but it went by extra quickly. Found out the daughter of a woman who works there is a girl I was friends with when we first moved down to this area. After work ... went home, ate ... got a bank statement in the mail ... so I went to the bank to see if I couldn't sort it out. Well, I couldn't, lol. The man said he'd call me but I ended up going out to eat where my mom works with my stepdad. So who knows ... went up to a local "Curves" for no good reason .... I just wanted to see their workout equipment and prices. I guess it's not really that bad ... but we have some workout stuff here I could use for free. I guess I just like the motivation they provide. I need to lose a good 20 lbs. Weirdly, a girl I went to high school with worked there. I'm like ... "Hey, didn't you go to Smithville?" She recognized me after that ... she was a bitchy cheerleader type ... needless to say I was inwardly pleased when I saw she put on more weight than I had over the years, lol ... but we're both adults so we were friendly to each other. That place is too expensive though.

Played a lot of Suikoden tonight ... it's about 12:30 now and I'd been playing it since about 7:30 ... hehe 8)

Well, I don't have to get up early or anything but I'm kinda tired ... night! :idea:

And I really liked it! It's a gas station, so it's constantly busy, but it was only my first day and I rang on a drawer for quite a while. It's hectic, but the time passes quickly, and my co-workers are *so* nice. There's a girl named Stacey I think I'll get along with really well. She's two years younger than me (at least, she graduated that way) and kinda preppy but seems really nice. The main woman who trained me knows my stepdad's family really well, oddly. But I did enjoy it. It's funny, I had to speak over the loudspeaker when someone was allowed to pump ... it was embarassing the first few times ... then ya get the hang of it :) I work 9 - 2 again tomorrow. It started out like ... 50º or less this morning ... now it's like 80º! I wish it would stay chilly! :cry:

So ... going over Mike's house to make some cake and hang out. Ciao! :idea:

It's rare I have as busy a day as today was ...

Let's see ... got up around 10:30. Mailed a letter to Mike (^.^) and grabbed a bite to eat at McDonalds ... I was so hungry but nothing to eat at home ... then I went over to the bookstore to see if they were hiring ... and as I left there, my stinkin' car wouldn't start. It has done that a couple times lately ... I just let it sit for a moment and it starts after that. I was kinda worried though since I had to be at work in 10 minutes :shock:

But I had my first day at the gas station today. Nothing interesting; just filled out paperwork and watched videos for like ... 3 hours. I work tomorrow morning 9 am - 2 pm; short shift, but I'm just training. So after that I went over to the local college to pick up an application and some paperwork. I've decided on my career. Well, for now. And as odd as this sounds to anyone who knows me in real life ... I've decided to be a teacher. I'm not huge on getting along with children, but I figure this will help me work on that, and I'll get to take all sorts of good college classes at the same time. I'm aiming for third through like eighth grade. No high school. But we'll see. I'll have pretty good job security, considering there's always a need for teachers, and I'll have *GREAT* hours!

But enough about that. Went home, milled around a while, and went back to the store to get stuff to make brownies & cake. Made the brownies @ home since I keep cooking for Mike but not my family, lol ... I'm eating one right now 8) Not much better than a brownie and a glass of milk :) Am gonna make the cake over at Mike's house tomorrow :)

Played about two and a half hours of Suikoden today too; I'm really liking it. I like games that don't really focus on great graphics (well, it did come out in 95 ... heh), but a great storyline and really good characters. As excited as I am to finish this, I'm really excited to play Suikoden II. It's Mike's favorite.

Welp, I gotta get up in like ... 7 hours. Night. :idea:

Got to stay the whole weekend at Mike's house :lol:

Let's see ... there goes my memory again ... Friday I did my grocery shopping and got all the stuff I needed to make garlic chicken, pasta salad, and apple crisp. Later that night we just hung out as usual ... went up to Wal-Mart and got a ton of dog food! I helped him do some of the work in the kennel this weekend; I let him do the poop-scooping but I did the feeding & watering. It was so fun. His dogs are soooo cute .... especially his chinese cresteds! ... I honestly never thought I could like a (mostly) hairless dog but they are so friendly and CUTE, especially when they're puppies. Well ... one of them is kinda ugly but all breeds have those ...

Anyhoo we didn't do a whole lot this weekend; watched a ton of Mystery Science Theatre ... holy cow, funniest ever ... my apple crisp turned out beautifully; the other stuff was just pretty good, hehe ... Mike peeled all the apples for me, such a sweetie :D Other than that we mostly just hung out, finished "We Love Katamari" ... oh, and we went to a bunch of garage sales in Orrville Saturday morning; picked up some good books, a couple Hello Kitty things, a blanket, and a cheap headset so I can listen to the radio late at night :) Coast to Coast AM! ...

Ugh! We were watching this show called "Bridezillas" about women getting married who go berzerk(er!) over something not turning out right in their wedding ... there was this one woman who was over an hour late to her own wedding, holding everyone up over getting everything perfect, bitching about everything ... then afterwards she was mad at the PRIEST for having to edit their vows because she was so late and another wedding was scheduled ... and she didn't even look happy at the fact she was getting married! Me and Mike talked about the other day; neither of us knows any of the specifics over what we would want at our wedding (:lol:) but I know I wouldn't want anything ridiculously extravagant or something that takes like half a year just to plan. Just something nice and simple, possibly outdoors, but something memorable, especially for us ... not a "show" ... that's not what a marriage is.

I borrowed the first Suikoden game from Mike tonight. I can't play it till tomorrow but I'm pretty excited; it's one of his favorite series ... he says the first one is great, but the second and third Suikodens are amazing. The fourth one is okay ... they're making a tactical Suikoden also :D I can't wait to try that!

Let's see ... in about two and a half weeks it'll be me and Mike's 11 month anniversary :lol: It's so great! I was looking at the calendar ... on November 7th we have to go eat at Applebee's because it'll be a year since the first time we ate there ... we don't consider it our "day" because it wasn't really a date ... but I remember going over there sooo nervous ... we played Halo 2 ... I remember him suggesting us eating there, hehe ... then we kissed when he dropped me off!!! Sooo wonderful ... even though I was REALLY tight lipped! November 19th is our official day. We went to see "National Treasure" and he held my hand on the way back to his house ... and oh ... I can't believe it's almost been a year!

Anyhoo .... I start at my new job tomorrow :? Yay ... not really looking forward to it so much, so I'm gonna get up pretty early in the morning, eat some breakfast at McDonalds or something and read the job listings. So ...that's about it. I'm gonna finish watching "Kindergarten Cop."

Oh, been seeing a lot of commercials lately for the Trans-Siberian Orchestra playing in Cleveland late in the year. Tickets are between $35 - $45 I think so maybe we'll go ... from the commercials it's like electric guitars and ... an orchestra :) They play good Christmas music. By the way - anyone in this area knows of the Gund Arena, home of the Cleveland Cavs, and countless venues. They changed the name of the arena to the Quicken Loans Arena. What the hell??? It's always been "The Gund" ... my mom used to work across the street from it, I've been to hockey games and wrestling events (back in the day) there. It'll always be the Gund.


Trans-Siberian Orchestra ... it's a kickass name ...

Night. :idea: