I've never observed Lent before. Often it's come up in conversation, like "Oh, I'm giving up chocolate for lent" just as a joke. I've never given anything up and never really understood why. Well, I read up about it here and have decided that, as an observation of faith and self assurance, I am going to give up meat for lent. Mike said that most Catholics give up meat on Fridays for Lent anyways, which I didn't know, but I think, why not give it up all together? I LOVE meat and never seriously considered becoming a vegetarian, but I think I need to try this out and prove to myself that I can give up the chicken, meat, burgers, bacon, etc that I love so much. I want to have the strength to give something up and prove that I'm not reliant on food. Plus, I bet I'll be healthier by the time Easter rolls around. I already bought Women's One-A-Day supplements and started taking them today to offset the lack of protein and other vitamins, etc that I would've received from meat. I'm excited, I'm also going to exercise some more since I can't start karate till after we get back from California. I hope I do notice a difference; if I like it, I could probably never be 100% vegetarian, but definitely reduce my meat intake, just because it's healthy. Mike said he'll make me an honorary Catholic if I do it, hehe ...

I also think I'm going to give up milk. I've suspected I'm lactose intolerant for a few months now, Mike swears I am, and he is right, it isn't right for humans to drink another animals milk. It's just that I've been drinking it my whole life. ::sigh:: This is gonna be DRASTIC!

Anyway not much else going on. Gotta work a split shift tomorrow; 11 - 3 and 5:30 - close, yay :P Gotta get up early to do laundry, double yay :(

P.S. Going to start this part of my blog. Don't have to read it if you don't want to. Since I'm starting a new eating habit I'm going to keep track of my health here. Just ignore! :)

Heidi's Health Habits
Today's Weight: 150
Today's Food: Cajun chicken, fries, mozzarella sticks, potato skins, peppermint patties, chicken quesidilla (one last splurge before Lent)
Today's supplements: One benefiber tablet, one women's One-A-Day tablet.
Today's Feelings: Just normal, no outrageous aches or pains.

I just received this tMail ...

hai cherry!............
i got ur msg that u accepted my friendship . thank u . here after wards v can b a good friends . if u dont mind v can have all kinds of romances also . and one comment i have got on u . that is , really u r looking like cherry fruit . i think this name is very good suitable name 2 u . reply me . bye ...........

I hope I don't look like a cherry fruit :'( And sorry but I'm already having romances ... we can be friends though ...

"Walk the Line" starring Joaquin Phoenix and Reese Witherspoon came out today!!! I bought it after work :D



Not much to say except I was totally neutral at work today and it figures, everyone was nice to me, even specifically the two people I was talking about in my last post. I was nice back, what can you do?

Bleh ... I already posted something about this on my blog on myspace, but here I'll go a little more in depth since I doubt the people I'm thinking of read this blog. If they do, oh well.

I really loved my job when I first started. There is a girl in particular there I am thinking of, that I really liked. One night, me, my boyfriend Mike, Mike from work, and his friend went into Grinder's to eat and she was working. I was just in a bad mood and she kept talking to all the guys, even Mike who she didn't know, and didn't say a thing to me, so that pissed me off. Ever since then, she just has not even been friendly to me. I am a little less friendly with her now, but I ask her how things are with her and her boyfriend, typical shit. But I was browsing another co-workers blog on her myspace and it said (by this girl) that she had to work with "one of the lazy people, ugh!" this weekend. The only person she had to work one-on-one with was me. I can't think of anyone else she would've been talking about. I don't particularly care for either of those co-workers anymore. The other girl is the manager that bitched me out for giving me the wrong schedule. It's like, fuck this, I try to be nice to EVERYONE, and I will still be nice to mostly everyone, but it's so annoying when I'll go in, she and a few others I'm thinking of won't even say hello to me, and then everyone else will come in for their shift and they'll be like "HI! HOW ARE YOU?!?!" it's just so blatant, I hate it. I've always been a social outcast because I'm quiet and semi-antisocial, but I just don't understand what I did to deserve this treatment. I really don't think I'm lazy at work; it's actually impossible to be lazy because all of your sidework gets checked before you leave. I'm so fucking tired of putting so much energy into friendships and work and getting this kind of shit back. All of this from people who claim to be good Christians; ha ... sure I talk bad about some people at work, but only to my boyfriend. From now on, fuck it, I'll be nice to the people who are nice to me but that's it.

P.S. I wanted to add; my sister is doing so-so. Her pneumonia is mostly gone, so they removed the tube from her throat that was getting the phlegm out. Her problem now is a lot of seizures, more than usual. Her breathing is all right. I am just getting a little worried ... I know my mom wants to be with my sister. But my mom isn't working. It's hard on everyone because I have to drive the bad car to work, she's not making any money, and she's not here to keep me sane, heh ... but on a serious note, I DO know she wants to be there for Jessica. But she's not helping Jessica get better by putting us in debt. :(

Yeah! Mike informed me today they purchased the tickets to California! Looks like we're leaving on May 15th and coming back May 24th. Pretty long trip! What is awesome is that we'll leave at 9 am from Ohio, but arrive in California at 11 am due to the time difference! But what stinks is we'll leave at like 1 pm from California and not get back to Ohio until like 11 pm, lol. On the flight there we were lucky and got a nonstop flight, though I wouldn't have minded a layover. I love taking off :) Our trip back though, we stop in Chicago, which is where we stopped on the way to Florida. Ahhh ... so excited!!!!!! We talked about plans with his mom and stepdad more tonight, about rental cars ... gonna be landing in San Francisco and spending the first day there, then heading down and back up the whole state. It's gonna rock. I'll also like it because we'll be near Oregon, which is a place I've always considered living. I just like the northwest for some reason. Anyway, I've got about 2 1/2 months to lose some of this spare weight and get a tan!

And we booked our hotel next weekend for Freezepop! We ended up having to stay in a hotel 20 minutes away, but we really need to be good with money, and it's saving like $40 so it's worth it. Ahh ... gonna be a great night!!!

Well anyhoo I don't really have a whole lot to talk about tonight finally, a day off tomorrow, my first one since last Monday ... might make another post later ...ciao!

Just feel like talking about random stuff.

Firstly, I hate when people refer to people as "conservatives" and "liberals" and apply the same exact feelings to EVERYONE in that group. Like about the war in Iraq. Everyone says that conservatives want the war, liberals don't. Abortion - conservatives are against it, liberals are for it. I know that a lot of those things apply to a lot of the people who are labeled that, and that's why they're labels - they serve some purpose. But nothing irritates me more than turning on talk radio and hear Rush Limbaugh rant about "those liberals" who are for abortion & against the war in Iraq. I consider myself a liberal, however, I'm not for an emergency exit out of Iraq, nor am I for abortion. I am for gay marriage and health care for everyone.

I'm really interested in that Pulsar I talked about in my previous post. I was talking to my stepdad about it, because I think my mom will get really pissed if I get such a small car. He basically said, it's not her that has to drive it and if it has airbags, he considers it pretty safe. I'll probably take it for a test drive :) The only thing weird about it is a little hood wear, and that's possibly because it's from the west, because it hasn't had any winters here. Could've been sand or something.

We watched "Saw 2" last night and it wasn't too bad. Started off meh but, like the first one, the ending was awesome. Really ... REALLY gory ... but still good. 6.5/10.

I'm going to Mike's in a few for a little family get together thing. Gonna be fun :) We'll probably watch "Weatherman" starring Nicholas Cage tonight. Anyone seen it? ...

I was up WAY too late last night. I just couldn't sleep :( My stomach was aching from the super greasy onion rings I ate ...taught me a lesson :( So my mom wakes me up at 6:30 am to go eat breakfast with her :| I dunno how I'm functioning right now. I've been up for 20 hours on 3 hours of sleep. And I've gotta be at work in 8 hours! Blah!

So anyway me and my mom had breakfast before work at 8 am, it was nice :) I was in an unusally good mood for having to work so early, so my manager had to ruin it by bitching that I didn't have everything done fast enough - hello, I was the only server and I was actually quite busy this morning. All the other Saturday morning's I've worked, I've had a max of TWO whole tables from 8 - 11 am (thats bad) ... today I had a good 7 - 8 tables in that time span, and between doing all the side jobs, that's a LOT of work! I ended up being there until about 4:15 pm finishing up everything, and I still got griped at because it took so long. I really do love that job, for some reason. My friend Mike is kind of on the verge of quitting though, and that would REALLY suck, because he's a cool manager and a good friend.

Then me and Mike kinda chilled :) Went out to his dad's in Chippewa Lake to pick up some of his books for Mike's newly assembled kickass bookcase. I'll try to get a pic of it :) Went to Wal-Mart and bought some girly essentials (not in a bad way) ... for next weekend ;) Mike said he wants to try saké next weekend when we go to see Freezepop. So I'm all up for that :)

We were gonna go adventuring out in his woods tonight but 1) it was windy as hell; 2) it was cold as hell; and 3) it's apparently coyote mating season so they're very bold. That in addition to Mike's mom seeing a coyote chasing a deer out in the open. So yeah ... not my cup o' tea, walking around in the dark woods possibly being hunted by coyotes!

So hopefully tomorrow is good at work, Mike's mom is having a family get together thing at their house tomorrow so that's what I'll be doing ... thanks everyone for their comments on my previous post; for some reason it's not letting me reply ~:O

Edit: I forgot to mention! I looked at this really cute car today. Here is a picture of one, it's a 1987 Nissan Pulsar. I know it's older, but it's only got 107k miles on it, and it's in great shape.



The one I looked at is a pretty blue color. Thing is, it's EXTREMELY tiny, so much that *I* would feel uncomfortable, which is saying a lot considering I love little cars. And, they're asking $2000 for it. I just looked it up under Kelly Blue Book and they're "good" rating price for all the options I selected only comes to $1215! I have that much saved up. So, maybe I'll give them a call on Monday and see if I can just take it for a test drive or something. :)

I really had a good night at work ... it was pretty slow, I didn't have more than 2 - 3 tables at once, but everyone tipped AWESOMELY! I've been making a real effort lately, since I feel more confident in my waitressing abilities, to really be super friendly and intuitive to what the customer is thinking. I didn't make less than $3.50 a table, and they were mostly tables of just two people. I made quite a few $5 tips, so I ended up making about $40 at the end of the night, which isn't bad for 5 - 10. They did try to make me work next Saturday, even though I requested it off over a month ago. The Freezepop concert is my #1 priority next weekend! ... I had to physically get a calendar and show my request off sheet to prove I did, then the manager was kinda pissy at me about it. Oh well! We gotta leave at like 10 am since it's a three hour drive!

My sister is doing a lot better for those of you who have been thinking about her, I appreciate your concern SO MUCH. She had been seizuring pretty bad lately, but it's under control now and the pneumonia is getting better as well. They can take her off the ventilator in a day or two but they want to be positive she can breathe well enough on her own to take the deep breaths she'll need to take. So we're all breathing giant sighs of relief ... she even was smiling and trying to laugh today which brings tears to my eyes :')

But I get to see my mom tomorrow morning, we're going out for breakfast :) BLEH ... that means I have to get up at about 6 am though. But I haven't seen her lately so it's okay, hehe. I'll just have to take a nap after work so I can be awake for Mike! But I am gonna head to bed now ... but before I do, JustinB moved his blog over to wordpress and it looks super snazzy ... I don't have the exact link but this will auto-direct you ... just click here! Goodnight!

Bleh ... I hate when I sleep in too late. I've had to work mornings all week, and tonight I don't have to work until 5, so I slept in till like 2 ... ugh!! But what really stinks is that I have to work 5 - close tonight (close is anywhere between 10 - 11:30) and then I have to be at work at 8 in the morning Saturday! T_T Sucks big time. They better not make me one of the closers since I have to be back so early but I know they've done it to other people before, who live farther away than I do. Grr.

Hopefully tomorrow is pretty good though. While I don't like getting up so early I kind of like working the 8 am - 3 pm shift. Hardly anyone comes in to eat until 11, but in that time you just kinda get to chill and get stuff done in your own time. Have to heat up all the soups, unwrap the pies in the pie case, make sure everything is just functioning normally and everything is ready for the inevitable lunch rush. Unfortunately I have to work with a girl that I do like, but for some reason acts kind of snippy and bitchy towards me lately. I can't stand when someone talks to you like you're 5 years old ... instant disrespect from me there.

So after work tomorrow I'm gonna try to squeeze in a nap, then I'm gonna go to Mike's and we're going to attempt an adventure in the woods. He's going adventuring with his friends tonight :P Oh well ... we get to use our head gear lights so we don't have to carry flashlights :D

Meh ... I feel so blah lately ... not in my relationship ... just in general ... I didn't get to talk to my mom this morning, I think I was asleep so I feel REALLY bad ... I always have the phone with me but I think someone snitched it from my room while I was at work or something. I feel like I need a physical change and that's why I've been trying to go on this diet lately. It's hard though, especially when we have a ton of junk food, and my mom isn't home so we don't have any healthy food when she isn't here to buy it. I feel like in a hardcore poetry writing mood but I have to leave for work in like 10 minutes. Great. I feel like talking to someone but I have no idea about what. I better make some awesome money tonight or I am gonna be pissed.

Not much to report. I did pretty good at work, made almost $60 in 5 1/2 hours of work. People were friendly with their tips today :) I bought this sweet ass Zelda shirt today too ...



I considered getting that as a tattoo for a long time. I also got this really cute shirt that I may wear to the Freezepop concert next Saturday! It's quickly approaching!

I'm feeling pretty blah so I'm gonna hit the hay ... night!

(P.S. ... I did edit this ... I read some stuff that I found out was a hoax. At first it sounded really scary but then I did a little net searching and found out it was false. Oh well!)

I decided today that I needed to get out and hang out with some friends instead of sitting around the house all the time, and of course I love my sister ... but my mom wanted me to go to the hospital tonight with my idiot stepdad, and I just needed some "me" time with some friends. So after work today I hung out with David & Alissa and two of their friends ... it was great, getting my mind off things and just BSing. I've known David for about 3 - 4 years and I've known Alissa since they've been together. She's really cool :) What bugs me though is I love being friends with them ... and I want to be friends with my ex and his girlfriend, but they don't get along, and I try not to bring it up, and I'm not going to play favorites or be put in the middle. I already lost a friend by talking to my ex. It's stupid!

But I remembered some sweet music I have to download. David fixed my computer way back when and copied a lot of songs I had off their onto his computer, so I remembered a lot of stuff I needed. Such as ... Lunarclick ... Zeromancer ... Stabbing Westward ... Alice in Chains ... a Neon Genesis Evangelion tune ... more stuff. Anyway I need to get to bed. Night! :idea:

One of my favorite CDs ever tracklist ...

1. Neon Genesis Evangelion - Turn Back Time
2. Prodigy - Breathe
2. Prodigy - Firestarter
3. Pearl Jam - Do the Evolution
4. Lunarclick - Perfect
5. Stabbing Westward - Save Yourself
6. Stabbing Westward - The Thing I Hate
7. Alice in Chains - Got Me Wrong
8. Radiohead - Creep
9. Radiohead - Paranoid Android
10. Zeromancer - Opelwerk
11. Zeromancer - Plasmatic
12. Zeromancer - Something for the Pain
13. Static X - Anything But This
14. Static X - Push It
15. Static X - Cold
16. Orgy - Blue Monday
17. Orgy - Fiction (Dreams in Digital)
18. Adema - The Way You Like It

Whoo! New CD :heart:

I tried this really cool site ... you upload a photo and it tells you what celebrity you resemble. It's not really that accurate in my opinion but it's still fun! Here are my results for the picture over there to the right with me and the camera.

60% Kiera Knightley (cool)
60% Christy Turlington (she's a model right?)
59% Allison Hannigan (cool)
59% Ashlee Simpson (UGH!)
But here is the link, I think it's really fun. Post your results! :) Find out your celebrity lookalike!

Nothing interesting about today. I've felt very just "bleh" ... the only decent thing was I saw a Honda Civic that looked just like my old one on the side of the road today for $1300, just a different color. Problem is, it's been there for a long ass time, but I thought the price said $1800 so I never bothered with it. I figure tomorrow after work, since it's on my way home, I'll just stop by and take a peek at the mileage, if it's decent, take Mike's dad out to lunch and have him take a look at it :)

Anyhoo .. I'm gonnna need to get up at a decent hour to do some laundry before work tomorrow ... goodnight.

Yep ... I haven't heard anything from my mom so that means that Jessica is okay. She can't have her cell phone on in the hospital so I can't call her (save the hospital phone for emergencies) ... so good ... my mom is coming home briefly tomorrow and then she has to work a 3 hour shift. Her work is really nice; but they need someone to work 2 shifts this week, at least. I'll be glad to see her, I miss my mom, hehe :)

I feel like total crud today however ... I don't want to give TMI but ... girl troubles T_T It's debilitating ... my mom had her stuff removed about 12 years ago ... after I pop out kids, I am too! It hurts and is too much trouble for all this! And it lasts over a week! :'(

I thought me and Mike had a really good day today. We ate at my favorite place, Long John Silver's! Hehe ... I cheated on my little diet, I call it the chicken cashew salad diet because that's all I eat from work anymore ... those salads are soooooooo good ... obviously, lettuce, chicken strips, egg ... I usually take the cashews out. But its great with italian dressing!

We went to K-Mart and I got Sims 2 for Nintendo DS for only $20! It's usually like $35! I'm still trying to get into it, it's not as fun as Urbz was quite yet ... you run your own hotel ... which I did in a game called SimTower but it's a lot different, made by the same company (Maxis) ... we also got these SWEET head lights! I've ALWAYS wanted like a miner's hat so I could wear a light on my head ... they were only $13 a piece!



It ROCKS! It has a red light (animals can't see red apparently), an LED light, and a spotlight type light. We like to take walks out in the woods, and its hard to cross a skinny log over water when one hand is holding a flashlight! I also discovered it's an awesome READING light at night! Best $13 ever :)


I just started using this new shampoo and I love it! It's called "Christophe" ... I think my mom got it on sale at CVS; not sure how much it costs, but it makes my hair feel REALLY smooth and soft, and gives it a shine. I have some pretty thick, wavy, frizzy hair, so it really made it nice. And Mike really liked how it smells; said it's his favorite so far of my many shampoos/conditioners :)

Well ... I have to be at work in 6 1/2 hours but I'm not even tired but I better try to be I guess ... goodnight! :idea:

Ahh ... I know it's a petty thing to be worried about when my sister is in the hospital ... but I stepped on the scale this morning again before I took a shower and it went only to 145! I know I am overweight ... I was 155 there for a while, it made me really upset; I always said if I hit 160 then I'm going anorexic, lol. It started to inch towards there so I really made an effort to stop eating as much fast food and fattening food from work. I'll always drink pop, but at least it's diet, I guess. I had put on that extra weight again after I started the pill last June and I just couldn't drop it. But I've gotta look good for California in less than three months! ... I can fit into a size 10 jeans again ... I haven't been able to do that since high school ... I think my ideal weight would be about 135, 140. I like having some fat on me, and I have a rather large head so I don't want to look like a bobble head. Plus .. I gotta stay realistic. I could never get that skinny, lol! Anyway ... I just wanted to post that. It's one of my personal struggles that is finally getting some result.

I just found this little card we used to have to carry in Middle School to go to the dances they held like once a month ... wow ...



And here's the most recent pic of me that I feel looks similar ...



There is like a 7 year gap there, lol :(

Jessica was in basically the same shape she was in yesterday when me and my stepdad went up to see her tonight, which is better than being worse. I hate seeing my mom in that shape ... of course I hate seeing my sister in that shape ... and it is SO obvious when my mom isn't home. My stepdad and stepbrothers just don't care how loud they are, I almost had to ask them to turn down stuff just so I could talk on the phone with Mike! So I do miss having my mom here, I can admit it! But ... I think I'm going to go to bed ... tired. Goodnight...

Well, I'm doing some hardcore looking at the car scene because I need one ... like ASAP. I just hate getting stressed about stuff like this ... because I still gotta get plates (since I didn't end up getting the plates off my old Civic; they towed it and couldn't find the damn place!) and registration and blabbity blah blah. Hopefully my mom will help me a little bit; since she's been getting my child support from way back when. I just ... blah, there aren't many good car places around here. There are a ton of used car places up at my grandma's but that's over an hour away and we never seem to find time to get up there anymore. Well, I just felt like making a quick post, I already worked today, and nearly everyone asked how my sister was doing; and I'd only told two people that she was in the hospital. It was so sweet!!! It made me feel really good to know that my coworkers are so concerned with my sister's well being and really want to know more about what is going on with her. :')

Well, today went pretty well. Me and Mike left to go visit my sister at 3 pm. I took my mom a change of clothes because she's been staying up there the past few days and figured she'd want to change clothes. But my sister is doing better than I expected, not GOOD, but okay. She was pretty zonked out to keep her from seizuring, and she has a tube down her throat to suck out the mucus from the pneumonia. We stayed until a little after 6, when they started using "the vest" to shake her and loosen the mucus lodged in her lungs. I hate hospitals .... the pediatric ICU has got to be the saddest place in the world. So many sick little children ... my sister is there because she has, bluntly, the body of a 13 year old. Since she's never been able to walk, her feet are a size 3 or so in childrens, and were she to stand, I couldn't imagine her being even 4'8. But she is in stable condition, so our prayers are helping :)

Afterwards Mike and I ate at Luna's in Wadsworth; the food was good, but our waitress sucked. Mike said I shouldn't have left her as good a tip as I did, but being a waitress I can't leave less than 10%. So I left about 12%. She was THAT bad, another waiter had to get me a refill while she bantered on with her friend at some other table who said she was a great waitress, lol. Anyway, then we just lounged at his house.

I've decided I'm going to take up karate. Probably at this place: http://www.awasekenpokai.com/... Mike knows the teacher there and says its really good. I just need a confidence boost, something enjoyable and social that will also get me active. I'm really looking forward to it; it's kind of scary because I'm hesitant to start new things where I won't know anyone, but I bet it'll be really fun once I get into it. Anyway, I have to be at work in about 8 hours and I'm really tired ... soo goodnight :)

P.S. This cracks me up! I love the old pokemon episodes!

Me and Mike are leaving to see my sister up at Akron Children's Hospital in about 45 minutes. I talked to my mom at like 6 am; she's in serious but stable condition. I have to get directions to the hospital ... I should know the way, considering how many times I've have to go there because my mom thinks everything is a life or death situation ... anyway, I called off work. I offered to go in at 7 pm (supposed to be there at 5 pm) but Amy said she'd just cover for me. I feel awful about it, but I have to see my sister. I just have to remember to bring proof that I was up at the hospital and not at some party, lol... I'm sure that's what they're thinking. I feel like crap today anyway, my stomach is making all sorts of weird noises and my head feels stuffy. I hate hospitals ....

Well I'll post when we get back from my sister's and let ...anyone who reads this know how she's doing. Thank you LadyG for the prayers :) It means a lot.

Today was a very bad day. Let me start off that my sister is very ill ... the one I talked about earlier this month. It was her 24th birthday. Well she went to the hospital earlier today, she has pneumonia and is in the ICU on a ventilator. My mom is up there staying the night with her. I'm probably going to call off work tomorrow night, and Mike and I are going to go see her. I didn't want Mike to have to take me, but he is such a sweetheart and he's not even met her yet ... he's the best :'( I just have a bad feeling. I want my sister to get better, but I also don't want her to suffer anymore, either. Not being able to talk; to say when she is hungry, to enjoy food, have a family of her own, a husband, drive a car, make art, take a walk ... it kills me inside, but I try not to dwell on it. I can't imagine how hard it is for my mom. My sister has gone through 24 years of Hell ... I just want her to be in a better place.

Tonight was very busy at work. We closed at 10 and there were still idiots sitting around at 10:45, not even eating anymore. I didn't have to close luckily, but I was still there until 10:45 because my last table didn't leave till then, but I made about $50 so it wasn't horrible. Anyway ... I'm gonna go to bed ... play some Animal Crossing ... goodnight.

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Weapon of Choice:	Agent Orange
Your Favorite Target:	Women
Your Kill Count:	1,491,725,837
Your Battle Cry:	"Mutha fuckaaaaaaas!"
Years You Spend in Jail:	2
How Much Money In Damages You Cause:	$145,569,824,972,501
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That is extremely accurate.

Yep ... that was today. Work sucked, however, as I took like three tables for this girl (the one me and Mike at work made fun of) and they left me shitty tips, and I had a ton of extra sidework to do. Oh well, it could be worse ... I guess.

Today later was good though, just a nice night of me and Mike hanging out. I ended up playing more Suikoden IV, everyone who reads this knows I'm a suikofanatic, but I was taking a break for a little bit because I heard the fourth game was kind of shitty. Well, I'm liking it, besides a couple annoying spots. Such as, the main guy, when running, looks like he has a stick up his ass! But I love the battle system compared to the other games. It's good so far.

We also talked a ton about our trip to California tonight with his mom and stepdad. Mike is probably going to buy the plane tickets tomorrow. Soooo excited ... we're going for 9 days, probably between May 16 - 25. We mapped out how much it's gonna cost, looked at rental car prices, and figured out extra expenses ... the thing I am looking forward to the most is going to the Chinese Theatre where the celebrities put their hands!!! I dunno why, it's so tourist-y, but I'm excited. I can't wait for even the flight! Mike and his stepdad wanted to fly out of Akron-Canton airport but me and his mom talked them out of that; neither of us want to be in one of those little 'puddle jumper' planes, they'd be those small ones. I love planes, but the bigger the better in my opinion. We're gonna be all over the place ... so if we leave on the 16th it's three months away from today! Figures, I won't be 21 by then so I can't do the wine tasting. I don't even like wine, but it'd be fun to say I went to wine country and did it ya know? I also have to get a little bit of a tan going so I don't get burnt when we go. I used Mike's mom's tanning bed once before we went to Florida, such a short time because I was paranoid about it, but it felt really good and warm. I don't like tanning at all, but now and then can't hurt if it's for this. Better than getting a gigantic burn and getting sun poisoning like I did last year!

Anyway I've been working on stuff for my myspace page lately, kinda lame but I'm addicted to it. Oh well! Hope everyone has a good night. :idea:

Firstly ... I have new pictures in the post below ... they are cool! :)

But I wanted to talk about one of my favorite things. That's sandals. It's a girl thing, I know, but I love a good, comfortable pair of sandals. Those are hard for me to find because I admittedly have weird shaped feet. I always have to get wide shoes, and I wear anywhere between a size 9 - 10. If the shoes don't come in wide I go up to size 10 I guess. But ahh ... last summer for my birthday my mom got me a pair of Earth Shoe sandals from Wal-Mart. Isn't it silly when you reminisce about that perfect pair of shoes? I've always liked their (EarthShoe) sandals but last years were the best I've ever owned; they were so cute and comfortable. I wore them down pretty good, and I was thinking this year, man, I'm probably not going to be able to find another wonderful pair of sandals. Well we were at Wal-Mart the other night, and lo and behold, I find an extremely similar pair and they were even WIDE! So even better! They were only $13 so of course I bought them and I love them. Here is a picture of both sandals! The new ones I bought are on my left foot and the old ones are on my right foot. I slightly like the style of the older ones better, just because when you get a tan on your foot, the white contrasts it better, but oh well!



I can't wait to wear them to California in May, I know they're gonna be super comfy!

Today sure is a beautiful day! Too bad I had to work a split shift, already worked lunch, now I gotta go back in 45 minutes to work the dinner shift! Yuck!

Ciao :)

Yeah ... the much awaited pictures from when me and Mike went to the zoo about a month ago! So here we are!


Some really cool flamingoes.



A lion and a lioness behind the dude.


A kickass octopus!


This frog RULES.


A cute hippo!


And here is me like super close up with the koala! He was so close I could've reached out and touched him!

And here are some more random pics ...


Cleveland on the way to the zoo. My birthplace.


The beautiful roses Mike got me for Valentine's Day!


Another really cute pug puppy!


This is hanging in my grandma's den. Mike took a pic of it when we dropped by in January .. wasn't I cute?

So Valentine's Day was pretty good :) Mike got me my favorite candy ... bon bons!!! Chocolae peanut butter things :) And we went out to Applebee's. I was really tired today for some reason ... ::sigh:: It was a good night though. I got slightly grouchy at the end of the night; gah I wish I would stop doing that. He pulled out his Prom 2000 shirt to clean up a spill ... bleh he said Prom 2000 was like the best night of his life; of course it was with his ex girlfriend. I'm not jealous, just the fact that he keeps the shirt arounda actively is what bugs me. I don't keep out any of the shirts from my exs. Blah.

I also added some new pics on the side and on my myspace page. Myspace .... whee. Night.

I have recently become readdicted to Gaia Online. It's ridiculous ... I won't even try to describe the site. It's addicting as hell. I've been a member since March 04 but kind of took about 10 months off and now I'm back on. Since I'm also obsessed with Suikoden, I made these 'signatures' for when I post on the forum.


Blue Lightning Mikhal is obviously Mike. He doesn't actually go on the site but I made him a character, bought him so clothes we would both look like the actual Odessa and Blue Lightning Flik ...



I also made this to use, because it's a lot smaller and I thought kind of a funny idea.



Me and Mike are going out to Applebee's tonight yay :) I bought his stuff last night and I still need to get that all together. Hope everyone has a good Valentine's Day! Ciao! :idea:

Whoo! I got this off eBay and finally got it in the mail today!



I haven't really been online a lot lately so ... I dunno, just haven't felt like making posts as much for some reason. ::shrugs:: Gotta go shopping tonight for Valentine's Day stuff for Mike :) I counted the money in my safe last night and I've got like $300 in ones in there ... but I've got a pretty good amount of dough besides that :)

Anyway ... not a lot going on ... so ... later gators. :idea:

I just found out tonight from a friend I had in middle school that my first "real" boyfriend committed suicide a few years ago. I moved from the area when I was 13 and in 8th grade, so it's been a good 7 years. I just feel so horrible ... his name was Andrew Taylor. He wasn't my first ever crush but he was my first ever boyfriend. I don't mean to sound weird ... because obviously I love Mike ... when we were in 7th grade science class, we both missed the same day so we had to sit out in the hallway and work on a paper while the rest of the class took a test. He joked with me the whole time, and our teacher got mad ... then he rubbed his hand on my arm and said I had really soft arms... hehe it's funny the stuff you remember. Then my friend Holly dated him (Holly ALWAYS went out with guys I liked! But she's still cool) briefly in 7th grade ... I was so furious ... but I remember one of them asking me if I minded that much that they dated. Of course I said it was okay. Then 8th grade came around and we started going out a few months before I moved (December) .. but he flirted hardcore with other girls, so I said I couldn't take it anymore and broke up with him. We hardly spoke until I moved. I did his math homework a lot. But then right before I moved we were friends, and I talked to him on the phone a lot when we moved down here to Marshallville. He always joked about going cow tipping, and I visited my grandma's house a few times, and he came over once or twice, playing basketball or hanging out with me and my cousin Derreck. He was always that guy that I really really liked ... I even used an anagram of his last name for passwords online for like ... well, actually until about a year ago, lol. He looked like Elijah Wood. He had really good fashion sense ... I also thought he might be gay. Not that I would care ... I saw him at a grocery store 3 or 4 years ago up where I used to live ... was like, hey ... just random conversation, he was with a girlfriend ... but anyway, I just couldn't believe it. I know I'm not the first person to ever lose someone they were friends with, but this is the first time for me. I wish I had a picture of him somewhere. I even tried looking him up randomly on myspace when I was looking up old friends from the area, and couldn't find him. I can't say I wish I had talked to him, because obviously we hadn't spoken in several years, but I just wish he knew that there are still people of course that thought about him, even when they were just typing in their computer passwords or saw Elijah Wood in a movie. :( :(

Not been awake very long today. Happiness... when I went to take a shower I stepped on the scale before I jumped in, and I've lost like 8 lbs in the past week! O_O If it was just a little nudge down the scale I'd say it was because your weight fluctuates depending on a lot of factors, but this was the lowest it's been in a long time. Made me really happy. I've been eating pretty good the past couple weeks ... haha of course I was STARVING after I got out of the shower and I downed two corn dogs. But they were so good!

Also, don't walk down precarious wooden basement steps when one of your legs is asleep. Kinda scary.

So me and Mike are going to Gabriel Brothers tonight; I'm gonna try to find another pair of work pants because mine started wearing down in the thigh from them rubbing together so much. Sad, they were good pants. :(

Ciao! :idea:

I've been up all night on Gaia Online and downloading some tunes ... whee. Here is my eye SCARY!!!!

Originally ...


And after some tweaking ...


Scary, I know. Boring night!

Ultimate cuteness!

Took this yesterday in Orrville while doing some grocery shopping. I'll let you decide.

At work it was funny today. I'm friends with Mike, a guy I went to the career center with. We've hung out with my Mike, etc. Anyway this new girl started the other day. She's pretty, I won't deny it, she's kinda tall, but ... other than that she's average. Anyway Mike told me that she came up to him and said "Now that I'm here you've got another cute girl to look at besides Briana." He's like ... "Yeah ... " LOL Mike has a girlfriend he talks about 24/7 and is way prettier & nicer than this chick. The whole lunch rush we were joking about how arrogant and stuck up she was, I'd just walk by him and say "Shes flat chested!" And he'd crack up laughing and said he didn't even think she was pretty. It's fun to knock someone off their pedestal, even if it's behind their back.

CRYING SECTION:
Ever really cried your heart out?
What girl hasn't? Haven't in a few months though.
Ever cried yourself to sleep?
Yes ...
Ever cried on your friend's shoulder?
Not really, I usually cry alone, or around Mike.
Ever cried over the opposite sex?
Tsk, again, who hasnt?
Do you cry when you get an injury?
Not usually, but sometimes my eyes get really watery, honestly I don't mean to cry that much!
Do certain songs make you cry?
Yes :(
HAPPY SECTION:
Are you a happy person?
It really depends. Generally, it's 50/50.
What can make you happy?
My boyfriend & friends, reading a good book, playing video games, a nice tip from a customer!
Do you wish you were happier?
Yes.
Is being happy overrated?
No ...
Can music make you happy?:
Sometimes, if it's a great band :)
LOVE SECTION:
How many times have you had your heart broken?
About three times.
Ever loved someone so much that you'd die for them?
Not until now.
Has anyone besides your friends and family ever said they love you?
Yes.
HATE SECTION:
Who do you actually hate?
I don't hate anyone, I very much dislike someone, but hate is a strong word.
Ever made a hit list?
Ha, no ... I always think of Steve Buscemi from Billy Madison ...
Have you ever been on a hit list?
Hopefully not, I'm not that bad!
Ever been a mean bully?
No :(
Do you hate George Bush?
Again ... strongly dislike ...
SELF ESTEEM SECTION:
Is your self-esteem extremely low?
It's low but not extremely.
Are you good looking?
Meh, I don't think so. I have a few good features.
Do you wish you can be someone else?
Nope.
I HAVE:
[ ] done crack.
[ ] done opium.
[ ] done PCP.
[ ] done prescription narcotics for recreational purposes.
[ ] huffed air-duster.
[ ] been to a rave.
[x] ridden in a taxi.
[x] jumped a ramp with a bike
[x] been dumped.
[x] been used.
[ ] shoplifted- under $10.
[ ] ran from the cops
[ ] been in a room of your school that you could get suspended for being in
[ ] been fired
[ ] been kicked out of a movie theater.
[x] snuck into a movie.
[ ] been in a fist fight.
[ ] got hit by a car
[x] fired a real gun.
[x] snuck out of the house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] gone in a mosh pit.
[x] stolen something from your school.
[ ] Celebrated New Year's in Times Square.
[ ] Gone on a blind date.
[x] Lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated Mardi-Gras in New Orleans.
[ ] been to Europe.
[ ] been to Australia
[ ] been to Hawaii
[x] skipped school
[ ] thrown up from drinking
[x] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover.
[ ] gone ice skating
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had your tonsils out
[x] have a car
[x] driven a car.
[ ] totaled a car.
[ ] flashed someone
[ ] been flashed
DO YOU:
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[ ] hate yourself.
[x] have a dog.
[x] sing along with your music.
[x] dance around your room in your underwear.
[ ] listen to Hawaiian Music
[x] listen to rock
[ ] listen to punk
[ ] listen to rap.
[ ] listen to country.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] listen to techno.
[x] listen to hardcore.
[x] listen to pop.
[ ] listen to r&b.
[ ] listen to jazz.
[x] listen to indie
[ ] listen to christian music
[x] listen to bands that can't be put into a category.
[x] have hobbies
[ ] skateboard.
[ ] get good grades.
[ ]play an instrument
[ ] have slippers.
[x] sleep in/wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color pink.
[x] like the color red
[ ] like the color green
[x] like the color black
[xxxx] like the color purple
[ ] like neon colors
[x] like to read
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair
[ ] have medium length hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
[x] have a cellphone
ARE YOU:
[ ] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] sad
[ ] Hawaiian
[ ] blonde
[x] brunette
[ ] a redhead
[ ] Samoan.
[ ] Philipino.
[ ] Korean.
[ ] French
[x] American
[ ] Italian
[ ] African
[ ] Black.
[ ] Mexican.
[ ] Asian
[x] a Christian
[ ] a Muslim
[ ] Polish
[ ] Irish
[x] German
[ ] Austrian
[x] Other
[ ] Norwegian
[x] No clue.
[ ] a Hindu
[ ] a scientologist
[ ] agnostic
[ ] satanist
[x] religiously confused
[ ] short.
[x] average
[ ] tall
[x] realistic
[x] an emotional kid.
[ ] talking to someone.
[ ] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die
[ ] buzzed
[ ] high
[x] caffeinated
[ ] annoyed.
[ ] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[ ] ticklish
[x] listening to music.
LOOK AT ME:
What is your current hair color?
Brown.
Whats your natural color?
Brown.
What color are your eyes?
Blue.
Straight Hair or Curly hair?
Straight.
Current Piercings?
Two in each ear.
CURRENTLY WEARING:
What shirt are you wearing?
My Grinder's shirt!

Shorts/pants:
Khaki work pants.
Shoes?
MIA
Underwear?
Just regular ones XD
Necklaces?
My heart necklace that Mike gave me last April (I wear it 95% of the time).
THIS OR THAT:
Rock or rap:
Rock
Coffee or Hot Cocoa:
Hot cocoa, ew coffee.
Wild Night out or Romantic Night in?
Romantic Night In :)
Chocolate or Vanilla:
Chocolate by FAR
Hummer or Sports Car:
Sports car, ugh Hummers are ridiculous.
Bracelet or Necklace:
Hm, I love big necklaces and bracelets, so I can't choose. Can't have one without the other!
History or Science:
History, definitely
Sleep in or Early to rise:
Sleep in duh :)
Beach or Boardwalk:
Beach Hoodie or Tee Shirt:
T-Shirt
Night or Day:
Night.
High School or college:
Well I hated high school and am not in college.
California or Florida:
Florida was awesome, going to Cali in May .. so I'll tell ya then!
Simple Plan or Good Charlotte:
Neither!
HAVE YOU EVER:
Kissed the same Sex?:
Nope
Hugged someone?
Yes...
Been on the phone until the sun came up?
Yes
Put a song on repeat for more than an hour?
Haha, yes
Laughed so hard you peed in your pants?
LOL no
Got in a fight with someone?
Who doesnt?
THE LAST:
person you talked to in person?
My mom
person you talked to online?
Probably ompabrandon from Gaia
person you talked to on the phone?
My mom
drink?
Diet Coke
laugh?
When me and Mike were talking at work today about that arrogant girl.
last time you had a shower?
Yesterday
RANDOM:
Do you like surveys:
Obviously ...
What kind of shampoo do you use?
Depends on what new stuff my mom wants to try; usually Tres Semme
Do you get along with your parents?
Usually
Are you old enough to vote?
Yep
Do you have mental breakdowns?
Only every other day at work ...
Did you ever tell your parents you didnt feel well so you wouldnt have to go to school?
Who didnt?
CURRENT:
-Current Mood: Just meh, gotta go back to work in an hour or so.
-Current Music: "Anyway" by Dynamite Hack
-Current hair: Brown
-Current Annoyance: My back kinda hurts :\
-Current Longing: Mike ... or some Triple Fudge Brownie Ben n Jerry's ...
-Current thing I ought to be doing: Yay, nothing at the moment :)
-Current Windows: Myspace, tblog, Winamp, and Photoshop.
-Current desktop picture?: A Suikoden III desktop I made :)
-Current Favorite Music Artist?: Dynamite Hack
-Current CD in stereo: A mixed one
-Current Worry: Hm, no immediate ones
-Current video or DVD in player: "Waiting..."

I've finally had one of those computer moments where you're like ... what??? And then laugh hysterically. This is the box that popped up on my computer about 10 minutes again when I wanted to troubleshoot why my internet wasn't working (figured it out myself, of course).


Awesome, huh?

Anyway not a lot has been going on so I haven't been making a lot of posts ... watching "Waiting.." yesterday, oh man that was hilarious. People who have never been a server can think it's funny, but they have no IDEA how dead on those stereotypes are of people; it's hilarious. Especially of the "biiotch!" woman who was nasty to her waitress. I get practically one a day!

Oh, I also had this asshole prick tell me how to do my job today. I told him we only do our burgers well done because, that's just how we do it. It was taking longer than usual, so there was about a 20 minute wait on his tables food. I kept going over there, saying sorry it was taking a while, and he's like "Oh it's okay, we're having a nice visit" .. so I take out the food and they're fine. I go over to give them their check and he's like "Just some pointers, next time you have someone who gets a burger, tell them it's going to take 45 minutes to cook so they won't be mad like I am." I'm just like ... okay ... I wasn't disrespectful but I also didn't kiss his ass and apoligize profusely. When I got his CC receipt back, he'd left me a whole $1, for three people, refills, etc. What a fucking asshole. I knew the day was gonna come when someone was gonna "coach" me; I've read it on bitterwaitress.com. Who the hell does he think he is to tell me how to do much fucking job? ::punches something:: Ugh, I'm getting mad all over again just thinking about it!

Today is my sister's 24th birthday. It's a really amazing thing, because she wasn't expected to live to be 5. Then 10. Then 15. Etc ... and she's beaten all the odds :) She has cerebral palsy, can't walk or talk, but whenever we see her (she lives in a home for handicapped children and adults) she gets really excited and of course she knows who we are. I'm very sensitive with a lot of what happened with the Terri Schiavo case and while I don't let jokes get to me, I would appreciate that if anyone has anything mean to say, please keep it to themselves. I realize there are many factors going into issues such as Terri's, and my sister is in a very similar state. But it is not I who will judge who should live, and who should die.

Anyway, she lives at the Hattie Larlham Foundation in Mantua, Ohio. They take great care of her and so many other kids. She's lived there since she was about 7, I believe, so I was pretty young. My mom used to take care of her when we lived in Cleveland, but ultimately it became in her best interest to stay at the Foundation, especially after my parents divorced. She also has epilepsy. All of this because she had a lack of oxygen at birth. But she stays strong, and so does my mom.

We love you Jessica. See you tomorrow :)

Firstly ... I'm getting really aggravated with this wireless net connection ... it goes on and off ... will stay on for like 15 minutes, go out for 1 minute, stay on for an hour, go out for 45 minutes. It sucks! :'(

But I'm calmed down since my rash post last night. I was just so mad! I needed to vent. So Mike did pick me up and we basically just hung out last night and today. We went out to Pet's Pajama's in Fairlawn, which is where Mike takes some of his puppies to sell, because it's easier than running an ad. Downside is that they ask A LOT more for them because both Mike and the store make a profit. Anyway, Mike was talking to the manager and got his check for three puppies, and I was looking at some really cute ones ... this lady comes over and starts "awwing" at them and told me she had one and wanted another little dog ... so I'm like ... (hehe) "My boyfriend breeds dogs and brings them here so if you're interested I could have him talk to you because he sells them a lot cheaper than here." So they talked and maybe I sold a dog for him ^.^

Anyway then we went out to Wooster to a really good used bookstore and FINALLY found "Helter Skelter" which I've been looking for ... literally over a year. It's about the Manson family murders. I read it when I was about 15, then lost it ... it's a great book. Also picked up a basic cooking book.

Then we went back to Mike's and watched "Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust." ... but I feel so guilty because I was so tired I fell asleep! I didn't really catch the ending so I feel super bad but I was just lethargic as hell today ... I really liked what I saw of it ... :'(

I have a great work schedule this week. I work every lunch, Mon - Thurs, have Friday off, work Saturday night, and Sunday. Sunday we're only open 9 - 3 pm so that hardly counts. So ... I'm wondering when that "Date Movie" comes out because we haven't been to the movies in a while. And "Waiting" comes out on Tuesday which I guess I have to watch, heh ... I really don't like that Ryan Reynolds guy but now that I'm in the "waiting" business I'll get the jokes!

Sorry to peoples I haven't commented on in a while, I'm just really fed up w/my computer. I hope everyone has a great week :) :idea: Oh I forgot to mention ... I'll FINALLY have those zoo + musical pictures up by Thursday ... ::mutters expletives:: ::hugs Mike::

This photo = lame or good?

Okay, I'm really pissed off, I was talking to my boyfriend and was peeved because his stepdad wasn't there but he didn't invite me over, not a huge deal, but we haven't seen each other in a few days and his mom is usually nice and lets me stay over when he's not there. So I why he doesn't want me to come over, and he's like "Fine I'll ask my mom if you can come over." I said no because I don't want to go over there if he doesn't want me to, he's asking out of guilt/whatever. So he hangs up on me on the phone saying he's picking me up in 45 minutes, even though that wasn't the point AT ALL, I need to take a shower and I'm pretty tired. So I'm pissed off because obviously he understood my point but didn't acknowledge it. UGH!

Yeah! Nothing really happened yesterday or today so I didn't feel the need to make a blog entry. Worked a long day, hardly made any money, then worked again today, same story. Me and my mom drove down to Dover (about 40 minutes away) to the used car place she and my stepdad go to and I looked at a nice looking car.


1996 Oldsmobile Cutlass Supreme

The one I looked at was black and really cool, but they wanted almost $5000 for it. The listed dealer value is only about $4200. So I'll say no to that ... just looking at more used cars. Nothing really going on. Gotta work at 8 am tomorrow so I'm trying to make myself sleepy blah. Yep ... sorry not so interesting today. Discovered a really cool band to listen to on MySpace even though they're broke up. Check em out here. They're called Dynamite Hack. Ciao! :idea: Edit: Been looking at local used cars for sale. Found a few I'm interested in. Here's ya go.


1997 Pontiac Sunfire SE for $3,340.
Features:Air Conditioning, AM/FM Audio System, Am/Fm/Cassette Audio System, Bucket Rear Seat, Intermittent Wipers, Privacy Glass, Tilt Steering Wheel, Velour Upholstery.
(Sunfires were my favorite car back in like, 8th grade/freshman year. Actually freshman year was the BMW Z3 convertible ... I looked all over for the miniature model with opening doors my friend got me for Christmas in like 2001 but I can't find it T_T) ...


1995 Honda Civic LX for $3,995.
Features:FWD, Cruise Control, Power Steering, Power Brakes, Bucket Seats, Cloth Seats, Power Windows, Power Door Locks, Remote Trunk Release, Tilt Steering Wheel, Center Console, Intermittent Windshield Wipers, Rear Window Defroster, Tachometer
(My old car was a 1991 Civic. So what if I like them!)


1996 Mercury Sable GS for $1,990
Features: Air Conditioning, 15 inch Rim Size, Power Brakes, Power Steering, Dual front air bags/active belts, 4 speed automatic with overdrive Transmission, AM/FM Radio, 182 Cubic Inch Displacement, Tilt Wheel, Front Wheel Drive, Power Windows, 6 Cylinders
(No overwhelming happiness about this car but it's a good price.)

Survey time! Thanks Goins!

1) Who is the last person you high-fived?
Probably Mike.

2) If you were drafted into a war, would you serve?
Depends on if I agreed with the reason I might be sent to die. Now? No.

3) Do you sleep with the tv on?
If I'm really tired and fall asleep with it on.

4) Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
I typically get milk in jugs, and that's kinda hard to drink out of, so no.

5) Have you ever won a spelling bee?
Don't get me started ... I was a spelling bee champ and got second place in a regional thing in 7th grade ... could've punched the kid that beat me on an EASY WORD! Laceration! What kind of word is that for a final word? E-a-s-y!

6) Have you ever been stung by a bee?
I've only stepped on one when I was 6 running through a sprinkler. I was dumb.

7) How fast can you type?
Pretty darn fast. People usually comment when they watch me type.

8) Are you afraid of the dark?
No, but I loved the TV show :)

9) What color are your socks?
Plain white, some are pink.

10) Have you ever made out at a drive-in?
Hm, only went to the drive in once with Mike, and we pretty much watched the movie ("Fantastic Four" which sucked. We should've made out ... ).

11) When is the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
If our bath WORKED ...

12) Do you knock on wood?
LOL no ...

13) Do you floss daily?
Not daily, if I've got some crap stuck in my teeth I do. Toothpick is preferable however.

14) Do you wanna Fanta?
I hate that commercial.

15) Can you hula hoop?
Haha, right ...

16) Are you good at keeping secrets?
Yeah, I would say so :)

17) What do you want for Christmas?
Christmas is nearly another year away ...

18) Do you know the Muffin Man?
I ate him.

19) Do you talk in your sleep?
No, but I drool like a madman!

20) Who wrote the book on love?
Fuckin ... Clinton.

21) Have you ever flown a kite?
Yeah, back in the day. They always either dragged on the ground or got stuck in a tree.

22) Do you wish on your fallen lashes?
WHAT?

23) Do you whiten your teeth?
I use whitening toothpaste but that's as far as it goes.

24) Can you smell what the Rock is cooking?
Smells skanky ...

25) Have you ever asked for a pony?
LOL no.

26) Have you, or would you ever, donate sperm/eggs? If it was to a good friend who desperately needed them, yes, but not to a random stranger.

27) Can you juggle?
Yeah right.

28) Missing someone now?
Mmmhmm :(

30) Do the chickens have large talons?
LOL yes.

32) Are you ready to rumble?
That guy gets on my nerves.

34) Have you ever been suspended or expelled from school?
Ugh ... some dumbass substitute got me and my ex suspended for a few days senior year (like right near graduation too) because she thought we were havin too much PDA. Dumb bitch ...

35) How do you spell relief?
S-L-E-E-P

36) Have you ever crawled through a window?
Almost out of Mike's bedroom to walk on the roof but it was too steep. I'm chicken :X

37) Have you ever eaten dog food?
You mean my cooking? Ha .. jk I rock.

38) Can you handle the truth?
Depends.

39) Do you like green eggs and ham?
You mean what we serve at our restaurant? Ha ... jk we rock.

40) Who is your daddy?
A.K.A. most likely worst movie ever.

41) What do you think about the person who posted this?
He's a pimp ;)

[Parents still together]
Nope, haven't been for 15 years.

[Siblings]
1 sister, 1 half brother, 2 stepbrothers

[Pets]
Chi Chi the chihuahua and Opal the dachsund.

FAVORITES

[Color]
Purple

[Number]
23 (not for LeBron grr!)

[Animal]
KOALA!

[Drinks]
Diet Coke, strawberry daquiri (virgin)

[Soda]
Diet COKE!

[Book]
"The Hobbit", "Otherland" series

[Flower]
Tiger lily <3>
DO YOU

[Color your hair?]
Used to color it red which I loved but got too expensive.

[Twirl your hair]
Yeah and sometimes I pull it out. It's slightly lame.

[Drink/Smoke?]
Nope, neither.

HAVE YOU EVER

[owned a cell phone?]
Who doesn't I hate those things :|

[Considered a life of crime?]
Ha, no thanks, I'm too naive.

[Consired being a hooker?]
Not seriously, no.

[Used someone?]
Nope.

[Been used?]
Yep.

[Been cheated on?]
Yep ...

[Kicked someone in the nuts?]
LOL, sometimes I wish ...

[Held a gun?]
Yep.

CURRENTS

[Current clothing]
Red shirt and black pants w/embroidery on em.

[Current mood]
Tired, bleh

[Current taste]
Cinnamon poptarts

[What you currently smell like?]
"Obsession" perfume

[Current hair]
In a bun

[Current thing I ought to be doing]
Sleeping!

[Current cd in stereo]
Some mix CD a friend from work lent me. It's okay.

[Last book you read]
"My Sister's Keeper" by Jodi Picoult.

[Last movie you saw]
"Rush Hour 2"

[Last thing you ate?]
Grilled cheese.

[Last person you talked to on the phone]
Mike.

That's about all I got now. Gotta get to bed. :)

So after I beat Suikoden III last night ... didn't have anything to do today. Hehe, just kiddin. I worked today, of course ... didn't do bad or good with tips, just average. Then my manager from the video store had the audacity to call the restaurant in the middle of our lunch rush demanding I bring the key to the store in after work. It's like, alright, but don't be a bitch, and don't bitch at me in the middle of lunch when I'm REALLY busy! Everyone could see I was getting flustered at the phone and kinda looked at me like "whoa, who was that?" so I explained and they were like, pfft, what a bitch ... everyone at work is really supportive. When someone gets pissed off there's always someone to at least get it off your chest to.

So I didn't have the key to the video store with me, and Mike was picking me up in two hours anyway, so I just figured I'd wait till he picked me up and we could go to the video store together so 1) I wouldn't have to drive all the way there and back and rush a shower & getting ready and 2) so he would be there with me so the manager wouldn't be a total bitch. And guess what, she was civil to me! Even though she was nasty on the phone. There's something about Mike, people are always nice or at least not rude around him. Good thing though :)

So anyway we rented "Rush Hour 2" because I've never seen the second one. Meh, definitely not as good as the first one, but okay. Just generally hung out ... set up "Baldur's Gate II" to play online with each other, either one of us on his laptop and the other on his computer, or him at his house and me at mine, so we could play ... it is REALLY HARD ... but it seems cool and making a character was fun. I am a ranger/cleric :)

But anyway we had another in depth discussion tonight as we seem to be having a lot lately. But it's cool ... I do have to be at work in like ... 9 hours though so I better start heading to bed. Goodnight! :idea:

Ugh ... why do I get like this late at night? I was browsing on myspace some people I went to school with, and I just feel so blah not going to college yet. This June I'll have graduated THREE YEARS AGO! That's ridiculous. I need to go back so bad, I really do, I just have to get my debt consolidated first so I can organize money. And I have to buy a new car. Well, firstly, I know it sounds weird, a 20 year old having debt. Well I had problems with National City that still need taken care of, medical bills, and car insurance. I wonder if I can consolidate those types of debt. It's nothing too major, but I need to take care of it. I actually wrote National City an email earlier tonight asking about the best course of action. I hate banks.

When it comes down to it, I don't even know what I want, but I need to go back to school to feel better about myself, and heck, Mike is graduating college soon. I feel like an idiot sometimes. He wants to go into foster care so the best courses I could take for that are social work and fields related, but my main stressor right now is paying of debt, because like Mike said, if we want to get a loan for a house someday, my bad credit isn't going to look so good. But on one hand I feel really pressured and sad that my poor choices are going to affect both of us like that. I don't care if the house would be totally in his name, if it means that my bad choices didn't affect him.

Well, I guess I just needed to get that off my chest ... now I gotta be at work in 7 1/2 hours ... night! :idea: